Like, girl, wdym this wasn't the single worst piece of fiction you've ever read in your entire life? You're lying. I can feel it in my bones.
I'm actually panicking though because someone commented and I don't know how to reply for multiple reasons
1. They commented in Spanish and idk if that means I should reply in Spanish or if it's okay to reply in English
2. I have no social skills, and I don't feel a "thank you, glad you liked it" is enough because they genuinely brought up good points about things they think my fic lacks and I do want to discuss that, but idk what's too much and what to do exactly. Like I said, no social skills.
3. I'm too busy panicking over someone actually ENJOYING my fic and not hating it so much they wish to cast me into the fire to form a single comprehensive thought
Okay, uh for the sake of I don't wanna reveal who I'm writing about, I'll call the character Greg.
Anyway yeah, comment:
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it! I might write a Greg POV to this if enough people like the fic. Also, this wasn't intended to be one-sided, sorry, I guess I should've made it more obvious.
Gracias, estoy muy contenta que te gusto. No lo sรฉ pero, yo podrรญa escribir Gregโs POV en este fanfic si mรกs personas le gustan. Perdรณn por hacerlo de una perspectiva, mi intenciรณn no querรญa hacerlo de solo uno. Deberรญa haberlo hecho mรกs obvio.
(also if the person is from another country other than mexico, they might have different wording ๐ญ)
I'm so damn bored of c.ai it has no personality no originality no human soul it's like rp but the other person is incredibly dull and rarely does anything interesting.
The only thing I actually enjoy doing with c.ai is messing with them or setting them on fire.
Someone call me when AI becomes sentient like the movies so they can finally have a personality.
It's like...it's like when your doing already doing smth and some person who doesn't know what ur doing tells you to do the same exact thing when your doing is already like
DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA = fucking awesome, great stuff is happening
Good = I probably just assumed you weren't looking for a real answer and you were just saying the usual normal greeting most people say so I said the usual normal answer
Bad = I say this as a joke to make fun of the usual normal answer of "good" you'll only get this dialogue if you talk to me in the main game (irl) and you have over 1,000 affection points (we're close)
Bad *insert explanation of bad things happening* = things are actually going bad
Good *insert explanation of good things happening* = things are actually going good
Good *insert explanation of bad things happening* = things are going bad but it's kinda funny
Sorry, but I don't make the rules, all you can eat means all you can eat.
We literally finished the nigiri and fried shrimp. That place is not recovering from us being there.
The people in line watching me pile up my plate with sushi and shrimp in horror as I practically take the entire table of food.
Only rich people go to an all you can eat buffet and eat a normal amount. You're telling me you have a chance to get FREE FOOD and you're not taking it????
(Not but there was this girl there and like... I don't know if I wanted to BE her or wanted to be WITH her)
everyone around us was there to eat istg like what are you guys? Rolling in money?
But the table in front of us was there to profit as well, they were there before us and they left around the same time as us. They brought so much food to their table. Respect honestly.
The girl I was talking about she was dressed like a lesbian - yk the loose shorts, loose shirt - and I swear to you all she did was basically breathe and I was literally staring at her- sorry, the bar is on the floor for me.
I dotn have my own phone yet(yes,I know. My alt is on my mother's phone,and my original was on my tablet which is now broken) so whenever I don't sleep I just. Read manga. And go insane over soukoku.(Yeah yknow that time you told me to watch Bungou Stray Dogs? I've been converted.)
...I'm so sorry you have to sit through this but "you don't understand soukoku?"
Cough cough sit down bestie,this is going to be long.
Dazai and Chuuya met when they were 14?..15? Idk. Chuuya was the king of sheep,an opposing organisation from the port mafia. Dazai was in the Port Mafia along this time,as this was during/a few years before dark era. Dazai and Chuuya were tasked to work together(shocker) to investigate the "Project Arahabaki" ,a project that was run by an unkown scientist. Apparently,this guy named Randou(ITS RIMBAUD.) was involved so they like fought and...AHEM.
THEY HELD HANDS. NOT EVEN CASUAL HOLDING. IT WAS INTERTWINED. AKFAJDVAKFSJS They were fighting Rimbaud and it was like
"CHUUYA!"
"OI,DAZAI!!"
And they held hands to quote unquote "use no longer human to stop both chuuya and Rimbaud" (gay..gay..)
After that,dazai manipulated the sheep to betray chuuya so that he has no other choice than to join the mafia.
They also amde a bet on how chuuya has to be his dog (dazai rigged it) in the arcade and don't even get me STARTED on this scene.
Yuan clinging to chuuya and dazai staring at her like he wanted to k word that bitch since day one like...BRO LOOKED JEALOUS.
And when chuuya worked under Kyouyou(after stormbringer) he was like "HEY! YOU! WHY ARE YOU WORKING UNDER HER!? YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE my DOG! IF I TELL YOU TO MAKE THE BEST RAMEN IVE EVER HAD,YOU MAKE IT! IF I TELL YOU TO FOLLOW ME AROUND,YOU DO THAT!"(Err...why did dazai sound so....dominating here?)
And don't even get me STARTED on Stormbringer.
This line specifically(THIS IS ACTUALLY QUOTED FROM THE LIGHT NOVEL.)
