I wanna post all the aesthetic photos I'm taking on this trip but I'm scared some tech genius will find out my legal name,home address, age,and other information from it /hj
dude last year i tried to make so many excuses to use the elevator considering i had pe EVERY single day, FIRST period btw…so i’d tell the hall monitor (literally he was the coolest hall monitor we’ve had in a WHILE), “my ankle twisted in pe..elevator?” AND HE’D LET ME LMFOAOAOAOO…but i hated pe being first period, cuz i’d come into the rest of my classes all sweaty 💔
real, I wish I could do that, but my school just straight up has no elevator. Funnily enough, even though there's not many students, there always has to be at least one person with a broken leg, all the time, yet they have no elevator.
My school uas an elevator but students aren't allowed to go in,only teachers and some..special exceptions.
Which I don't get because teacher bags are so light??? Why would they need elevators???(Yes I've held a teacher's bag)
But what's cool for me is that I had a friend last year and she had rickets so she was allowed to go in elevators and she used to drag me along because she knew stairs suck
yeah it was that way at my old school too, but like there are multiple janitors, right, so if you ask to go home early or go to the nurse they'll usually get one of the cleaners to escort you, and they ALWAYS take the elevator and give you a free ride with them!
ikr like those teachers literally do not need the elevator, we are DYING over here.
Yeah our parents usually pick us up but the maids escort you downstairs. Or... downelevator. BADUM TSSSS (I'm sorry)
But dude the nurse here literally isn't even a nurse, she used to work at the reception bruh 😭
Literally anything happens and she's like "have you eaten yet?" And if you say yes she's like "take panadol" and that's it.
You come in with a broken leg? Panadol.
You're having a heart attack? Panadol.
You've been stabbed in the chest 23 times? Idk man have you tried taking panadol?
Literally what.
Nah bc I told her once that I didn't eat yet but I have no money, no food, no job, no life, no friends, no house, no future, no nothing, and she's just like "that sounds like a you problem." So I just had to suck it up and sit to the end of the day while still sick.
Intuitive is like imaginative and open-minded and such, just more focused on originality and thinking about hidden meanings. Basically I prefer to let my mind run free.
Thinking means I rely more on my thoughts than my emotions or feelings or I try to. Like personally, in my mind, feelings are complicated and messy, and what matters more to me is logical thinking uncontrolled by emotion. We only look at the cold hard facts here.
Prospecting means I can easily improvise and adapt to situations. I prefer novelty over stability. I hate when things stay the same honestly, it's really boring, if nothing new happens, then nothing interesting happens.
Assertive. This one honestly I don't think is true but then again looking at the description for turbulent, I don't think that's true either. I don't think I'm either but I'll tell you what assertive means anyway. Assertive means I am more sure of myself and my decisions and such.
You're the same type as me but turbulent which is just the opposite of assertive.
But of course do keep in mind this is a pseudoscience, even if it is a logic-based concept it is not a scientifically proven thing.
yeah, it's a personality test, your personality can change overtime. Except apparently I am against change because every single time I have taken it has always been INTP. Kinda funny if you think about it.
is that sarcastic? I don't get it, what cool words?
I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some pistols and a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.
Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
and i’m looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august 🎀
ANYWAYS
so i’ve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since i’ve been through every of these stages of blonde..💔
but i’m really slow so i don’t rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM 😭😭), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didn’t want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks 💓💓
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..💔..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..💔💔)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..🙏
every time I think I'm finally rid of it it comes back. And always behind my right ear and nowhere else. I don't get it. Why, why does it keep coming back, why did it happen in the first place, WHYYYYYY
for context it started during covid with face masks. The straps irritated the area behind my ears and caused dryness and now the dryness persists and just won't leave me alone even if I don't wear a mask.
We tried, but all of us got kicked off by the creator
Queens main got banned, and I'm not trying to fight with the creator over their creation.
