I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some pistols and a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.
Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
and i’m looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august 🎀
ANYWAYS
so i’ve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since i’ve been through every of these stages of blonde..💔
but i’m really slow so i don’t rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM 😭😭), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didn’t want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks 💓💓
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..💔..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..💔💔)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..🙏
every time I think I'm finally rid of it it comes back. And always behind my right ear and nowhere else. I don't get it. Why, why does it keep coming back, why did it happen in the first place, WHYYYYYY
for context it started during covid with face masks. The straps irritated the area behind my ears and caused dryness and now the dryness persists and just won't leave me alone even if I don't wear a mask.
We tried, but all of us got kicked off by the creator
Queens main got banned, and I'm not trying to fight with the creator over their creation.
It's living, sort of, people are making/playing the game, but nobody talks anymore without the creator getting uhm... irritated, if that's a good word???
This is Lofi btw, I'm glad to hear from you again cabin
I get physical damage whenever I remember this oh God.
I used to collect Pokemon cards,But i wouldn't like use a rubber band to hold hem together or like put them in those sleeves you could buy,I was like "I'll protect them my OWN way!"
I just realised Kafka Asagiri(Writer/Mangaka(?) of BSD) said that he fully SHIPS Soukoku,but he can't make it canon causee LGBTQ isn't supported that much where he is and I'm just like OH MY GOD.
And by that,I mean the time of month where the skin on the soles of my feet fucking peel off.
Yeah,normal recurrence for dancers in my dance form,it happens almost every month because of the footwork we do,but The EXCRUCIATING amount of pain is just ughhhh and then combine that with the pain and tiredness of dancing for like 2-3 hours straight.Literal hell.
My dad has a mask he keeps in the living room. It's always creeped me out. It was made to resemble a jester with long curled triangles lined with wire coming out the top of the mask. At the end of each one a jingle bell. The mask itself was black and gold covered in glitter with an intricate design.
It had a permanent smile on it's face and everytime I saw it I couldn't help the feeling that it was... staring at me. I can't, for the life of me, figure out why my dad keeps that thing around, but to each his own, I guess. I just try not to think about it when I visit. Try to ignore the feeling of being watched as I sleep. Try to ignore the chill I get everytime I look at it. I pretend it's not there.
This time when I came to visit... the mask was gone. I asked my dad, he said it went missing. He's not sure how it disappeared, but I, for one, was extremely relieved to finally have that thing out of my face. Good riddance, I say. I would finally have a peaceful night of sleep without that thing staring at me.
As I set up on the couch, ready to head to sleep... my relief about the mask quickly disappeared. The second my eyes were closed... I heard it. A faint sound... of jingle bells. And the feeling of being watched. Yet the mask was nowhere to be seen.
I'm not sure if this is better... or worse.
One thing's for sure, ever since then... that damn mask has followed me everywhere I go. Even in my own home I hear it...
Fun fact, this is based off a real mask my dad has and keeps on the door to his room and it freaks me and all my sisters out, but I'm glad to report the real mask isn't a demon or posessed lol
unfortunately it is at my dad's house and I am not currently there and do not currently have a picture of it.
To be honest, I'm more interested in seeing how you imagine the mask to look instead. I mean it could be anything when it comes to imagination so I'd love to see your thoughts.
Alright, if you do end up going to your dad's and when I finish (cough, start.) I could show you my rendition and you can show me what it really looks like
This is one of the many unsolved mysteries I can't stop thinking about so...
The MV Joyita was an American merchant ship that set out in October in 1955 from Samoa's harbour headed for the Tokelau Islands.
The ship would never arrive at it's destination.
THE DISAPPEARANCE:
On October 3rd, 1955, around 5:00 am, the MV Joyita left the Apia harbour on a path to the Tokelau Islands about 270 miles (430 km) away. She left Samoa on only one engine as her port engine clutch failed the pervious day. The trip was set to take somewhere between 41 and 48 hours with the ship set to arrive sometime on the 5th of October. On the 6th of October a message from Fakafo port reported the ship overdue.