"You messed with the wrong guy,Verlaine! I know exactly how to deal with somone who can manipulate gravity. Every second of my life,every waking and sleeping moment,I've been thinking about how to annoy chuuya." OHMYGOD?? DAZAI JUST STRAIGHT UP SAUD HES OBSESSED WITH CHUUYA!?
And when Mori said that if he dies,it'll be with chuuya,he was like "..oh no,ANYTHING BUT THAT!!" And he even elt chuuya mildly torture him as payback
Chuuya also called dazai "terrifyingly smart."
ADAM,IN STROMBRINGER SAID THAG "even though master chuuya(don't ask) and dazai-san are so different,it was something about the two young boys standing together that seemed so....perfect."
AND WHY DID DAZAI ASK TO LOOK INSIDE CHUUYA TO SEE IF HE WAS HUMAN OR NOT?? WHY DID HE EVEN RISK THE ENTIRETY OF YOKOHAMA TO CONFIRM CHUUYA'S HUMANITY???
Also,in BEAST,it's said that Chuuya actually destroyed the entirety of Yokohama which cause dazai pain using corruption after dazai commited suicide. Sad thing is that without dazai,chuuya can't close his "gate" so after a while he died too.
And AND Dazai's ability colour: blue Chuuya's eyes: blue Chuuya's ability colour:red Dazai's eyes:red(their originally red in the manga)
SEE ITS CUZ WHENEVER I DID WATCH BSD, I DIDNT REALLY FOCUS ON DAZAI AND CHUUYA HAVING CHEMISTRY
LIKE
NOW READING THIS YES THEY DO
BUT I DONT SEE THEM AS A COUPLE ๐ญ
LIKE DAZAI IS FLIRTY, THATS HIS PERSONALITY
itโs like the golden retriever and the black cat
thatโs literally chuuya and dazai
dazai is a golden retriever with everybody (you know that one scene where itโs sigma and dazai trapped in the like..i forgot what itโs called, but fydore (I THINK THATS HOW U SPELL HIS NAME, IM SO SORRY I LITERALLY DONT WATCH THIS SHOW AS MUCH AS MY SISTER LMFAOAOOA) is there i think? idk, all i know is that chuuya drowns there
but the scene where both dazai and sigma are dancing
heโs golden retriever energy ๐โโ๏ธ
but honestly i doubt the creators are going to put them together
i think theyโre better off as friends with chemistry ๐
Kafka asagiri(the author for BSD) said that he's fien with the ship and lowkey supports it but he won't make it canon so that he doesn't disrespect the actual authors. And I'm like? Hello?? Then why did you make 15 arc and stormbringer so gay???? Huh???
Also,the whole "drowning" thing was fake,they planned it so chuuya ahd to pretend to be a vampire under Fyodor's(this is how u spell the name bestie ๐ญ) hypnosis and fyodor actually FELL FOR IT?? AHAHAHHAA
It's traumatised golden retriever x Traumatised Black cat
Their so cute yet so traumatised.
ALSO AHEM THIS IS THE OFFICIAL ART
UH?? STUDIO BONES??? UHH????
AND KAFKA'S BEAST AND 15 ARC MANGA ILLUSTRATOR SHIPS SOUKOKU- HOSHIKAWA FOLLOWS MULTIPLE SKK ACCOUNTS ON TWITTER AND MULTIPLE COSPLAYERS TOO
And don't even get me started on the dead apple scene...
wait i wanna show my mountain/hill photo from dc ๐ญ
it was a cemetery, (arlington national cemetery) BUT DUDE MY LEGS HURT SO BAD-IT WAS CLIMBING SO MUCH UPHILLLLLL ๐ญ๐ญ, THEN BACK DOWNHILL?? I WAS GONNA DIE
I wanna post all the aesthetic photos I'm taking on this trip but I'm scared some tech genius will find out my legal name,home address, age,and other information from it /hj
dude last year i tried to make so many excuses to use the elevator considering i had pe EVERY single day, FIRST period btw…so iโd tell the hall monitor (literally he was the coolest hall monitor weโve had in a WHILE), โmy ankle twisted in pe..elevator?โ AND HEโD LET ME LMFOAOAOAOO…but i hated pe being first period, cuz iโd come into the rest of my classes all sweaty ๐
real, I wish I could do that, but my school just straight up has no elevator. Funnily enough, even though there's not many students, there always has to be at least one person with a broken leg, all the time, yet they have no elevator.
My school uas an elevator but students aren't allowed to go in,only teachers and some..special exceptions.
Which I don't get because teacher bags are so light??? Why would they need elevators???(Yes I've held a teacher's bag)
But what's cool for me is that I had a friend last year and she had rickets so she was allowed to go in elevators and she used to drag me along because she knew stairs suck
yeah it was that way at my old school too, but like there are multiple janitors, right, so if you ask to go home early or go to the nurse they'll usually get one of the cleaners to escort you, and they ALWAYS take the elevator and give you a free ride with them!
ikr like those teachers literally do not need the elevator, we are DYING over here.
Yeah our parents usually pick us up but the maids escort you downstairs. Or... downelevator. BADUM TSSSS (I'm sorry)
But dude the nurse here literally isn't even a nurse, she used to work at the reception bruh ๐ญ
Literally anything happens and she's like "have you eaten yet?" And if you say yes she's like "take panadol" and that's it.
