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Reminder to that one time I got a six trillion years fc on a school trip jn the bus when my mother allowed me to take her phone for the very first time and my class just watching me from the back like 👁️👄👁️
People saying "make real friends and youll start to feel better!"
Please shut up.
One of the main reasons I ever thought about kms was because I thought that even though I have such good freinds, I'm probably just..annoying them. I get overexcited, talk so loudly, loose their things constantly, forget important things they told me, and is unable to keep secrets in a group full of such amazing people and I just. I can't. I'd rather just be alone in my room playing videogames because being with real people I'm just a fucking disappointment to myself and them. I know I mostly think that my parents are shitty bit tbh I don't deserve them. I make everything about myself. I'm such a selfish little idiot I'm
I don't even know what to say anymore, but please ignore this. I don't want any of you to worry. I should probably keep the mood light because reading vent is probably annoying asf. I don't want to ruin yalls day. Sorry.
It's not about that. You need to talk to someone. If you have friends talk to them. Support is what gets you through things, not trying to isolate yourself.
You're not any less or more than anyone else. At the end if the day we're all just people trying our best. You're not annoying or selfish or anything else you said. Liking something isn't annoying. Talking a lot is only annoying to people who hate listening. People hurt you and you're not selfish for being upset about it. I know what I'm saying only sounds like stuff I made up to comfort you, but I'm not that kind of person. I don't lie about important stuff like this.
Your emotions aren't a burden and I mean it. Just talk to someone. That's the first step. Talk to someone. Anyone you trust irl who can actually help cause I can't help from behind a screen. Please.
Are you talking about what I said? Making real friends isn't the reason I felt better. It's part of it but that's not it. My situation changed. I felt better because things got better. In general. I was just talking about my own personal experience. It's different for everyone. You don't need to move, or make new feiends, or go to a new school like me for things to get better. You just need to try and make a change. A positive one. Even a small one. Things get better with positive changes. Just focus on the little things.
For example... you took out the trash. If you did nothing else that day. Nothing at all. At least you took out the trash. You went to school. Even if you did nothing else. At least you went to school. Even something that isn't necessarily productive. You finally watched that show or movie you've been wanting to watch. You wrote a little bit more of that story you were writing. You went on a walk. You brushed your hair. Anything positive no matter how big or small. If you did nothing else that day. At least you did that.
And most importantly talk to someone. I won't stop saying it until you do. Support is seriously the most important part of all of this.
The fact that you vented here is fine, seriously. /gen. It just means you feel safe and free talking here, and that's a good thing. But as Nightcrawler said, please talk to someone face-to-face. They'll be able to help, we won't.
i want to fucking kil myself. My mother shouted at me for a fucking PEN. i didnt even do anything i asked tmy freind for a pen because mine leaked and i gave it back and she emssages me like "hey i dont have my pen do you have it cause i agve it to you?" and my mother keeps yelling at me for loosing somebody elses things WHEN I GAVE IT BACK. I GAVE IT BACK THAT GIRL PROBABLY LOST IT BY EHRSELF AT SCHOOL OR SOMETHING I DONT FUCKING KNOW? I VIVIDLY REMEMEBR GIVING IT BACK. and now im sitting here crying in my room because my own mother called me a stupid mindless beggar who doesnt understand the worth of anything. I'm going to commit tonight i swear to fucking god. If i dont respond tomorrow it means it worked. bye.
idk if this is gonna get to you but PLEASE do not kill yourself. I know how you feel, I get it. Nobody loves you and it would be better if you just went away, right? Everyone would be happier without you, right? It's never gonna get better so why put myself through it, right? I've been there. I've thought that way too. But it does get better. I know everyone says that and you never believe it because it feels like it only gets worse and worse, but trust me, it does.
Back when I wanted to die the mgm community is what kept me going. I kept posting on there even if I was the only one around because it gave me something to live for. Waiting for everyone else to come back. And then it got better. I moved to a new place and a new school. I made real friends. I still feel terrible sometimes, I still feel like I did before, but I haven't seriously considered killing myself for the longest time in a long time. It does get better. No matter how bad it is now. No matter how bad it continues to get. At some point it does get better. Even if it takes a while.
Please. You're one of the only friends I have left on here. We were supposed to make a show together, remember? Please just come back.
"alright so- CHASE DOWN MEW! GOTTA CATCH 'EM ALL! INAI NAI TEKA CHOUSHI DOU? MITA KOTO NAI ANO POKEMON ZETTAI KATTE SONDE GETTO DA ZE! YUH
DOKO NI MO INAI SHI MAJIME NA HANASHI FUSHIGI NA ANO KO MAJI MABOROSHI? SAGASHITENAI BASHO NANTE NAKUNAI? DASHI! YADA MOU MURI KUNAI? TADA REBERU AGARU DAKE NONKI YOUKI MUJAKI NANDA TTE II NO! POKESEN? GEESEN? SASUGA NI INAI KA W "UNMEITE KI NA DEAI" KITAI SHITE “AIGACCHUU!"
me cause I don't have a record player, I don't have any vinyl records, I don't own all my favorite band albums, I don't have posters on my walls, I don't have an electric guitar in the corner of my room, I don't own a motorcycle, I don't have fingerless gloves that fit well, I don't have the clothes I want, I don't have a room with interesting colors, I don't have LED lights, I don't have fairy lights, I don't have a display case with all my stuff in it, I don't have a music cassette to put in my parent's old boombox, I don't know how to play the drums, I don't know how to write songs, I don't know how to do my makeup beyond eyeshadow and lipstick, and I'm really not nearly as cool as I think I am:
Fun fact: in hinduism, there's an actual DAY which says "nah fuck studying" and you're not allowed to study that day. It's called "kalamband" which litterally translates to "pen close"
REALLL like if you pick up a pen to study you have to endure your mother going "hey you know it's kalamband today you can't study" for the first time in your fucking life it's AMAZING. MAJORRR W
Me when I write a whole rant about a random gay ship that no one but me cares about for the third time before deciding it's worded badly and deleting it only to be too lazy to write it again:
It's writing a whole rant about a random gay ship that no one but it cares about for the third time before deciding it's worded badly and deleting it only to be too lazy to write it again.