No ship or land operator had heard any distress signal from the Joyita. A six day search-and-rescue mission was immediately launched. It covered around 100,000 square miles (260,000 km²) of ocean but no hint of the Joyita or her passengers or crew was found.
Five weeks later, on the 10th of November, the captain of Tuvalu, another merchant vessel, found the Joyita drifting nearly 600 miles (970 km) west from her scheduled route. The ship was partially submerged and listing heavily with no sign of the passengers or crew anywhere.
The missing passengers included a government official, a WWII surgeon, and two children. Four tons of cargo were also missing.
(planned route in red, where the Joyita was found in the purple circle)
THE EVIDENCE:
When the Joyita was found, the recovery party noted that the radio was tuned to 2182 KHz, the international marine distress channel.
Upon inspection, it was found that the wires of the radio had a break in them, limiting the radio's range to about 2 miles (3.2 km). The break had been painted over, obscuring it from view, meaning the crew likely didn't notice it was there.
The Joyita was found to be listing heavily and barnacle growth suggested that it had been listing for a long period of time.
There was damage to her superstructure. Her flying bridge was smashed away and the deckhouse windows were broken.
The dinghy and lifeboats on the ship were missing as well as all the life jackets. The Joyita did not carry enough life jackets for all 25 passengers and crew members.
The starboard engine was covered by mattresses, the port engine clutch was still disassembled meaning the Joyita was still running on one engine. The starter motor of the auxiliary engine was missing.
An auxiliary pump had been rigged between the main engines, but hadn't been attached.
The electric clocks on board had stopped at 10:25 and the switches for the cabin lights had been left on indicating that whatever happened, happened at night.
The logbook and navigational equipment as well as firearms had gone missing.
A doctor's bag was found on deck containing a stethoscope, a scalpel and four lengths of bloodied bandages.
There was still fuel left in the tanks, from the amount used it was estimated she made it about 391 km (243 miles) only 80 km (50 miles) off teh shore of Tokelau.
Due to the Joyita's extremely buoyant design, once the water in her hull was drained out she floated fine enough to be taken back to shore. The leak that flooded the ship was estimated to have started sometime after 9 pm on the second night of the voyage.
THE THEORIES:
Theories of what happened on the Joyita range from the rational and conventional to aliens and the paranormal with everyone making attempts to explain the strange disappearance of the passengers and crew of the Joyita.
Given that the Joyita's hull was perfectly sound and her design made her almost unsinkable, a main problem for investigators was figuring out why the passengers and crew abandoned the vessel if the events were simply triggered by the flooding of the ship.
Injured Captain Hypothesis:
The captain of the Joyita, Captain Miller, should have been well aware that the Joyita would not sink due to the flooding, yet it seems as though he abandoned the ship as well. A friend of Miller's also said that he firmly believed Captain Miller would not abandon the Joyita, at least not as long as he was alive. This then led to the theory that Captain Miller was somehow badly injured or even killed sometime before the leak happened creating a mass panic in the crew and passengers leading them to abandoning the vessel with an incapacitated or even dead captain. The bloodied bandages support this theory.
The previously mentioned friend of Captain Miller said that there was some tension between Captain Miller and his first mate that he believes might have evolved to a physical altercation leading to both the men possibly falling overboard, leaving the crew and passengers to panic when the ship began taking on water as no one but those two would have known what to do.
If this theory were true however, it would not explain the missing equipment and cargo as the crew and passengers would have left in a panic, they wouldn't have wasted time on the equipment or cargo. Another thing was that Captain Miller was the only well-experienced seaman on board other than his first mate.
Pirates Hypothesis:
PIRATES! Self-explanatory. The smashed flying deck and damaged deckhouse support this theory.
Some think it might be been the Japanese or Russians instead of pirates, but that's just because of the Cold War and also really heavy anti-Japanese sentiment going on around that time.