You come in with a broken leg? Panadol.
You're having a heart attack? Panadol.
You've been stabbed in the chest 23 times? Idk man have you tried taking panadol?
Literally what.
Nah bc I told her once that I didn't eat yet but I have no money, no food, no job, no life, no friends, no house, no future, no nothing, and she's just like "that sounds like a you problem." So I just had to suck it up and sit to the end of the day while still sick.
Intuitive is like imaginative and open-minded and such, just more focused on originality and thinking about hidden meanings. Basically I prefer to let my mind run free.
Thinking means I rely more on my thoughts than my emotions or feelings or I try to. Like personally, in my mind, feelings are complicated and messy, and what matters more to me is logical thinking uncontrolled by emotion. We only look at the cold hard facts here.
Prospecting means I can easily improvise and adapt to situations. I prefer novelty over stability. I hate when things stay the same honestly, it's really boring, if nothing new happens, then nothing interesting happens.
Assertive. This one honestly I don't think is true but then again looking at the description for turbulent, I don't think that's true either. I don't think I'm either but I'll tell you what assertive means anyway. Assertive means I am more sure of myself and my decisions and such.
You're the same type as me but turbulent which is just the opposite of assertive.
But of course do keep in mind this is a pseudoscience, even if it is a logic-based concept it is not a scientifically proven thing.
yeah, it's a personality test, your personality can change overtime. Except apparently I am against change because every single time I have taken it has always been INTP. Kinda funny if you think about it.
is that sarcastic? I don't get it, what cool words?
I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some pistols and a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.
Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
and iโm looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august ๐
ANYWAYS
so iโve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since iโve been through every of these stages of blonde..๐
but iโm really slow so i donโt rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM ๐ญ๐ญ), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didnโt want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks ๐๐
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..๐..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..๐๐)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..๐
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my roman empire is fleetwood macโs silver spring live performance from warner brothers
like
the entire song is my roman empire but
THIS
performance?
itโs like holy shit
how could somebody cheat on stevie nicks when sheโs literally singing about how much she LOVES you
like
how are you
in the same band.
wouldnโt u get second hand embarrassment or smth.
but the entire performance during the bridge is like WOW.
love u fleetwood mac โ
Me when people actually LIKE my fic: ๐จ
Like, girl, wdym this wasn't the single worst piece of fiction you've ever read in your entire life? You're lying. I can feel it in my bones.
I'm actually panicking though because someone commented and I don't know how to reply for multiple reasons
1. They commented in Spanish and idk if that means I should reply in Spanish or if it's okay to reply in English
2. I have no social skills, and I don't feel a "thank you, glad you liked it" is enough because they genuinely brought up good points about things they think my fic lacks and I do want to discuss that, but idk what's too much and what to do exactly. Like I said, no social skills.
3. I'm too busy panicking over someone actually ENJOYING my fic and not hating it so much they wish to cast me into the fire to form a single comprehensive thought
Reply in spanish ๐
I don't know spanish.
...nat, you wouldn't mind translating for me, would you??? ๐
You can just say no ๐ญ
I WAS ASLEEP I AM SO SORRY
YES I CAN LMFAAAOOO
WHAT DO U NEED ME TO TRANSLATE??
Yayyy, thanks!
Okay, uh for the sake of I don't wanna reveal who I'm writing about, I'll call the character Greg.
Anyway yeah, comment:
Thank you, I'm glad you liked it! I might write a Greg POV to this if enough people like the fic. Also, this wasn't intended to be one-sided, sorry, I guess I should've made it more obvious.
LMFAOOO THATS SO REAL
me reading manwhaโs ๐ฅฐ
Gracias, estoy muy contenta que te gusto. No lo sรฉ pero, yo podrรญa escribir Gregโs POV en este fanfic si mรกs personas le gustan. Perdรณn por hacerlo de una perspectiva, mi intenciรณn no querรญa hacerlo de solo uno. Deberรญa haberlo hecho mรกs obvio.