So like Teen Wolf, right? It's a show that exists. Sterek, right? It's a ship in said show. Actually. The single most popular ship in the show. Actually. On ao3 it beats EVEN THE CHARACTER TAGS which is NOT a common thing. Like usually the top tag for a fandom is a character tag, but no, here it's THE SHIP STEREK.
Anyway- this is like this because like... I mean the evidence... let's just say it's understandable.
But the thing about this ship is that like- it is just so clearly queerbait, like they practically hand it to you on a silver platter, but for some reason the fandom is delusional and 100% convinced that it's totally queercoding.
Sterek is the slash ship between Derek Hale and Stiles Stilinski. Derek Hale is a werewolf, Stiles is a regular degular guy. Both of their characters play off each other well since they contrast a little what with Stiles being an overcompensating know-it-all who uses sarcasm and humor to hide his insecurities and Derek being a stoic angry loner type who takes things a little too seriously. Because of this the characters were often paired for scenes and naturally the fandom started shipping them.
Then the show decided "hey... why don't we lean into this more."
So in season 2... wonderful, beautiful season 2... this lizard creature with the ability to paralyze people comes along. And... oh boy.
One scene worth pointing out is a scene where the lizard thing, called a Kanima, paralyzes both Derek and Stiles. In this scene, they JUST SO HAPPEN to fall ON TOP OF EACH OTHER, and it JUST SO HAPPENS that they fall in a particular manner in which Stiles is on top of Derek with his head on his shoulder and his chest on Derek's. They could've so easily had Stules fall NEXT TO Derek, or at least had him fall in a different position with less of a romantic connotation. But they didn't. And just to throw salt in the wound, the antagonist even says, when they demand that they no longer be on top of each other, that Derek and Stiles "make a pretty good pair"... I bet the writers room was fucking cackling.
Another very notable scene is one that's not played off as a joke unlike the first one. Derek is paralyzed, Stiles is not. The Kanima can't swim so there in the pool with it waiting outside, stalking them. Since Derek is paralyzed, Stiles has to be the one to keep him afloat in the pool so he doesn't drown. Derek mentions that Stiles is only keeping Derek alive out of necessity, basically saying that since Stiles is powerless he needs Derek to fight off the Kanima for him and that's the only reason he's keeping him afloat and not because he actually gives a shit. Stiles takes offense to this and so he leaves Derek and swims to shore to try to grab a phone to call for help. Stiles fails then goes back to save Derek from drowning. And... dude. He risked his life to prove to Derek that not only does he not need him to survive this, but also that he's not saving Derek out of any sort of necessity, no, he's saving Derek... because he actually fucking cares. And Derek has major trust issues so doing something like this, risking your life to prove you care, is like... dude. So obviously since this is an important character moment it's literally never brought up again and we move on from it and that's that. Sigh... of course.
Then in season 3, Stiles is now the antagonist. And up to this point Stiles and Derek's opinions on what to do with antagonists has been pretty much the same "why don't we just kill them" but now it's Stiles who's the antagonist and he's like "guys, if I lose myself completely, just kill me" because he's being possessed by the Nogitsune and isn't intentionally the antagonist ofc. But Derek, a man who has, up until this point, been pretty okay with murder, is suddenly like "guys no matter what, we can't kill Stiles"... what's with the switch up Derek... why are we changing opinions now? His change in behavior toward this is never addressed.
The other seasons continue with pretty much similar type shit. Derek and Stiles are often paired up for scenes. There are fleeting moments of mentioning how weird their relationship is, certain scenes that just seem so questionable that the directors and writers could've easily cut out or changed, and just thing after thing that is so clearly gay but also... not.
Then in the last season of the show, Stiles gets with Lydia Martin, a character he has been shown to be attracted to but up until now she hasn't really shown much reciprocation for these feelings except for fleeting moments. The relationship feels a little shoehorned in at the last season for fanservice. Then that was the end of it.
...until 2023 of course.
In 2023 they decided "hey guys why don't we do a movie" and everyone agreed except for the actor for Stiles. So the movie goes on without him. In the movie Stiles is clearly absent and this is explained in the movie by him being part of the FBI. This makes sense character wise and story wise.
We see in the movie that Derek now has a child. Who is the mother of said child? 🤷♀️. But I do know this. According to the casting director, the actor chosen for the child was chosen because he "reminded me of Stiles"... the actor for Derek's child... was picked because he reminded the casting director of Stiles... ha... haha...
Stiles's car is also in the movie. It's with Derek now. Yeah. And uh Derek is overprotective... of the car. One of the characters even states outwardly "that car meant a lot to Derek"... yeah... the car is what we're talking about here... sure.
This movie reads like fanfiction... and I don't think that's a coincidence.
We already know all the scenes and questionable choices that happened in the show, but to really make it clear why this is so queerbait we need to go behind the camera. Back to the Teen Wolf show.
During the Teen Choice Awards each show nominated was tasked with making a short video convincing teens to vote for them to win. Teen Wolf's video had... the actors for Stiles and Derek... sitting on a ship... practically all over each other... saying basically "vite for Teen Wolf and you might get to see our characters do more stuff like this"... 😰
I don't think I need to explain when I say that is just so clearly a queerbait move. Making an empty promise of queer rep in exchange for something that would get the creators of Teen Wolf more money... yeah that's literally queerbait. The definition of it actually.