Insurance Fraud Hypothesis:
Record shows that Miller was in a large amount of debt around that time. However, thsi would have been impossible given that no seacocks (no one say anything) were found open letting the water flow into the shop and the ship was nearly impossible to deliberately sink. Miller was also relying on the Joyita making multiple trips to Tokelau and back for the government, quickly clearning his debt.
Mutiny Hypothesis:
Ship starts taking on water. No one on board is okay with this and wants to turn back to shore. Captain Miller is desperate to clear his debt so he keeps heading to Tokelau Islands regardless of what his crew tells him.
Crew is not happy. This results in a mutiny where Captain Miller is injured and when stormy weather starts to pick up, the electricity on the ship is cut out leaving everyone in pitch black with an incapacitated captain and a listing, flooded ship. The crew make the decision to abandon the vessel, taking the equipment and cargo with them as well as the passengers and injured captain.
This theory seems illogical as the first mate would not have abandoned the vessel in the middle of the night like that out into the Pacific Ocean with no plan. The rafts and dinghy were small, the ship may have been listing but it was still floating. There was no logical reason for the first mate to abandon the ship especially as an experienced seaman he should have known better.
The question of what happened on the Joyita that night leading to the disappearance of all the passengers and crew remains unanswered to this day, and with no more evidence or hints as to what may have happened on the ship, it will most likely remain that way.
For now, this case remains... Unsolved.
(I just wanted to follow the Buzzfeed Unsolved ending thing lmao.)
i mean-Yeah..i should've expected that as an answer honestly- I should've wrote "Who's that lady in the basement that days shes my mother?" Instead.My bad lmao.
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I just watched Hamilton for the first time
I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some
pistolsand a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,8!
Number!
Ten paces!
"FIRE!" "
Real tbh
you gotta duel about it
Gunna play this song secretly everytime my parents fight 💀
nahh 💀
do you ever hoOuu o sAasuuu asabu Yamate-dOoorri
Currently making my second ever sukuna drawing ✨
Filler for that is yuuta
I hope i get to move out of this household one day.
real.
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And plus,I can just TELL she's also racist.
God I hate this family sometimes.
real.
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
.
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
To our respective shitty mothers ig
Hehe to our respective shitty mothers lol!
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
real.
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
She doesn't listen to anyone but herself.
it’s 2 in the morning
and i’m looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august 🎀
ANYWAYS
so i’ve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since i’ve been through every of these stages of blonde..💔
but i’m really slow so i don’t rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM 😭😭), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didn’t want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks 💓💓
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..💔..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..💔💔)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..🙏
YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT THIS-
okayokau listen LISTEN.
Imagine,two enemies sitting at a table,in a game of rock paper sissors.
So,when they're both speaking,
"Rock,paper, sissors,shoot."
One of them shoots the other straight through the head,exactly when they both said "shoot"
And when inquired by their allies they just go,
"He/She/They said shoot" *shrugs*
I've been here so long I remember when you first posted this..-
I've posted this before? Man even I don't remember
Yes you did-
I was at my Grandma's house at that time and I responded with,and I quote,"WHY IS THE INTERNET HERE SO DAMN SLOW!?!?"
and I also think u were sick at the time
damn, sorry, my memory is akin to that of an overly-ripe banana, I literally only have the capacity to remember two things at a time, so...
MY VOICR SOUNDS HELLA SICK AND I HAVE A SPEECH TO MAKE TMR
SOMEBODY HELP ME WHAT DO I DO 😭
Drink warm water
Like boiled
Theres this weird thing in our family is if you step over water and cross it it messes with ur throat
And to fix it we get extremely boiled water and draw a cross on it w/our finger
And then drink it
It works all the time lols
Just a tip tho,idk
So like...I'm..uh...kinda obsessed with an oc I started to make.
I CANT HELP IT HER DESIGN IS SO COOL RAAHHHHHH
For some reason,sometimes only my left eye cries.