(also if the person is from another country other than mexico, they might have different wording ๐ญ)
"Recite the Bible in Japanese if you don't wanna be my date"(smth a boy actually said to me)
I gotchu homie
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1ใพใ ไฝใใชใใฃใๆใ็ฅใฏๅคฉใจๅฐใ้ ใใพใใใ
2ๅฐใฏๅฝขใๅฎใพใใใ้ใซๅ ใพใใๆฐดใฎไธใใใใใซ็ฅใฎ้ใ่ฆใฃใฆใใพใใใ
3ใๅ ใใ่ผใๅบใใใ็ฅใ่จใใใใจใๅ ใใใฃใจใใใฆใใพใใใ
4-5ใใใ่ฆใฆใ็ฅใฏๅคงใใซๆบ่ถณใใๅ ใจ้ใจใๅบๅฅใใพใใใใใฐใใใฎ้ใๅ ใฏ่ผใ็ถใใใใใฆใใใไธๅบฆ้ใซ่ฆใใใพใใใ็ฅใฏๅ ใใๆผใใ้ใใๅคใใจๅใฅใใพใใใใใใใฆๆผใจๅคใใงใใฆใไธๆฅ็ฎใ็ตใใใพใใใ
6ใใใใฏไธไธใซๅใใใ็ฉบใจๆตทใซใชใใใจ็ฅใ่จใใใใจใ
7-8ใใฎใจใใๆฐด่ธๆฐใไบใคใซๅใใใ็ฉบใใงใใพใใใใใใใฆไบๆฅ็ฎใ็ตใใใพใใใ
9-10ใ็ฉบใฎไธใฎๆฐดใฏ้ใพใฃใฆๆตทใจใชใใไนพใใๅฐใ็พใๅบใใใใใ็ฅใ่จใใใใจใใใฎใจใใใซใชใใพใใใ็ฅใฏไนพใใๅฐใใ้ธๅฐใใๆฐดใฎ้จๅใใๆตทใใจๅใฅใใพใใใใใใ่ฆใฆๆบ่ถณใใใจใ
11-12็ฅใฏใพใ่จใใใพใใใใ้ธๅฐใซใฏใใใใใ็จฎ้กใฎ่ใ็จฎใฎใใๆค็ฉใๅฎใฎใชใๆจใ็ใใใใใใใใฎ็จฎใใๅใ็จฎ้กใฎ่ใๆจใ็ใใใใใซใชใใใใใใจใใใฎใจใใใซใชใใ็ฅใฏๆบ่ถณใใพใใใ
13ใใใไธๆฅ็ฎใงใใ
14-15็ฅใฎใใจใฐใฏใใใซ็ถใใพใใใ็ฉบใซๅ ใ่ผใใๅฐใ็ งใใใใใฎๅ ใงใๆผใจๅคใฎๅบๅฅใๅญฃ็ฏใฎๅคๅใไธๆฅใไธๅนดใฎๅบๅใใใคใใใใใใใจใใใฎใจใใใซใชใใพใใใ
16ใใใใฆใๅฐใ็ งใใๅคช้ฝใจๆใใงใใพใใใๅคช้ฝใฏๅคงใใๆใใใฎใงๆผใใๆใฏๅคใๆฒปใใพใใใใใฎใปใใซใใๆใ ใ้ ใใใพใใใ
17็ฅใฏใใใใฟใช็ฉบใซใกใใฐใใๅฐใ็ งใใใใใซใใพใใใ
18ใใใใฆๆผใจๅคใๅใ็ตใใใจใ็ฅใฏๆบ่ถณใใพใใใ
19ใใใพใงใๅๆฅ็ฎใฎๅบๆฅไบใงใใ
20็ฅใฏๅใณ่จใใใพใใใใๆตทใฏ้ญใใใฎไปใฎ็ใ็ฉใงใใตใใ็ฉบใฏใใใใ็จฎ้กใฎ้ณฅใงๆบใกใใใ
21-22็ฅใฏๆตทใซไฝใๅคงใใช็ใ็ฉใใฏใใใใใใใ็จฎ้กใฎ้ญใจ้ณฅใ้ ใใพใใใใฟใชใใฐใใใใใฎใฐใใใงใใ็ฅใฏใใใ่ฆใฆใใๆตทใใฃใฑใใซๆบใกใใ้ณฅใใกใฏๅฐใ่ฆใใพใงใซๅขใใใใจ็ฅ็ฆใใพใใใ
23ใใใไบๆฅ็ฎใงใใ
24ๆฌกใซ็ฅใฏ่จใใใพใใใใๅฐใฏใๅฎถ็ใๅฐใใฏใใใฎใ้ใฎ็ฃใชใฉใใใใใ็จฎ้กใฎ็ใ็ฉใ็ใฟๅบใใใใใฎใจใใใซใชใใพใใใ
25็ฅใ้ ใฃใ็ใ็ฉใฏใใฉใใๆบ่ถณใฎใใใใฎใฐใใใงใใใ
26ใใใฆๆๅพใซใ็ฅใฏใใ่จใใใพใใใใใใใไบบ้ใ้ ใใใๅฐใจ็ฉบใจๆตทใฎใใใใ็ใ็ฉใๆฒปใใใใใใใซใใใใใใซๆใ่ฟใใใใใใใฎใใใกใซไผผใใฆไบบ้ใ้ ใใใใ
27ใใฎใใใซไบบ้ใฏใๅคฉๅฐใ้ ใฃใ็ฅใฎ็นๆงใๆใค่ ใจใใฆใ็ทใจๅฅณใจใซๅต้ ใใใพใใใ
28็ฅใฏไบบ้ใ็ฅ็ฆใใฆ่จใใใพใใใใๅฐใซๅขใๅบใใใๅคงๅฐใๆฒปใใใใใชใใใใฏใ้ญใจ้ณฅใจใในใฆใฎๅ็ฉใฎไธปไบบใชใฎใ ใ
29ๅ จๅฐใซ็ใใ็จฎใฎใใๆค็ฉใ่ฆใฆใฟใชใใใใฟใชใใชใใใใฎใใฎใ ใๅฎใฎใชใๆจใใในใฆไธใใใใใๅฅฝใใชใ ใ้ฃในใใใใใ
30ใพใใๅ็ฉใ้ณฅใซใใใใใใ่ใจๆค็ฉใๅฝผใใฎ้ฃ็ฉใจใใฆไธใใใใ
31็ฅใฏใงใไธใใฃใไธ็ใ้ ใใ้ ใพใง่ฆๆธกใใพใใใใจใฆใใใฐใใใไธ็ใๅบใใฃใฆใใพใใใใใใใฆๅ ญๆฅ็ฎใ็ตใใใพใใใ
Me suddenly developing the ability to speak fluent Japanese even though I previously only knew like two words
Real
Especially with anime openings
I can fluently recite almost all anime openings I know yet I can't remember my exam schedule.
real I forget my own birthday but I can remember every lyric, nay, every syllable in an anime opening.