It's living, sort of, people are making/playing the game, but nobody talks anymore without the creator getting uhm... irritated, if that's a good word???
This is Lofi btw, I'm glad to hear from you again cabin
I get physical damage whenever I remember this oh God.
I used to collect Pokemon cards,But i wouldn't like use a rubber band to hold hem together or like put them in those sleeves you could buy,I was like "I'll protect them my OWN way!"
I just realised Kafka Asagiri(Writer/Mangaka(?) of BSD) said that he fully SHIPS Soukoku,but he can't make it canon causee LGBTQ isn't supported that much where he is and I'm just like OH MY GOD.
And by that,I mean the time of month where the skin on the soles of my feet fucking peel off.
Yeah,normal recurrence for dancers in my dance form,it happens almost every month because of the footwork we do,but The EXCRUCIATING amount of pain is just ughhhh and then combine that with the pain and tiredness of dancing for like 2-3 hours straight.Literal hell.
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I wanna post all the aesthetic photos I'm taking on this trip but I'm scared some tech genius will find out my legal name,home address, age,and other information from it /hj
Aw man there go my evening plans/j
But yeah I'm usually scared of that too. Like I've seen people on geoguesser guess were they are by the DIRT
IKR,and also,this is why I put a random contry's flag on my rooms balcony. To throw off then geoguesser players 👍
I'm so nice 😄
Of course, what else are you supposed to do? Be patriotic? Nuh uh, I'm here to make as many people as possible wish I was never born.
Is anyone surprised? No.
I got TRUE NEUTRAL
...like the Undertale run? No. I don't think there's a true neutral run..
But yay TRUE NEUTRALL
Nice! Leaning toward?
Chaotic
NICE
Ajbeoaksgwoe woanaowva wanna here me rant about random anime stuff
why is ticketmaster literally so unfair 😭.
november of 2022 i signed up to get registered to be in a lottery for taylor’s eras tour
and for MY city btw (las vegas)
and i got waitlisted
it was okay because i was competeing with probably hundreds of thousands of people
i knew i was
and then when she announced dates for Vancouver, i got waitlisted
now there’s a theory that tomorrow she WILL announce again a THIRD leg too the tour, which would be ending in the us
and
i’m kinda praying i DONT get waitlisted
like literally im so determined to drive down to LA and go to her concert their 😭🥲
but let’s just pray she even announces more dates 🙏
so like
i wonder what was going through my head when i posted this
I don't work out either. I am forced to take the stairs because my school literally has no elevator.
dude last year i tried to make so many excuses to use the elevator considering i had pe EVERY single day, FIRST period btw…so i’d tell the hall monitor (literally he was the coolest hall monitor we’ve had in a WHILE), “my ankle twisted in pe..elevator?” AND HE’D LET ME LMFOAOAOAOO…but i hated pe being first period, cuz i’d come into the rest of my classes all sweaty 💔
real, I wish I could do that, but my school just straight up has no elevator. Funnily enough, even though there's not many students, there always has to be at least one person with a broken leg, all the time, yet they have no elevator.
i regret using all those excuses, because the time i ACTUALLY sprained my ankle, i couldn’t use it 🥲..but it was fun while it lasted 💔
Oh man it looks like...
KaRmA's a BiTch
I sHouLdA KNowN bEtTer (I am sorry)
I guess this is like a boy who cried wolf situation lmao
My school uas an elevator but students aren't allowed to go in,only teachers and some..special exceptions.
Which I don't get because teacher bags are so light??? Why would they need elevators???(Yes I've held a teacher's bag)
But what's cool for me is that I had a friend last year and she had rickets so she was allowed to go in elevators and she used to drag me along because she knew stairs suck
yeah it was that way at my old school too, but like there are multiple janitors, right, so if you ask to go home early or go to the nurse they'll usually get one of the cleaners to escort you, and they ALWAYS take the elevator and give you a free ride with them!
ikr like those teachers literally do not need the elevator, we are DYING over here.
noice
Oh!!