Sometimes when I feel like mental breakdown ish and I actually cry,only my left side has tears,my right is completely normal-
I like it though it makes me feel like furina :>
It happened again.
GOD DAMMIT WHY DOES MY ART HAVE TO BE GOOD IN MY BAD ART SKETCHBOOK BUT BAD IN MY GOOD ART SKETCHBOOK!???
(Random ass page too btw)
Why is the skin behind my ear ALWAYS DRY
every time I think I'm finally rid of it it comes back. And always behind my right ear and nowhere else. I don't get it. Why, why does it keep coming back, why did it happen in the first place, WHYYYYYY
for context it started during covid with face masks. The straps irritated the area behind my ears and caused dryness and now the dryness persists and just won't leave me alone even if I don't wear a mask.
I'm skipping school lol
OH MY GODDDDD
eras tour has moved its way to europe…
paris…
square up cuz how tf did u basically get a new tour.
ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT HER NEW OUTFITS FOR ICDIWABH?
travis i hope u can fight cuz…
I was on c.ai
And the oc pit their height as 6'10.
And I was like:
"SIX FOOT TEN?????? HUH???"
now I see how all the bots 'tower over you' or some shit like that because DAMN SIX FOOT TEN-
"Can I ask you a question" is the wordt thing ever tho- JUST ASK OMFG
IKRR WHENEVER I GET THAT AND I FEEL TROLLY I JUST GO
"Yeah sure,as long as it's not 'will you marry me?' laughs"
And then watch the ai go dead silent because that was the question BWHAHA
Hi hello I'm not dead
-throws kintopet at you-
-throws art at you-
STOP BECAUSE ITS SO EMBARRASSING FOR SOME REASON 😭
REAL AND THEN THEY'RE STILL TALKING AND GHE TEACHER TELLS YOU TO JUST START
WHICH JS IS CRAZY THEY SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID THAT INSTEAD OF YELLING
The red girl reminds me of these two random ppl
HAHAHA! snaps fingers A SAILORS INTUITION IS RARELY EVER WRONG!
....that's a guy
Oop-
I'm so sorry lol
lmfao nah dw about it
Kasane teto mentioned
YEAAHHHHH
YEAHHHHHH
KASANE TETOOOOOO
eats your art
Holy shit Cheerios your alive
Lmfao hi
LOL HIIIII
HOW U BEEENNN
I'VE BEEN GOOD 😋😋 HOW ABOUT YOU
Holy shit ur alive?
Hi yes I'm alive
Very cool
My school got a bomb threat today :>
Yikes dude. You okay?
Yeah,luckily it was just a threat and there wasn't an actual bomb lol
Yeah but like that's gotta be scary, no?
it was,but still free off so not that bad lmao
hey do you have any contact with anyone who was previously very active on mgm? Other than me.
We tried, but all of us got kicked off by the creator
Queens main got banned, and I'm not trying to fight with the creator over their creation.
It's living, sort of, people are making/playing the game, but nobody talks anymore without the creator getting uhm... irritated, if that's a good word???
This is Lofi btw, I'm glad to hear from you again cabin
Okay,so..this might become a trend but here I am trying to define myself with anime characters.
Personality?
Dazai Osamu(probably idk)
Hair?
Yor forger(but a bit longer)
Intelligence?
Ranpo Edogawa(as said by my friend+kinda ironic since my glasses look like his LMAO)
Dressing sense?
Shinpei Ajiro
I would probably do this if I knew enough characters off the top of my head. Unfortunately, my brain only works when I don't need it.
that is so relatable honestly lol
Smash all of them
PFT- WHAT?
you heard me
Ok
Real interaction me nad my friends had during practice
Freind1:"too bad I can't block people irl.."(she's talking about some shitty guy)
Me,without even somehow thinking about what I say next:"Restraining order."
Friend 2:"Murder."
And then friend 1 just stares at us like "...."
She didn't talk to us for the rest of the day.