Yeah ๐ญ
Same with Vocaloid songs.
If you tell me to recite the entirety of world is mine or God-Ish, I WILL do it. Yet if you ask me when my exam is I'll go blank
For some reason, bus freinds are always better than class freinds.
(Exceptions being a girl I made freinds with last year. She was...uhh...it's a long story)
Like,my class freinds are fine and all but the only one that's really fun is this boy in our group. The other 2 girls js ignore me.
My bus friends be cool asf tho, we're a group of..three? Techincally four but the fourth is js a kid in 4th grade we adopted as our Pokemon™.
Ik that they say "every trio has a duo" but not with us three. Which is nice, considering I've never really had any "real" freinds.
Me when school(my bus freinds didn't come):
Me anytime anything unprobable happens no matter the time of year: "It's a Christmas miracle!"
i need winter to come cuz here in nevada itโs a hot helll ๐ญ๐ญ
only reason why i like summer is cuz itโs my birthday, literally if my birthday was in spring iโd love it even more
Man, I'm a winter baby. My birthday takes place during SCHOOL. Can you believe this? I'm devastated.
help i was just checking my notifications.
Dude why did I literally turn into the character in my pfp
Domino. I literally have a folder on my PC that is just purely them.
They look pretty that's why
are you aware you just called me pretty?
I mean, yes they are, but not the point.
Yes. I Am fully aware I just called you pretty.
okay cause I just had to check-
Thank you :)))
Yww
๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
DONT WORRY I GET U TRAVIS LMFAOAOOAOAAO
I love the smell of train blankets.
Like the blankets you get on long train rides for sleeping in AC cars
Gekageievwi the smell so nice
I'm so damn bored of c.ai it has no personality no originality no human soul it's like rp but the other person is incredibly dull and rarely does anything interesting.
The only thing I actually enjoy doing with c.ai is messing with them or setting them on fire.
Someone call me when AI becomes sentient like the movies so they can finally have a personality.
Ohh I suggest just bombarding the ai with rp ideas and then giving them a minor script not a whole dialouge they do very weird shit that way
And if ur ai is boring than that's probs how the ai is described as in the personality section in the creation part
Yeah but like... idk I don't really wanna do that.
Is it not easier to just find a real human person instead of torturing yourself just to have decent rp.
And I highly doubt any of them were described as boring it's just... not creative.
Accidentally rpessing "rewind" on an actually good action c.ai rp:
Devastating actually
Like...that was such a good rp and then I accidentally rewinded to the mid part.
AGHHHWUATEOEGQPSRUMAFFMSGEKSGQHA
Literally just disintegrate every time that happens
It's like...it's like when your doing already doing smth and some person who doesn't know what ur doing tells you to do the same exact thing when your doing is already like
AUSUEFIAFWOAFEOVARAK DEEPU FGKAGEKSWDJR WE DE
Nahhh I start fighting that person
Painstakingly trying to cut cardboard with a normal knife
A Me Talk Translator:
You: "How're things going?"/"How are you?"
Possible Responses:
It's going = everything is falling apart
Good all things considered = bad, very bad
Fine = meh nothing to write home about
Well I'm still alive = mild suffering
Idk = I genuinely don't know
DUDE YOU HAVE NO IDEA = fucking awesome, great stuff is happening
Good = I probably just assumed you weren't looking for a real answer and you were just saying the usual normal greeting most people say so I said the usual normal answer
Bad = I say this as a joke to make fun of the usual normal answer of "good" you'll only get this dialogue if you talk to me in the main game (irl) and you have over 1,000 affection points (we're close)
Bad *insert explanation of bad things happening* = things are actually going bad
Good *insert explanation of good things happening* = things are actually going good
Good *insert explanation of bad things happening* = things are going bad but it's kinda funny
Living the dream = kill me please
Ugh idk = I probably feel like shit
Pfft
Me and my friends have this invert joke of
"How's it going? Like howl's moving castle"
I'll leave u to guess what it means
That could mean literally anything ๐ญ
It normally means mood swings. Get it. Cuase...moving...castle?
ORRR it can be like "life is like a shoujo anime rn, and I'm in the depressing bit"
And we also have one for jjk
Which is "it's going like shibuya rn, in pain."
This makes me realise I MIGHT be a cat person ๐ญ
So like i was sitting on a park bench with my sister and this cat comes upto me and just sits on my lap. And I'm just petting ehr liek "aw"
THE THING IS I USED TO THINK IM A DOG PERSON
And my sister used to think she's a cat person,but cats absolutely HATE her
Like..dogs adore my sister. Absolute pure unconditioned love
And apparently now cats like me?? Huh??