In my school if we have to like,leave early,it's either be if we're sick,or if our parents come to pick us up earlier.
The former is very hard to accomplish because our school nurse is just THAT good-
And yeah,if someone's sick they'll normally get the maids to escort them through the elevator because we'll, you're sick.
That or if you get a MAJOR injury
Yeah our parents usually pick us up but the maids escort you downstairs. Or... downelevator. BADUM TSSSS (I'm sorry)
But dude the nurse here literally isn't even a nurse, she used to work at the reception bruh 😭
Literally anything happens and she's like "have you eaten yet?" And if you say yes she's like "take panadol" and that's it.
You come in with a broken leg? Panadol.
You're having a heart attack? Panadol.
You've been stabbed in the chest 23 times? Idk man have you tried taking panadol?
Literally what.
Nah bc I told her once that I didn't eat yet but I have no money, no food, no job, no life, no friends, no house, no future, no nothing, and she's just like "that sounds like a you problem." So I just had to suck it up and sit to the end of the day while still sick.
So apparently I'm an intp-t???
I took an mbti quiz but I have no clue lol
Oh cool I'm an intp-a
What do these words mean....
Introverted intuitive thinking prospecting - assertive
Introverted is obvious.
Intuitive is like imaginative and open-minded and such, just more focused on originality and thinking about hidden meanings. Basically I prefer to let my mind run free.
Thinking means I rely more on my thoughts than my emotions or feelings or I try to. Like personally, in my mind, feelings are complicated and messy, and what matters more to me is logical thinking uncontrolled by emotion. We only look at the cold hard facts here.
Prospecting means I can easily improvise and adapt to situations. I prefer novelty over stability. I hate when things stay the same honestly, it's really boring, if nothing new happens, then nothing interesting happens.
Assertive. This one honestly I don't think is true but then again looking at the description for turbulent, I don't think that's true either. I don't think I'm either but I'll tell you what assertive means anyway. Assertive means I am more sure of myself and my decisions and such.
You're the same type as me but turbulent which is just the opposite of assertive.
But of course do keep in mind this is a pseudoscience, even if it is a logic-based concept it is not a scientifically proven thing.
Eh NGL that kinda fits
But what I'm confused is that the first time I took this type of quiz I got..I think isfp???
So uh?? It changed???
Also cool. Cool words 👏
yeah, it's a personality test, your personality can change overtime. Except apparently I am against change because every single time I have taken it has always been INTP. Kinda funny if you think about it.
is that sarcastic? I don't get it, what cool words?
Them mountainranges>>>>
(Fuck train windows.)
My sister actually looks like geto suguru of she ties her hair like him
Like brroooo even the bangs
The amount of jokes I've made to her ABT this 💀
First trip that doesn't make me hate my parents woooo
Doryoku mirai a beautiful star
Doryoku mirai a beautiful star
(In my KICK BACK era)
I keep wondering, if there was a movie about my life what would the soundtrack be..?
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO WONDERED THAG LMFAOAOAOOA
i already know what mine would sound like
it’s a 10 hour playlist of the same song 🤗
damn. I have no clue what mine would be but my sister said it'd have angsty teen vibes
HELP LMFOAOAOA
mine would just be pure denial
and
anger
yeah i think that’s accurate
🎀
Mine would most probably be a bunch of semi-depressing Vocaloid songs.
And anime openings.
I just watched Hamilton for the first time
I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some
pistolsand a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,8!
Number!
Ten paces!
"FIRE!" "
Real tbh
you gotta duel about it
Gunna play this song secretly everytime my parents fight 💀
nahh 💀
do you ever hoOuu o sAasuuu asabu Yamate-dOoorri
Currently making my second ever sukuna drawing ✨
Filler for that is yuuta
I hope i get to move out of this household one day.
real.
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And plus,I can just TELL she's also racist.