Pay someone to kidnap them.
pft-..
I mean,I haven't seen her in a while,so....
Oof
Drew chuuya at the front of my sketchbook.Will draw dazai at the back because yes
(Just realised the colours look WEIRD in the lighting)
I wanna post the pages of our manga but itch.io WONT LETME DO MULTIPLE PHOTOS AT ONCE.
Fuck Zodiac signs,which Undertale human soul trait are you?
Red(Frisk)-Determination(Undertale)
Red(Chara)-DeTERMINATION[get it,cause..genocide route?](Undertale)
Dark Green-Kindness(no fan game yet sadly)
Purple(Batty)-Perseverance(Undertale Purple;DEMO released)(Undertale Kindred Spirits)
Light Blue-Patience
Dark blue-Integrity(Undertale Kindred Spirits)
Yellow(Clover.ITS CL-OVER PPL!!)-Justice(Undertale YELLOW)
Orange-Bravery
I'm back in my Undertale phase :)
I get physical damage whenever I remember this oh God.
I used to collect Pokemon cards,But i wouldn't like use a rubber band to hold hem together or like put them in those sleeves you could buy,I was like "I'll protect them my OWN way!"
i used to tape them together.
Like,front to back,back to front.
Why was I like this
....you were a criminal
I know.
I just realised Kafka Asagiri(Writer/Mangaka(?) of BSD) said that he fully SHIPS Soukoku,but he can't make it canon causee LGBTQ isn't supported that much where he is and I'm just like OH MY GOD.
Me when I pretend to study(im reading manga behind the book):
It's that time of the month again~
And by that,I mean the time of month where the skin on the soles of my feet fucking peel off.
Yeah,normal recurrence for dancers in my dance form,it happens almost every month because of the footwork we do,but The EXCRUCIATING amount of pain is just ughhhh and then combine that with the pain and tiredness of dancing for like 2-3 hours straight.Literal hell.
I am (not) okay :')
New favourite quote:
Where is this from??
Madoka Magica if I recall correctly lol
Thanks
Okay peoples
Since my friend isn't allowed her phone,please pick an outfit.
OUTFIT 1
--------------------~••••~----------------------
OUTFIT 2
The second one imo
Noted!
(You have just contributed alot to our manga c: )
Wow, I better be put in the credits then lmao
Pft- yeah sure lol!
I just imagine you wrote my name at the very bottom of the page in very very small almost unreadable text lmao
Like: "and lastly this bitch who demanded to be credited for doing the absolutely nothing"
Honestly that's the best thing ever, that'd be fucking hilarious-
Second rahhh
Ra aahhh
Im so tired and yet so awake at the same time.
me 👅💯🔥
Slay
fweaky vro 💓💓
Vewy fweaky lol
Finnally got motivation to draw howl
Will update when it's halfway there
Uhm..
So I uh...
I might've used half of my money on the Tokyo ghoul vol 1-3 manga's....
(Getting 4 and 5 today so I now officially have 44 manga.)
If we're doing horror stories.
My dad has a mask he keeps in the living room. It's always creeped me out. It was made to resemble a jester with long curled triangles lined with wire coming out the top of the mask. At the end of each one a jingle bell. The mask itself was black and gold covered in glitter with an intricate design.
It had a permanent smile on it's face and everytime I saw it I couldn't help the feeling that it was... staring at me. I can't, for the life of me, figure out why my dad keeps that thing around, but to each his own, I guess. I just try not to think about it when I visit. Try to ignore the feeling of being watched as I sleep. Try to ignore the chill I get everytime I look at it. I pretend it's not there.
This time when I came to visit... the mask was gone. I asked my dad, he said it went missing. He's not sure how it disappeared, but I, for one, was extremely relieved to finally have that thing out of my face. Good riddance, I say. I would finally have a peaceful night of sleep without that thing staring at me.
As I set up on the couch, ready to head to sleep... my relief about the mask quickly disappeared. The second my eyes were closed... I heard it. A faint sound... of jingle bells. And the feeling of being watched. Yet the mask was nowhere to be seen.