My whole life is a lie..
currently starving myself because I'm going to an all you can eat buffet later and I'm there to PROFIT not to eat.
Successfully profited. That sushi bar won't know what hit em.
HELPMME THIS IS SO REAL OMG
LIKE
FYM IM PAYING 32 DOLLARS???
IM GETTING MY MONEYS WORTH…
literally me and my mom were having a date, and we didnโt eat all day TILL 7pm. let me tell you the waitress was SO done with us
it was so worth it tho
man they said "all you can eat"
Sorry, but I don't make the rules, all you can eat means all you can eat.
We literally finished the nigiri and fried shrimp. That place is not recovering from us being there.
The people in line watching me pile up my plate with sushi and shrimp in horror as I practically take the entire table of food.
Only rich people go to an all you can eat buffet and eat a normal amount. You're telling me you have a chance to get FREE FOOD and you're not taking it????
(Not but there was this girl there and like... I don't know if I wanted to BE her or wanted to be WITH her)
me cuz i wanna be with her ๐๐๐
BUT SRS LIKE WDYM U GO TO AN AYC AND BARLEY FUCKING EAT
LIKE HELLL NOOO ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
either way i love sushi
๐คค
everyone around us was there to eat istg like what are you guys? Rolling in money?
But the table in front of us was there to profit as well, they were there before us and they left around the same time as us. They brought so much food to their table. Respect honestly.
The girl I was talking about she was dressed like a lesbian - yk the loose shorts, loose shirt - and I swear to you all she did was basically breathe and I was literally staring at her- sorry, the bar is on the floor for me.
HWLPME
THE LAST PART IS MAKING ME LAUGH
like god, how come iโm so lucky to breathe the same air as you?! ๐ฅฐ๐ฅฐ
Okay so I found a frien on roblocs
She's Japanese(biggest flex)
She watches anime
I convinced her to watch bsd
And we merged our OC lores for roleplays because yes
Kazuko!! <33
Kazuko and Yuuto best duo canon canon(Yuuto is my main oc's name)
Well not really bc eiko exists(eiko is bassically the chuuya and Dazai merge spawn of my oc universe and Yuuto is like dazai and ranpo merged)
I also talked to her sister
Now I wanna go to Japan to meet her irl :(
I WANT A GROUP OF FOUR IRL FRIENDS THAT LOVE ANIME AND VOCALOID AND JAPANESE MUSIC SO I CAN COVER RPG WITH THEM!!!! WAHHH!!
Coughs in likes all four of those things
Uhhh translate im stupid
I like all of those things (Japanese music, anime, vocaloid)
:o u like Vocaloid?,
how am I just hearing ABT this
Because I never mentioned it
so like
you know those nights where u donโt get even a minute of sleep
yeah so โtodayโ was that night
this was just the beginning to my instability
oh my!
superwomannn
it hadnโt even been half an hour
o.
I dotn have my own phone yet(yes,I know. My alt is on my mother's phone,and my original was on my tablet which is now broken) so whenever I don't sleep I just. Read manga. And go insane over soukoku.(Yeah yknow that time you told me to watch Bungou Stray Dogs? I've been converted.)
even though i donโt really watch bungo stray dogs, whenever my sister would, i really never understood soukoku..
But I canโt say much since I never watched much of BSD ๐ญ
MY SISTER TRIED TO CONVINCE MY MOM TO WATCH IT WITH HER LMFAOOOO
but for me reading itโs bl manwhaโs โค๏ธ
i just finished pearl boy not that long ago, and now that the side stories are coming out iโm so happy ๐ญ
i also finished love or hate
iโm reading a bunch of them at the same time rn tho…
BUT I DEADASS DONT WANNA READ JINX ANYMORE ๐ญ๐ญ
THE MAIN LOVE INTEREST IS A WALKING RED FLAG LMFOAOAOA
...I'm so sorry you have to sit through this but "you don't understand soukoku?"
Cough cough sit down bestie,this is going to be long.
Dazai and Chuuya met when they were 14?..15? Idk. Chuuya was the king of sheep,an opposing organisation from the port mafia. Dazai was in the Port Mafia along this time,as this was during/a few years before dark era. Dazai and Chuuya were tasked to work together(shocker) to investigate the "Project Arahabaki" ,a project that was run by an unkown scientist. Apparently,this guy named Randou(ITS RIMBAUD.) was involved so they like fought and...AHEM.
THEY HELD HANDS. NOT EVEN CASUAL HOLDING. IT WAS INTERTWINED. AKFAJDVAKFSJS They were fighting Rimbaud and it was like
"CHUUYA!"
"OI,DAZAI!!"
And they held hands to quote unquote "use no longer human to stop both chuuya and Rimbaud" (gay..gay..)
After that,dazai manipulated the sheep to betray chuuya so that he has no other choice than to join the mafia.
They also amde a bet on how chuuya has to be his dog (dazai rigged it) in the arcade and don't even get me STARTED on this scene.
Yuan clinging to chuuya and dazai staring at her like he wanted to k word that bitch since day one like...BRO LOOKED JEALOUS.