Fast forward to the movie. Whenever it comes to Derek and Stiles the cast and crew and such always say things that are just bordering on gay, but never explicitly saying it. And this is in 2023. They're not gonna explode if they say the word gay on screen. But it's always avoidant of the topic it's always just shy of screaming gay, they can never quite say it. It's almost like... almost like they don't actually care and just want the money so they're giving the shippers crumbs while never giving them a full meal so they don't lose their homophobic audiences... but no that can't possible be... can it?
Yes it can. Yes it is. Sterek si the single most obvious clear as day representation of queerbait I have ever seen in my life and yet the random and shipper are either blissfully ignorant or just so so oblivious to the reality of the matter. Why do the creators always dance around the topic of Sterek? Why do the writers add unnecessary scenes that are a little odd to say the least only to then forget about those scenes and never bring them up again? Why do the directors shoot some scenes in specific questionable ways that are never directly addressed? Because it's all a big fat lie. A lie that everyone fell for, hook line and sinker.
No the dates may be different but it always comes in the same season according to the Hindu calander at the kartik amavasya which is the new moon of the season of kartik(spetember end-october end if I'm not mistaken I might have to ask my mother) so kinda
ooo okay how the fuck do i explain this cause you'd have to know alot about hindu mythology(dear god im forced to call it a mythology) first of all- help i feel the need to js explain the entire ramayana to you because the online sources get it so wrong and i practically CAN'T get it wrong because 1.My mother is going to kill me if i get something wrong 2.we litterally HAVE the reprint of the ORIGINAL book in our house so.
I literally failed so miserably I can't even rn. The dude next to me kept looking at my paper and cheating from me and I'm just like "dude... I don't think you wanna do that"
weird sensations i never knew I'd experience, part 1: remember how i chipped part of my two front teeth? yeah uh. I now understand what my teacher meant when she said that teeth have nerves inside them. Because now everytime i eat or drink something i feel this very weird..oddly-sweet(?) sensation on(?) my teeth and it's like my body's saying "ayo tf? how is the food TOUCHING the nerves?" yeah uh, sorry body, thats kinda on me :upsidedown-face:
if somebody tells me one more fucking time that "nobody's going to notice" i will actually jump is2g do you KNOW the kids in my class?? knowing them I'll probably get bullied till the day i DIE and plus i look so bad too i wouldnt even blame them cause i'd want to bully myself for looking like this too real yeah so i think im just going to become Komi now. i already look like her(minus the pale skin cause im not Japanese) so i think i'll just ocmmunicate with a notebook until i meet my tadano :disappointed-relieved:
Real like last time I remember I got bullied for liking anime by this little nerd ass bitch who's like half my height and I could probably punt him to the sun
ITS CANON!?????!/1?!?!?!?!??!?!?!/!?!?!/1/1?!?1//1/!?!?(well no it isnt cause ik you assagiri BUT STILL HOLY SHIT?)
oh my god OH MY GOD OHMYGODOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGM ITS CANOCNONAONCOASNO NOANSCO THANK YOU HOSHIKAWA-SAN!11!!!!1!(and asagiri but im still salty abt the new chapters)
well it IS Bungou stray dogs (but the Dazai, Chuuya, 15 opne) but js so yknow they arent actually canon but this manga panel is canon which makes it borderline canon.
Yea just bruised and a couple of scratches. No severe injuries or anything. My bruises hurt pretty bad but I was able to limit the swelling and they're not very clear so from the outside looking in as long as you ignore the plaster, it's like nothing ever even happened. Still hurts but whatever, the pain should go in about 3 days maybe 4 because school might force me to walk and be more active which can make the bruise worse.
I love how this is me everytime any sort of traumatic event happens to me: haha lol someone broke into my house while I was in the bathroom lmao, it's a good thing they didn't check in there, would hate for them to catch me with my pants down haha get it? Get it? I know I'm crying from pure terror, ignore that, is the joke funny or not?
The depression brings about whimsy because it's the only thing that keeps me from totally falling apart.
it didn't actually happen. I don't think. Just my brain hearing noises outside and going "Yep that's someone here to kill you." It happens dw no one broke in
But I definitely did think someone did and I even texted my friend while crying 100% convinced I was gonna die. And I made that exact same joke. About getting caught with my pants down. I actually made multiple jokes. A concerning amount for someone who thought they were about to die.
Lowkey I hate the fact that I had to verify my email again
Cus I use my mother's phone and her email storage was full so when I cleared all that itch just hit me with a "Hey girlie!☺️ You're not getting your account back."
SO I HAD TO MAKE A NEW ONE AND SPENT LIKE 1000+ HOURS LOOKING FOR THIS GROUP AGAIN FROM THE OLD COMMENTS ON MGM BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE IT BOOKMARKED ON CHROME
WHAT YOU TALK ABOUT PNEUMONIA LIKE "oh yeah it was nothing" BRO PNEUMONIA CAN BE FATAL (I say like that isn't literally the exact way I talked about that one time I almost died)
im fine reallyy it wasnt that bad oh elon musk removed the like option so now everyone's using different versions of the MII "Yeah!" thing and i keep seeing the hatsune miku version..
I'm sure you can already tell, but I am not doing good! In fact, I'm doing very very shit rn! School is kicking my ass, the ACTs are kicking my ass, my entire life is kicking my fucking ass.
So, needless to say, I am this fucking close to losing my shit, but it's okay! I can always go find it later! Anyway, I need to go scream and cry into my pillow for the next hour.
It is really difficult to resist the urge to be mean sometimes.
Like the other day my class was in the gc talking about colors for our senior uniform next year (the seniors get a specialized uniform and other perks and such) and I was trying to push for a CMYK color pallette but my class pretty much ignored my existence so whatever, I stopped caring and let them decide amongst themselves. They're big boys they can deal with it.
That's when someone privately messaged me. This bitch named Karma who was all like "I'm sure you know who I am" like- okay, whatever, Karma. And she's all like "did you vote for the uniform color?" So I said no.