I'm not sure if this is better... or worse.
One thing's for sure, ever since then... that damn mask has followed me everywhere I go. Even in my own home I hear it...
I hear those damn bells. Everywhere.
Can I draw a character based on the mask pretty please
go ahead that'd be great actually!
Fun fact, this is based off a real mask my dad has and keeps on the door to his room and it freaks me and all my sisters out, but I'm glad to report the real mask isn't a demon or posessed lol
yayyy okayy
Oh damn can I have a picture of the mask as a reference?
Non possession arc 💪🏾
unfortunately it is at my dad's house and I am not currently there and do not currently have a picture of it.
To be honest, I'm more interested in seeing how you imagine the mask to look instead. I mean it could be anything when it comes to imagination so I'd love to see your thoughts.
Ah damn
Alright, if you do end up going to your dad's and when I finish (cough, start.) I could show you my rendition and you can show me what it really looks like
This is one of the many unsolved mysteries I can't stop thinking about so...
The MV Joyita was an American merchant ship that set out in October in 1955 from Samoa's harbour headed for the Tokelau Islands.
The ship would never arrive at it's destination.
THE DISAPPEARANCE:
On October 3rd, 1955, around 5:00 am, the MV Joyita left the Apia harbour on a path to the Tokelau Islands about 270 miles (430 km) away. She left Samoa on only one engine as her port engine clutch failed the pervious day. The trip was set to take somewhere between 41 and 48 hours with the ship set to arrive sometime on the 5th of October. On the 6th of October a message from Fakafo port reported the ship overdue.
No ship or land operator had heard any distress signal from the Joyita. A six day search-and-rescue mission was immediately launched. It covered around 100,000 square miles (260,000 km²) of ocean but no hint of the Joyita or her passengers or crew was found.
Five weeks later, on the 10th of November, the captain of Tuvalu, another merchant vessel, found the Joyita drifting nearly 600 miles (970 km) west from her scheduled route. The ship was partially submerged and listing heavily with no sign of the passengers or crew anywhere.
The missing passengers included a government official, a WWII surgeon, and two children. Four tons of cargo were also missing.
(planned route in red, where the Joyita was found in the purple circle)
THE EVIDENCE:
When the Joyita was found, the recovery party noted that the radio was tuned to 2182 KHz, the international marine distress channel.
Upon inspection, it was found that the wires of the radio had a break in them, limiting the radio's range to about 2 miles (3.2 km). The break had been painted over, obscuring it from view, meaning the crew likely didn't notice it was there.
The Joyita was found to be listing heavily and barnacle growth suggested that it had been listing for a long period of time.
There was damage to her superstructure. Her flying bridge was smashed away and the deckhouse windows were broken.
The dinghy and lifeboats on the ship were missing as well as all the life jackets. The Joyita did not carry enough life jackets for all 25 passengers and crew members.
The starboard engine was covered by mattresses, the port engine clutch was still disassembled meaning the Joyita was still running on one engine. The starter motor of the auxiliary engine was missing.
An auxiliary pump had been rigged between the main engines, but hadn't been attached.
The electric clocks on board had stopped at 10:25 and the switches for the cabin lights had been left on indicating that whatever happened, happened at night.
The logbook and navigational equipment as well as firearms had gone missing.
A doctor's bag was found on deck containing a stethoscope, a scalpel and four lengths of bloodied bandages.
There was still fuel left in the tanks, from the amount used it was estimated she made it about 391 km (243 miles) only 80 km (50 miles) off teh shore of Tokelau.
Due to the Joyita's extremely buoyant design, once the water in her hull was drained out she floated fine enough to be taken back to shore. The leak that flooded the ship was estimated to have started sometime after 9 pm on the second night of the voyage.
THE THEORIES:
Theories of what happened on the Joyita range from the rational and conventional to aliens and the paranormal with everyone making attempts to explain the strange disappearance of the passengers and crew of the Joyita.