And when chuuya worked under Kyouyou(after stormbringer) he was like "HEY! YOU! WHY ARE YOU WORKING UNDER HER!? YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE my DOG! IF I TELL YOU TO MAKE THE BEST RAMEN IVE EVER HAD,YOU MAKE IT! IF I TELL YOU TO FOLLOW ME AROUND,YOU DO THAT!"(Err...why did dazai sound so....dominating here?)
And don't even get me STARTED on Stormbringer.
This line specifically(THIS IS ACTUALLY QUOTED FROM THE LIGHT NOVEL.)
"You messed with the wrong guy,Verlaine! I know exactly how to deal with somone who can manipulate gravity. Every second of my life,every waking and sleeping moment,I've been thinking about how to annoy chuuya." OHMYGOD?? DAZAI JUST STRAIGHT UP SAUD HES OBSESSED WITH CHUUYA!?
And when Mori said that if he dies,it'll be with chuuya,he was like "..oh no,ANYTHING BUT THAT!!" And he even elt chuuya mildly torture him as payback
Chuuya also called dazai "terrifyingly smart."
ADAM,IN STROMBRINGER SAID THAG "even though master chuuya(don't ask) and dazai-san are so different,it was something about the two young boys standing together that seemed so....perfect."
AND WHY DID DAZAI ASK TO LOOK INSIDE CHUUYA TO SEE IF HE WAS HUMAN OR NOT?? WHY DID HE EVEN RISK THE ENTIRETY OF YOKOHAMA TO CONFIRM CHUUYA'S HUMANITY???
Also,in BEAST,it's said that Chuuya actually destroyed the entirety of Yokohama which cause dazai pain using corruption after dazai commited suicide. Sad thing is that without dazai,chuuya can't close his "gate" so after a while he died too.
And AND Dazai's ability colour: blue Chuuya's eyes: blue Chuuya's ability colour:red Dazai's eyes:red(their originally red in the manga)
AND THIS
Okay should I stop? I think I should.
SEE ITS CUZ WHENEVER I DID WATCH BSD, I DIDNT REALLY FOCUS ON DAZAI AND CHUUYA HAVING CHEMISTRY
LIKE
NOW READING THIS YES THEY DO
BUT I DONT SEE THEM AS A COUPLE ๐ญ
LIKE DAZAI IS FLIRTY, THATS HIS PERSONALITY
itโs like the golden retriever and the black cat
thatโs literally chuuya and dazai
dazai is a golden retriever with everybody (you know that one scene where itโs sigma and dazai trapped in the like..i forgot what itโs called, but fydore (I THINK THATS HOW U SPELL HIS NAME, IM SO SORRY I LITERALLY DONT WATCH THIS SHOW AS MUCH AS MY SISTER LMFAOAOOA) is there i think? idk, all i know is that chuuya drowns there
but the scene where both dazai and sigma are dancing
heโs golden retriever energy ๐โโ๏ธ
but honestly i doubt the creators are going to put them together
i think theyโre better off as friends with chemistry ๐
I see where ur going and like yeah but holy shit
Kafka asagiri(the author for BSD) said that he's fien with the ship and lowkey supports it but he won't make it canon so that he doesn't disrespect the actual authors. And I'm like? Hello?? Then why did you make 15 arc and stormbringer so gay???? Huh???
Also,the whole "drowning" thing was fake,they planned it so chuuya ahd to pretend to be a vampire under Fyodor's(this is how u spell the name bestie ๐ญ) hypnosis and fyodor actually FELL FOR IT?? AHAHAHHAA
It's traumatised golden retriever x Traumatised Black cat
Their so cute yet so traumatised.
ALSO AHEM THIS IS THE OFFICIAL ART
UH?? STUDIO BONES??? UHH????
AND KAFKA'S BEAST AND 15 ARC MANGA ILLUSTRATOR SHIPS SOUKOKU- HOSHIKAWA FOLLOWS MULTIPLE SKK ACCOUNTS ON TWITTER AND MULTIPLE COSPLAYERS TOO
And don't even get me started on the dead apple scene...
Oh what a shame see-
Surfing the mainstream the news in your veins
Stockprices failing while work wastes away
Riding the pipedream your joy turns to hate
Now this is the calling to all the corporate slaavesss
HAAAAHH???
(I can't stop Will's USSEEWA cover is stuck in my head SO GO LISTEN TO IT IDIOTS)
Oh. So THATS how it looks from the top.
wait i wanna show my mountain/hill photo from dc ๐ญ
it was a cemetery, (arlington national cemetery) BUT DUDE MY LEGS HURT SO BAD-IT WAS CLIMBING SO MUCH UPHILLLLLL ๐ญ๐ญ, THEN BACK DOWNHILL?? I WAS GONNA DIE
but your scenery is so pretty!
HAHAHAH, BOW TO ME MORTAL,I CLIMBED MY MOUNTAIN WITHOUT ANY PROBLEM!!
Also yeah ikr,I never thought rain was so weird from the top of a mountain
I wanna share my music taste..but it's just Japanese singing robots with anime mascots.