She then said to look at the colors and see which one I liked best, and the contest was between these two colors, blue and purple. I went blue because I like it more than purple and if I'm pushing for CMYK, it is in my interest to pick the blue. I tell her this and she's like "oh but... don't you wanna pick the purple though?"
Oh is that what this is? You're not being all nice to me and asking if I voted because you actually care. You just want me to vote for the one you want. Okay, Karma. Fine. I'll vote for the purple if it'll make you shut the fuck up.
Is what I would have said if I wasn't trying to be nice. So I just went "okay purple ig" and voted purple. Then ignored her "thank you" message cause, frankly, you couldn't pay me to give a shit.
I had to actively resist calling every single one of my classmates brain dead assholes yesterday. They're all actually so annoying and I could keep telling stories about how much they piss me off, but I think you get the point.
If only saying "how the fuck did you make it past third grade" was okay.
Me when the show has SO MUCH POTENTIAL to be SO GOOD but the writers are just so fucking terrible-
Miraculous Ladybug (at this point the show is a joke and it kills me that it could've been a lot more than what it is)
Voltron (imagine killing all your characters both metaphorically and physically and the only characters you didn't kill are characters who were hardly even characters in the first place)
Star vs the Forces of Evil (sigh... no comment.)
Glee (as much as this show is... certainly a show and everyone loves to shit on it you can't deny that the idea itself COULD have been actually good)
Stranger Things (needs a whole essay by itself cause... yikes)
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Reminder to that one time I got a six trillion years fc on a school trip jn the bus when my mother allowed me to take her phone for the very first time and my class just watching me from the back like 👁️👄👁️
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Nah I'd cry.
Anyone else hear that omnious bell tolling?🤣🤣🤣no?? Just me??🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣Show post...
People saying "make real friends and youll start to feel better!"
Please shut up.
One of the main reasons I ever thought about kms was because I thought that even though I have such good freinds, I'm probably just..annoying them. I get overexcited, talk so loudly, loose their things constantly, forget important things they told me, and is unable to keep secrets in a group full of such amazing people and I just. I can't. I'd rather just be alone in my room playing videogames because being with real people I'm just a fucking disappointment to myself and them. I know I mostly think that my parents are shitty bit tbh I don't deserve them. I make everything about myself. I'm such a selfish little idiot I'm
I don't even know what to say anymore, but please ignore this. I don't want any of you to worry. I should probably keep the mood light because reading vent is probably annoying asf. I don't want to ruin yalls day. Sorry.
It's not about that. You need to talk to someone. If you have friends talk to them. Support is what gets you through things, not trying to isolate yourself.
You're not any less or more than anyone else. At the end if the day we're all just people trying our best. You're not annoying or selfish or anything else you said. Liking something isn't annoying. Talking a lot is only annoying to people who hate listening. People hurt you and you're not selfish for being upset about it. I know what I'm saying only sounds like stuff I made up to comfort you, but I'm not that kind of person. I don't lie about important stuff like this.
Your emotions aren't a burden and I mean it. Just talk to someone. That's the first step. Talk to someone. Anyone you trust irl who can actually help cause I can't help from behind a screen. Please.
Are you talking about what I said? Making real friends isn't the reason I felt better. It's part of it but that's not it. My situation changed. I felt better because things got better. In general. I was just talking about my own personal experience. It's different for everyone. You don't need to move, or make new feiends, or go to a new school like me for things to get better. You just need to try and make a change. A positive one. Even a small one. Things get better with positive changes. Just focus on the little things.
For example... you took out the trash. If you did nothing else that day. Nothing at all. At least you took out the trash. You went to school. Even if you did nothing else. At least you went to school. Even something that isn't necessarily productive. You finally watched that show or movie you've been wanting to watch. You wrote a little bit more of that story you were writing. You went on a walk. You brushed your hair. Anything positive no matter how big or small. If you did nothing else that day. At least you did that.
And most importantly talk to someone. I won't stop saying it until you do. Support is seriously the most important part of all of this.
You didn't ruin anyone's day, I promise.
The fact that you vented here is fine, seriously. /gen. It just means you feel safe and free talking here, and that's a good thing. But as Nightcrawler said, please talk to someone face-to-face. They'll be able to help, we won't.
Please take Nightcrawler's advice.
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ignoring the fact i feel shitty as hell, OMG AISHWARYA RAI IS THE IT GIRL.
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waking up after a failed attempt feels so weird.(yes i managed to not actually off myself, unfortunately. i tried.)
OH THABK GOD DREAMING DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW WORRIED I WAS
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Aaaa no don't be worried om
I only posted the warning because I wanted y'all to know what happened if I was gone I don't wanna worry any of you >< plus it's only me anyway
Dreaming don't even say that.
You're my friend I don't want you to die. I thought I would never see you again.
Please just talk to someone who can help you. I'm begging you.
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i want to fucking kil myself. My mother shouted at me for a fucking PEN. i didnt even do anything i asked tmy freind for a pen because mine leaked and i gave it back and she emssages me like "hey i dont have my pen do you have it cause i agve it to you?" and my mother keeps yelling at me for loosing somebody elses things WHEN I GAVE IT BACK. I GAVE IT BACK THAT GIRL PROBABLY LOST IT BY EHRSELF AT SCHOOL OR SOMETHING I DONT FUCKING KNOW? I VIVIDLY REMEMEBR GIVING IT BACK. and now im sitting here crying in my room because my own mother called me a stupid mindless beggar who doesnt understand the worth of anything. I'm going to commit tonight i swear to fucking god. If i dont respond tomorrow it means it worked. bye.
DREAMING NO
idk if this is gonna get to you but PLEASE do not kill yourself. I know how you feel, I get it. Nobody loves you and it would be better if you just went away, right? Everyone would be happier without you, right? It's never gonna get better so why put myself through it, right? I've been there. I've thought that way too. But it does get better. I know everyone says that and you never believe it because it feels like it only gets worse and worse, but trust me, it does.