God I hate this family sometimes.
real.
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
.
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
To our respective shitty mothers ig
Hehe to our respective shitty mothers lol!
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
real.
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
She doesn't listen to anyone but herself.
it’s 2 in the morning
and i’m looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august 🎀
ANYWAYS
so i’ve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since i’ve been through every of these stages of blonde..💔
but i’m really slow so i don’t rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM 😭😭), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didn’t want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks 💓💓
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..💔..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..💔💔)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..🙏
YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT THIS-
okayokau listen LISTEN.
Imagine,two enemies sitting at a table,in a game of rock paper sissors.
So,when they're both speaking,
"Rock,paper, sissors,shoot."
One of them shoots the other straight through the head,exactly when they both said "shoot"
And when inquired by their allies they just go,
"He/She/They said shoot" *shrugs*
I've been here so long I remember when you first posted this..-
I've posted this before? Man even I don't remember
Yes you did-
I was at my Grandma's house at that time and I responded with,and I quote,"WHY IS THE INTERNET HERE SO DAMN SLOW!?!?"
and I also think u were sick at the time
damn, sorry, my memory is akin to that of an overly-ripe banana, I literally only have the capacity to remember two things at a time, so...
MY VOICR SOUNDS HELLA SICK AND I HAVE A SPEECH TO MAKE TMR
SOMEBODY HELP ME WHAT DO I DO 😭
Drink warm water
Like boiled
Theres this weird thing in our family is if you step over water and cross it it messes with ur throat
And to fix it we get extremely boiled water and draw a cross on it w/our finger
And then drink it
It works all the time lols
Just a tip tho,idk
So like...I'm..uh...kinda obsessed with an oc I started to make.
I CANT HELP IT HER DESIGN IS SO COOL RAAHHHHHH
For some reason,sometimes only my left eye cries.
Sometimes when I feel like mental breakdown ish and I actually cry,only my left side has tears,my right is completely normal-
I like it though it makes me feel like furina :>
It happened again.
GOD DAMMIT WHY DOES MY ART HAVE TO BE GOOD IN MY BAD ART SKETCHBOOK BUT BAD IN MY GOOD ART SKETCHBOOK!???
(Random ass page too btw)
Why is the skin behind my ear ALWAYS DRY
every time I think I'm finally rid of it it comes back. And always behind my right ear and nowhere else. I don't get it. Why, why does it keep coming back, why did it happen in the first place, WHYYYYYY
for context it started during covid with face masks. The straps irritated the area behind my ears and caused dryness and now the dryness persists and just won't leave me alone even if I don't wear a mask.
I'm skipping school lol
OH MY GODDDDD
eras tour has moved its way to europe…
paris…
square up cuz how tf did u basically get a new tour.
ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT HER NEW OUTFITS FOR ICDIWABH?
travis i hope u can fight cuz…
I was on c.ai
And the oc pit their height as 6'10.
And I was like:
"SIX FOOT TEN?????? HUH???"
now I see how all the bots 'tower over you' or some shit like that because DAMN SIX FOOT TEN-
"Can I ask you a question" is the wordt thing ever tho- JUST ASK OMFG
IKRR WHENEVER I GET THAT AND I FEEL TROLLY I JUST GO
"Yeah sure,as long as it's not 'will you marry me?' laughs"
And then watch the ai go dead silent because that was the question BWHAHA
Hi hello I'm not dead
-throws kintopet at you-
-throws art at you-
STOP BECAUSE ITS SO EMBARRASSING FOR SOME REASON 😭
REAL AND THEN THEY'RE STILL TALKING AND GHE TEACHER TELLS YOU TO JUST START
WHICH JS IS CRAZY THEY SHOULD HAVE JUST SAID THAT INSTEAD OF YELLING
The red girl reminds me of these two random ppl
HAHAHA! snaps fingers A SAILORS INTUITION IS RARELY EVER WRONG!