Given that the Joyita's hull was perfectly sound and her design made her almost unsinkable, a main problem for investigators was figuring out why the passengers and crew abandoned the vessel if the events were simply triggered by the flooding of the ship.
Injured Captain Hypothesis:
The captain of the Joyita, Captain Miller, should have been well aware that the Joyita would not sink due to the flooding, yet it seems as though he abandoned the ship as well. A friend of Miller's also said that he firmly believed Captain Miller would not abandon the Joyita, at least not as long as he was alive. This then led to the theory that Captain Miller was somehow badly injured or even killed sometime before the leak happened creating a mass panic in the crew and passengers leading them to abandoning the vessel with an incapacitated or even dead captain. The bloodied bandages support this theory.
The previously mentioned friend of Captain Miller said that there was some tension between Captain Miller and his first mate that he believes might have evolved to a physical altercation leading to both the men possibly falling overboard, leaving the crew and passengers to panic when the ship began taking on water as no one but those two would have known what to do.
If this theory were true however, it would not explain the missing equipment and cargo as the crew and passengers would have left in a panic, they wouldn't have wasted time on the equipment or cargo. Another thing was that Captain Miller was the only well-experienced seaman on board other than his first mate.
Pirates Hypothesis:
PIRATES! Self-explanatory. The smashed flying deck and damaged deckhouse support this theory.
Some think it might be been the Japanese or Russians instead of pirates, but that's just because of the Cold War and also really heavy anti-Japanese sentiment going on around that time.
Insurance Fraud Hypothesis:
Record shows that Miller was in a large amount of debt around that time. However, thsi would have been impossible given that no seacocks (no one say anything) were found open letting the water flow into the shop and the ship was nearly impossible to deliberately sink. Miller was also relying on the Joyita making multiple trips to Tokelau and back for the government, quickly clearning his debt.
Mutiny Hypothesis:
Ship starts taking on water. No one on board is okay with this and wants to turn back to shore. Captain Miller is desperate to clear his debt so he keeps heading to Tokelau Islands regardless of what his crew tells him.
Crew is not happy. This results in a mutiny where Captain Miller is injured and when stormy weather starts to pick up, the electricity on the ship is cut out leaving everyone in pitch black with an incapacitated captain and a listing, flooded ship. The crew make the decision to abandon the vessel, taking the equipment and cargo with them as well as the passengers and injured captain.
This theory seems illogical as the first mate would not have abandoned the vessel in the middle of the night like that out into the Pacific Ocean with no plan. The rafts and dinghy were small, the ship may have been listing but it was still floating. There was no logical reason for the first mate to abandon the ship especially as an experienced seaman he should have known better.
The question of what happened on the Joyita that night leading to the disappearance of all the passengers and crew remains unanswered to this day, and with no more evidence or hints as to what may have happened on the ship, it will most likely remain that way.
For now, this case remains... Unsolved.
(I just wanted to follow the Buzzfeed Unsolved ending thing lmao.)
My dad said that my mother died two years ago,
but then who's the woman in the basement?..
He kidnapped some random lady.
i mean-Yeah..i should've expected that as an answer honestly- I should've wrote "Who's that lady in the basement that days shes my mother?" Instead.My bad lmao.
facepalms
lmao
I FINALLY GOT MY HAIR BACK TO ITS NATURAL TEXTURE BABES
honestly not sure I've ever been happier about something in my life.
Yaaaaayyyy!!!!!!
Dreaming
Pretty please
Could you draw my baby Esther
Now I know I probably shouldn't be experimenting with somone else's oc..
But like..I thought they would like way better in my ''OC'' style rather than my normal Referenced one lol
I'm going to eat this
Tyyyy
No problem!!!!
Also,Esther is pretty as hell ngl
Awh ty
He appreciates it <3
I look abck at this and see all the details I miss and Facepalm
AHHHHHH IM SO STUPID