Back when I wanted to die the mgm community is what kept me going. I kept posting on there even if I was the only one around because it gave me something to live for. Waiting for everyone else to come back. And then it got better. I moved to a new place and a new school. I made real friends. I still feel terrible sometimes, I still feel like I did before, but I haven't seriously considered killing myself for the longest time in a long time. It does get better. No matter how bad it is now. No matter how bad it continues to get. At some point it does get better. Even if it takes a while.
Please. You're one of the only friends I have left on here. We were supposed to make a show together, remember? Please just come back.
"GOT YOU!" is stuck in my head send help
"yo uh explain this question rq"
"alright so- CHASE DOWN MEW! GOTTA CATCH 'EM ALL!
INAI NAI TEKA CHOUSHI DOU?
MITA KOTO NAI ANO POKEMON
ZETTAI KATTE SONDE GETTO DA ZE! YUH
DOKO NI MO INAI SHI MAJIME NA HANASHI
FUSHIGI NA ANO KO MAJI MABOROSHI?
SAGASHITENAI BASHO NANTE NAKUNAI? DASHI!
YADA MOU MURI KUNAI?
TADA REBERU AGARU DAKE
NONKI YOUKI MUJAKI NANDA TTE II NO!
POKESEN? GEESEN? SASUGA NI INAI KA W
"UNMEITE KI NA DEAI" KITAI SHITE
“AIGACCHUU!"
".. okay so how do i write that down."
"you're getting terminated, say goodbye."
vocaloid brainrot.
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Real. Also add:
"Flower doesn't let me watch those shows.."
"What...FLOWER COME HERE!!"
"Nani?"
"You don't let Oliver watch adult swim??"
"THose shows are too toxic for him!(In jp)"
"FLower for the last time speak english!"
"Yeah well who cares??"
"I care!!"
And:
"Hey len, didn't you have my xbox?"
"Yeah, ill check for it hold on."
*Rummaging noises*
"I don't see it"
"Yeha well I'll check"
*More rummaging noises*
"Hey what's thi--"
"DONT TOUCH THAT!"
"What? It's just a box it can't be that baaaaaAAAAAd...."
*Gasp*
"Len!? You're a furry!!????"
"Oh ym god..."
"Miku rin come here!!!"
"What?"
"Lens a furry!!!"
*Gasp*
"Ew."
"Why are you even surprised atp..."
me cause I don't have a record player, I don't have any vinyl records, I don't own all my favorite band albums, I don't have posters on my walls, I don't have an electric guitar in the corner of my room, I don't own a motorcycle, I don't have fingerless gloves that fit well, I don't have the clothes I want, I don't have a room with interesting colors, I don't have LED lights, I don't have fairy lights, I don't have a display case with all my stuff in it, I don't have a music cassette to put in my parent's old boombox, I don't know how to play the drums, I don't know how to write songs, I don't know how to do my makeup beyond eyeshadow and lipstick, and I'm really not nearly as cool as I think I am:
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So real actually
gimmie a few years ill get a job
js dont get jumpscared by all those items suddenly showing up outside ur window
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What.
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Felt girlypop today, put mehendi(or henna in english) on my hands
i havent put henna on my hands in like ages sobs
but WOOO YAYYAYA
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YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAY
explodes violently
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nooooo bestieee
im now floating particles
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Aur naur
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Fun fact: in hinduism, there's an actual DAY which says "nah fuck studying" and you're not allowed to study that day. It's called "kalamband" which litterally translates to "pen close"
Slay Hinduism W
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REALLL like if you pick up a pen to study you have to endure your mother going "hey you know it's kalamband today you can't study" for the first time in your fucking life it's AMAZING. MAJORRR W
Me when I write a whole rant about a random gay ship that no one but me cares about for the third time before deciding it's worded badly and deleting it only to be too lazy to write it again:
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what da dawg doin
It's writing a whole rant about a random gay ship that no one but it cares about for the third time before deciding it's worded badly and deleting it only to be too lazy to write it again.
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ah i see
i care
show. /nf
It took me days to write. Anyway!
So like Teen Wolf, right? It's a show that exists. Sterek, right? It's a ship in said show. Actually. The single most popular ship in the show. Actually. On ao3 it beats EVEN THE CHARACTER TAGS which is NOT a common thing. Like usually the top tag for a fandom is a character tag, but no, here it's THE SHIP STEREK.
Anyway- this is like this because like... I mean the evidence... let's just say it's understandable.
But the thing about this ship is that like- it is just so clearly queerbait, like they practically hand it to you on a silver platter, but for some reason the fandom is delusional and 100% convinced that it's totally queercoding.
Sterek is the slash ship between Derek Hale and Stiles Stilinski. Derek Hale is a werewolf, Stiles is a regular degular guy. Both of their characters play off each other well since they contrast a little what with Stiles being an overcompensating know-it-all who uses sarcasm and humor to hide his insecurities and Derek being a stoic angry loner type who takes things a little too seriously. Because of this the characters were often paired for scenes and naturally the fandom started shipping them.
Then the show decided "hey... why don't we lean into this more."
So in season 2... wonderful, beautiful season 2... this lizard creature with the ability to paralyze people comes along. And... oh boy.
One scene worth pointing out is a scene where the lizard thing, called a Kanima, paralyzes both Derek and Stiles. In this scene, they JUST SO HAPPEN to fall ON TOP OF EACH OTHER, and it JUST SO HAPPENS that they fall in a particular manner in which Stiles is on top of Derek with his head on his shoulder and his chest on Derek's. They could've so easily had Stules fall NEXT TO Derek, or at least had him fall in a different position with less of a romantic connotation. But they didn't. And just to throw salt in the wound, the antagonist even says, when they demand that they no longer be on top of each other, that Derek and Stiles "make a pretty good pair"... I bet the writers room was fucking cackling.