....that's a guy
Oop-
I'm so sorry lol
lmfao nah dw about it
Kasane teto mentioned
YEAAHHHHH
YEAHHHHHH
KASANE TETOOOOOO
eats your art
Holy shit Cheerios your alive
Lmfao hi
LOL HIIIII
HOW U BEEENNN
I'VE BEEN GOOD 😋😋 HOW ABOUT YOU
Holy shit ur alive?
Hi yes I'm alive
Very cool
My school got a bomb threat today :>
Yikes dude. You okay?
Yeah,luckily it was just a threat and there wasn't an actual bomb lol
Yeah but like that's gotta be scary, no?
it was,but still free off so not that bad lmao
hey do you have any contact with anyone who was previously very active on mgm? Other than me.
We tried, but all of us got kicked off by the creator
Queens main got banned, and I'm not trying to fight with the creator over their creation.
It's living, sort of, people are making/playing the game, but nobody talks anymore without the creator getting uhm... irritated, if that's a good word???
This is Lofi btw, I'm glad to hear from you again cabin
Okay,so..this might become a trend but here I am trying to define myself with anime characters.
Personality?
Dazai Osamu(probably idk)
Hair?
Yor forger(but a bit longer)
Intelligence?
Ranpo Edogawa(as said by my friend+kinda ironic since my glasses look like his LMAO)
Dressing sense?
Shinpei Ajiro
I would probably do this if I knew enough characters off the top of my head. Unfortunately, my brain only works when I don't need it.
that is so relatable honestly lol
Smash all of them
PFT- WHAT?
you heard me
Ok
Real interaction me nad my friends had during practice
Freind1:"too bad I can't block people irl.."(she's talking about some shitty guy)
Me,without even somehow thinking about what I say next:"Restraining order."
Friend 2:"Murder."
And then friend 1 just stares at us like "...."
She didn't talk to us for the rest of the day.
Pay someone to kidnap them.
pft-..
I mean,I haven't seen her in a while,so....
Oof
Drew chuuya at the front of my sketchbook.Will draw dazai at the back because yes
(Just realised the colours look WEIRD in the lighting)
I wanna post the pages of our manga but itch.io WONT LETME DO MULTIPLE PHOTOS AT ONCE.
Fuck Zodiac signs,which Undertale human soul trait are you?
Red(Frisk)-Determination(Undertale)
Red(Chara)-DeTERMINATION[get it,cause..genocide route?](Undertale)
Dark Green-Kindness(no fan game yet sadly)
Purple(Batty)-Perseverance(Undertale Purple;DEMO released)(Undertale Kindred Spirits)
Light Blue-Patience
Dark blue-Integrity(Undertale Kindred Spirits)
Yellow(Clover.ITS CL-OVER PPL!!)-Justice(Undertale YELLOW)
Orange-Bravery
I'm back in my Undertale phase :)
I get physical damage whenever I remember this oh God.
I used to collect Pokemon cards,But i wouldn't like use a rubber band to hold hem together or like put them in those sleeves you could buy,I was like "I'll protect them my OWN way!"
i used to tape them together.
Like,front to back,back to front.
Why was I like this
....you were a criminal
I know.
I just realised Kafka Asagiri(Writer/Mangaka(?) of BSD) said that he fully SHIPS Soukoku,but he can't make it canon causee LGBTQ isn't supported that much where he is and I'm just like OH MY GOD.
Me when I pretend to study(im reading manga behind the book):
It's that time of the month again~
And by that,I mean the time of month where the skin on the soles of my feet fucking peel off.
Yeah,normal recurrence for dancers in my dance form,it happens almost every month because of the footwork we do,but The EXCRUCIATING amount of pain is just ughhhh and then combine that with the pain and tiredness of dancing for like 2-3 hours straight.Literal hell.
I am (not) okay :')
New favourite quote:
Where is this from??
Madoka Magica if I recall correctly lol
Thanks