Another very notable scene is one that's not played off as a joke unlike the first one. Derek is paralyzed, Stiles is not. The Kanima can't swim so there in the pool with it waiting outside, stalking them. Since Derek is paralyzed, Stiles has to be the one to keep him afloat in the pool so he doesn't drown. Derek mentions that Stiles is only keeping Derek alive out of necessity, basically saying that since Stiles is powerless he needs Derek to fight off the Kanima for him and that's the only reason he's keeping him afloat and not because he actually gives a shit. Stiles takes offense to this and so he leaves Derek and swims to shore to try to grab a phone to call for help. Stiles fails then goes back to save Derek from drowning. And... dude. He risked his life to prove to Derek that not only does he not need him to survive this, but also that he's not saving Derek out of any sort of necessity, no, he's saving Derek... because he actually fucking cares. And Derek has major trust issues so doing something like this, risking your life to prove you care, is like... dude. So obviously since this is an important character moment it's literally never brought up again and we move on from it and that's that. Sigh... of course.
Then in season 3, Stiles is now the antagonist. And up to this point Stiles and Derek's opinions on what to do with antagonists has been pretty much the same "why don't we just kill them" but now it's Stiles who's the antagonist and he's like "guys, if I lose myself completely, just kill me" because he's being possessed by the Nogitsune and isn't intentionally the antagonist ofc. But Derek, a man who has, up until this point, been pretty okay with murder, is suddenly like "guys no matter what, we can't kill Stiles"... what's with the switch up Derek... why are we changing opinions now? His change in behavior toward this is never addressed.
The other seasons continue with pretty much similar type shit. Derek and Stiles are often paired up for scenes. There are fleeting moments of mentioning how weird their relationship is, certain scenes that just seem so questionable that the directors and writers could've easily cut out or changed, and just thing after thing that is so clearly gay but also... not.
Then in the last season of the show, Stiles gets with Lydia Martin, a character he has been shown to be attracted to but up until now she hasn't really shown much reciprocation for these feelings except for fleeting moments. The relationship feels a little shoehorned in at the last season for fanservice. Then that was the end of it.
...until 2023 of course.
In 2023 they decided "hey guys why don't we do a movie" and everyone agreed except for the actor for Stiles. So the movie goes on without him. In the movie Stiles is clearly absent and this is explained in the movie by him being part of the FBI. This makes sense character wise and story wise.
We see in the movie that Derek now has a child. Who is the mother of said child? 🤷♀️. But I do know this. According to the casting director, the actor chosen for the child was chosen because he "reminded me of Stiles"... the actor for Derek's child... was picked because he reminded the casting director of Stiles... ha... haha...
Stiles's car is also in the movie. It's with Derek now. Yeah. And uh Derek is overprotective... of the car. One of the characters even states outwardly "that car meant a lot to Derek"... yeah... the car is what we're talking about here... sure.
This movie reads like fanfiction... and I don't think that's a coincidence.
We already know all the scenes and questionable choices that happened in the show, but to really make it clear why this is so queerbait we need to go behind the camera. Back to the Teen Wolf show.
During the Teen Choice Awards each show nominated was tasked with making a short video convincing teens to vote for them to win. Teen Wolf's video had... the actors for Stiles and Derek... sitting on a ship... practically all over each other... saying basically "vite for Teen Wolf and you might get to see our characters do more stuff like this"... 😰
I don't think I need to explain when I say that is just so clearly a queerbait move. Making an empty promise of queer rep in exchange for something that would get the creators of Teen Wolf more money... yeah that's literally queerbait. The definition of it actually.
Fast forward to the movie. Whenever it comes to Derek and Stiles the cast and crew and such always say things that are just bordering on gay, but never explicitly saying it. And this is in 2023. They're not gonna explode if they say the word gay on screen. But it's always avoidant of the topic it's always just shy of screaming gay, they can never quite say it. It's almost like... almost like they don't actually care and just want the money so they're giving the shippers crumbs while never giving them a full meal so they don't lose their homophobic audiences... but no that can't possible be... can it?
Yes it can. Yes it is. Sterek si the single most obvious clear as day representation of queerbait I have ever seen in my life and yet the random and shipper are either blissfully ignorant or just so so oblivious to the reality of the matter. Why do the creators always dance around the topic of Sterek? Why do the writers add unnecessary scenes that are a little odd to say the least only to then forget about those scenes and never bring them up again? Why do the directors shoot some scenes in specific questionable ways that are never directly addressed? Because it's all a big fat lie. A lie that everyone fell for, hook line and sinker.
Wow you didn't like my gay ship rant 😔 /j
SOTP I KEPT GETTING EMAILS THAT U REPLIED AND WAS LOOKING AT THE POSTS AT THE TOP
ILL READ IT AFTER MY EXAM TMRW :3
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If I get a majority saying yes I'll give y'all my smule account 💀
Whats a smule
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that one app where you can sing
ah. I have never heard of it.
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eveyrone excited for halloween:
me sitting here, ECSATIC in my chair cause diwali is tomorrow(i dont celebrate halloween):
idk if this is like a weird question or what, but does Diwali take place on the same time every year or does it like change?
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No the dates may be different but it always comes in the same season according to the Hindu calander at the kartik amavasya which is the new moon of the season of kartik(spetember end-october end if I'm not mistaken I might have to ask my mother) so kinda
oh cool another question. What is Diwali about? I heard of it but I don't really know much sorry
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ooo okay how the fuck do i explain this cause you'd have to know alot about hindu mythology(dear god im forced to call it a mythology) first of all-
help i feel the need to js explain the entire ramayana to you because the online sources get it so wrong and i practically CAN'T get it wrong because
1.My mother is going to kill me if i get something wrong
2.we litterally HAVE the reprint of the ORIGINAL book in our house so.
you don't have to explain it to me if you don't want to haha, I was just curious I guess
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ehe <3
Exam so bad it has me looking like this:
I literally failed so miserably I can't even rn. The dude next to me kept looking at my paper and cheating from me and I'm just like "dude... I don't think you wanna do that"
Well. No one to blame but himself I guess.
me w igcse physics because what the fuck was that theory paper
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weird sensations i never knew I'd experience, part 1:
remember how i chipped part of my two front teeth? yeah uh. I now understand what my teacher meant when she said that teeth have nerves inside them. Because now everytime i eat or drink something i feel this very weird..oddly-sweet(?) sensation on(?) my teeth and it's like my body's saying "ayo tf? how is the food TOUCHING the nerves?" yeah uh, sorry body, thats kinda on me :upsidedown-face:
OOF that makes me uncomfy just thinking abt it
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It's not that bad actually
really? I've never chipped a tooth before, so.
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yeah it feels lowkey sweet
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sigggh
first pneumonia, then something that feels like covid, now this
WHEN I SAID I WAS GODS GREATEST SOLDIER I DID NOT MEAN IT TOUCH OF DEATH
yeah so today while returning from the ground in school i tripped and fell and broke a peice of my two front teeth.
i am actually going to cry i cant.
kill me already omg
i dont even want to speak anymore
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Komi-san Can't Communicate except instead of having sociophobia she's just REALLY insecure about her broken teeth from an accident..
💀💀
Seriously r u ok?
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if somebody tells me one more fucking time that "nobody's going to notice" i will actually jump is2g do you KNOW the kids in my class?? knowing them I'll probably get bullied till the day i DIE and plus i look so bad too i wouldnt even blame them cause i'd want to bully myself for looking like this too real
yeah so i think im just going to become Komi now. i already look like her(minus the pale skin cause im not Japanese) so i think i'll just ocmmunicate with a notebook until i meet my tadano :disappointed-relieved:
RIP but honestly real teenagers make fun of anything atp
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Real like last time I remember I got bullied for liking anime by this little nerd ass bitch who's like half my height and I could probably punt him to the sun
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ITS CANON!?????!/1?!?!?!?!??!?!?!/!?!?!/1/1?!?1//1/!?!?(well no it isnt cause ik you assagiri BUT STILL HOLY SHIT?)
oh my god OH MY GOD OHMYGODOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGM ITS CANOCNONAONCOASNO NOANSCO
THANK YOU HOSHIKAWA-SAN!11!!!!1!(and asagiri but im still salty abt the new chapters)
hand over the name right NEOW. /nf
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well it IS Bungou stray dogs (but the Dazai, Chuuya, 15 opne) but js so yknow they arent actually canon but this manga panel is canon which makes it borderline canon.
Lol, I crashed omw home from school
Luckily not badly injured, and I didn't hit my head cause I caught myself on my hands, but yea lol
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Aur naur are u ok
Yea just bruised and a couple of scratches. No severe injuries or anything. My bruises hurt pretty bad but I was able to limit the swelling and they're not very clear so from the outside looking in as long as you ignore the plaster, it's like nothing ever even happened. Still hurts but whatever, the pain should go in about 3 days maybe 4 because school might force me to walk and be more active which can make the bruise worse.
WHAT .
ARE YOU OKAY?? IS EVERYONE ELSE OKAY TOO
yeah I'm good and no one else was involved in the crash dw. Just me being stupid and going too fast on my scooter.
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I feel like my vocal cords have been ripped out of my throat.
That is not good
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It's a normal Tuesday for me 🤷🏻 it happens sometimes
That is even worse
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Ig it is 🤷🏻
But now I'm wearing a mask and going to a doctor and it feels like COVID is back HELPP
Pneumonia then covid. You're really going through it rn
i felt hungry sorry :(
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gurl.
did u just ated my vocalo chords /hj
I love vflower so much RAAAAAAAAH
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REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL REAL
do you ever just
Hora mite yo hora furete yo
Bon'you na fuku o sutesatte
Ima sanagi kara chou ni naru no
Ari no mama subete misetsukete
Samekitta butai enja wa inai
Nara suteppu kizande 1,2,3
Odorasareru nja nai
odoru no yo saa saa saa kurutte
YES i feel like she's underrated sobs I LOVE HER
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REAL REAL REAL RELA
i need to find an empty place to scream and cry in
like an endless rage room, they need to make those.
i haven't cried properly in ages because i'm worried someone will walk in and it'll be awkward :T
I would go to an infinite rage room. I need it.
Also I usually just cry as quietly as possible while everyone else is asleep.
I love how this is me everytime any sort of traumatic event happens to me: haha lol someone broke into my house while I was in the bathroom lmao, it's a good thing they didn't check in there, would hate for them to catch me with my pants down haha get it? Get it? I know I'm crying from pure terror, ignore that, is the joke funny or not?
The depression brings about whimsy because it's the only thing that keeps me from totally falling apart.
ARE YOU OKAY?? LIKE DID YOU MENTALLY CALM DOWN, DO YOUR PARENTS KNOW AND STUFF D:
urgh omw to give you a hug that's a terrifying situation.
it didn't actually happen. I don't think. Just my brain hearing noises outside and going "Yep that's someone here to kill you." It happens dw no one broke in
But I definitely did think someone did and I even texted my friend while crying 100% convinced I was gonna die. And I made that exact same joke. About getting caught with my pants down. I actually made multiple jokes. A concerning amount for someone who thought they were about to die.
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Lowkey I hate the fact that I had to verify my email again
Cus I use my mother's phone and her email storage was full so when I cleared all that itch just hit me with a "Hey girlie!☺️ You're not getting your account back."
SO I HAD TO MAKE A NEW ONE AND SPENT LIKE 1000+ HOURS LOOKING FOR THIS GROUP AGAIN FROM THE OLD COMMENTS ON MGM BECAUSE I DIDNT HAVE IT BOOKMARKED ON CHROME
PLUS I JUST CAME BACK RORM THE HOSPITALA
AHHHHHHH HHHHHHHHHGGG I WANNA KMS AAAAA
Omg 😭😭😭
I'm so sorry, did you bookmark this place tho? So you don't have to do that again I mean
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Yeah I did this time I am NOT going through that again
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Uh
Is everyone ok.
Well take this art I'm making of beast!chuuya on rblx ig
I am not okay because school but that looks amazing!
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Dang school must suck for you then :(
BUt tyyyyy
It does fr I am suffering dude SUFFERING
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aur naur
(i started madoka magica :p)
KEWL
my biggest problem is just hw. I hate hw. I hardly have enough free time as it is.
HI DREAMING!!!!!
HIW HAVR YOU BEEN
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I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING IN THE HOSPITAL BUT OKAY IG!!1!!!11!!1
OH 😞 GLAD YOU'RE BETTER NOW
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Me when I just came back from the hospital and see almost everyone going insane(I lost my account):
HOSPITAL WTF HAPPENED ARE YOU OKAY
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Yeah, I'm fine(mostly) I had pneumonia ;-;
We're good though :P
I actually also came back to Twitter somehow after coming back from the hospital, and all I see on threads is that mii yeah! Thing and I'm Like--
"Wh... Is that..."
"..HATSUNE MIKU!?"
WHAT YOU TALK ABOUT PNEUMONIA LIKE "oh yeah it was nothing" BRO PNEUMONIA CAN BE FATAL (I say like that isn't literally the exact way I talked about that one time I almost died)
I am no on twitter so I have no clue 😁
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im fine reallyy it wasnt that bad
oh elon musk removed the like option so now everyone's using different versions of the MII "Yeah!" thing and i keep seeing the hatsune miku version..
So it was just like a mild case
oh wow, A-short Perfume really is just destroying twitter atp.
How's it going everypony?
I'm sure you can already tell, but I am not doing good! In fact, I'm doing very very shit rn! School is kicking my ass, the ACTs are kicking my ass, my entire life is kicking my fucking ass.
So, needless to say, I am this fucking close to losing my shit, but it's okay! I can always go find it later! Anyway, I need to go scream and cry into my pillow for the next hour.
Goodbye, everypony!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Thank you for coming to my TedTalk.
haiii guys :3…
It is really difficult to resist the urge to be mean sometimes.
Like the other day my class was in the gc talking about colors for our senior uniform next year (the seniors get a specialized uniform and other perks and such) and I was trying to push for a CMYK color pallette but my class pretty much ignored my existence so whatever, I stopped caring and let them decide amongst themselves. They're big boys they can deal with it.
That's when someone privately messaged me. This bitch named Karma who was all like "I'm sure you know who I am" like- okay, whatever, Karma. And she's all like "did you vote for the uniform color?" So I said no.
She then said to look at the colors and see which one I liked best, and the contest was between these two colors, blue and purple. I went blue because I like it more than purple and if I'm pushing for CMYK, it is in my interest to pick the blue. I tell her this and she's like "oh but... don't you wanna pick the purple though?"
Oh is that what this is? You're not being all nice to me and asking if I voted because you actually care. You just want me to vote for the one you want. Okay, Karma. Fine. I'll vote for the purple if it'll make you shut the fuck up.
Is what I would have said if I wasn't trying to be nice. So I just went "okay purple ig" and voted purple. Then ignored her "thank you" message cause, frankly, you couldn't pay me to give a shit.
I had to actively resist calling every single one of my classmates brain dead assholes yesterday. They're all actually so annoying and I could keep telling stories about how much they piss me off, but I think you get the point.
If only saying "how the fuck did you make it past third grade" was okay.
can i like
strangle her she sounds like an absolute bitch /nay
purple uniforms give me trauma RAAAAHHHH (iykyk)
trust me if I could strangle her I would. She was absent today tho yay!
Also, real. I wish I stayed another year or something so you wouldn't have had to be there alone. Oh well.
meow
I'm so hungy :(
arf arf (idk either)
meow
ARF ARF ARF
GRRRRRR 😡😡
ARF ARF 🤬😡🤬
HISSSS MEOWWW D:<
GRRRRRRRRR GRRRR 😡😡😡
MEOWWWWW HISSSSSS
IM ALIVE WHO CHEERED
after like years sobs
Hola
Welcome back to the land of the living
omg i didnt know u kept a picture of me woah /j
yeah it's from the cameras I hid in your house- I mean... what? 😁
I CHEERED!! HI HELLO HII HI
HII WAVES
HIIIII WAVES
How it feels being here alone:
HEY HEY UR NOT ALONE 🙋♀️
YOUVE JUST BEEN SILENT THIS WHOLE TIME 😭😭😭
NOOO LMAO I JUST BASICALLG CAME BACK IVE BEEN SO BUSY 😭😭
Wow. I have been pretty busy too I have to study for like the ACTs and such and idek if I'm gonna end up getting a spot or if they're all taken.
yall I'm so done with school fr. So fucking done.
Me when the show has SO MUCH POTENTIAL to be SO GOOD but the writers are just so fucking terrible-
Miraculous Ladybug (at this point the show is a joke and it kills me that it could've been a lot more than what it is)
Voltron (imagine killing all your characters both metaphorically and physically and the only characters you didn't kill are characters who were hardly even characters in the first place)
Star vs the Forces of Evil (sigh... no comment.)
Glee (as much as this show is... certainly a show and everyone loves to shit on it you can't deny that the idea itself COULD have been actually good)
Stranger Things (needs a whole essay by itself cause... yikes)