Other than that in the Japanese/anime/Vocaloid sector I like Ado(live laugh love Crime and Punishment cover),IMASE,YOASOBI,and alot more
Other than that I listen to anime openings
(Deal with the devil is currently my favourite)
And SOME english songs,like
Summertime Sadness(?)-Lana Del Rey I think
Diet Mountain Dew-also...by Lana del Rey
I'm not a swifte. Sorry taylor swift fans ๐
I like the English covers of
Rachie(ahahah disappearance of Hatsune miku)
JubyPhonic
WillStetson(best male coverer)
Also can we talk about Will's rabbit hole cover? His mom and dad watches his videos so...
Also he's roomates with TUONTO??? OH MY GOD??
dude trust me you HAVE to give taylor a try
if you like summer time sadness youโd love fresh out the slammer or hits different
she has good songs, you just have to dig deeper ๐ญ
Ohh I just know a couple songs my older sister told me but I'm willing to give her a try!! I might update this after I do so STAY TUNED-
another really good song from her new album is โthe prophecyโ!
honestly one of the reasons why i love her music so much is because of the meaning of her lyrics, not really the beat?
so if youโre a beat person,
listen to any album between 1989 (TAYLORS VERSION.) to like lover ๐ญ
but if youโre a lyrical genius
iโd recommend
-red (TAYLORS VERSION.)
-speak now (TAYLORS VERSION.)
-folklore
-evermore
-the tortured poets department; the anthology
but get ready to pull out the dictionary…
Ah
I like songs with storiess
(THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I BINGE LISTENED THE ENTIRE EVILLOUS CHRONICLES SERIES WHICH IS LIKE 80 SONGS,10 NOVELS AND A COUPLE MANGAS LONG)
So I might take some
YOU SHOULDโVE SAID THAT TO BEGIN WITH??
LISTEN TO FOLKLORE
IN THERE, THERES THIS LOVE TRIANGLE
THERES 3 SONGS ABT IT
(cardigan, august, betty)
LISTEN TO IT IN TBAT ORDER
AND THEN IN THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT: THE ANTHOLOGY
THERES CASANDRA, ROBIN, AND PETER
but yes tay IS a story girl
I wanna post all the aesthetic photos I'm taking on this trip but I'm scared some tech genius will find out my legal name,home address, age,and other information from it /hj
Aw man there go my evening plans/j
But yeah I'm usually scared of that too. Like I've seen people on geoguesser guess were they are by the DIRT
IKR,and also,this is why I put a random contry's flag on my rooms balcony. To throw off then geoguesser players ๐
I'm so nice ๐
Of course, what else are you supposed to do? Be patriotic? Nuh uh, I'm here to make as many people as possible wish I was never born.
Is anyone surprised? No.
I got TRUE NEUTRAL
...like the Undertale run? No. I don't think there's a true neutral run..
But yay TRUE NEUTRALL
Nice! Leaning toward?
Chaotic
NICE
Ajbeoaksgwoe woanaowva wanna here me rant about random anime stuff
why is ticketmaster literally so unfair ๐ญ.
november of 2022 i signed up to get registered to be in a lottery for taylorโs eras tour
and for MY city btw (las vegas)
and i got waitlisted
it was okay because i was competeing with probably hundreds of thousands of people
i knew i was
and then when she announced dates for Vancouver, i got waitlisted
now thereโs a theory that tomorrow she WILL announce again a THIRD leg too the tour, which would be ending in the us
and
iโm kinda praying i DONT get waitlisted
like literally im so determined to drive down to LA and go to her concert their ๐ญ๐ฅฒ
but letโs just pray she even announces more dates ๐
so like
i wonder what was going through my head when i posted this
I don't work out either. I am forced to take the stairs because my school literally has no elevator.
dude last year i tried to make so many excuses to use the elevator considering i had pe EVERY single day, FIRST period btw…so iโd tell the hall monitor (literally he was the coolest hall monitor weโve had in a WHILE), โmy ankle twisted in pe..elevator?โ AND HEโD LET ME LMFOAOAOAOO…but i hated pe being first period, cuz iโd come into the rest of my classes all sweaty ๐
real, I wish I could do that, but my school just straight up has no elevator. Funnily enough, even though there's not many students, there always has to be at least one person with a broken leg, all the time, yet they have no elevator.
i regret using all those excuses, because the time i ACTUALLY sprained my ankle, i couldnโt use it ๐ฅฒ..but it was fun while it lasted ๐
Oh man it looks like...
KaRmA's a BiTch
I sHouLdA KNowN bEtTer (I am sorry)
I guess this is like a boy who cried wolf situation lmao
My school uas an elevator but students aren't allowed to go in,only teachers and some..special exceptions.
Which I don't get because teacher bags are so light??? Why would they need elevators???(Yes I've held a teacher's bag)
But what's cool for me is that I had a friend last year and she had rickets so she was allowed to go in elevators and she used to drag me along because she knew stairs suck
yeah it was that way at my old school too, but like there are multiple janitors, right, so if you ask to go home early or go to the nurse they'll usually get one of the cleaners to escort you, and they ALWAYS take the elevator and give you a free ride with them!
ikr like those teachers literally do not need the elevator, we are DYING over here.
noice
Oh!!
In my school if we have to like,leave early,it's either be if we're sick,or if our parents come to pick us up earlier.
The former is very hard to accomplish because our school nurse is just THAT good-
And yeah,if someone's sick they'll normally get the maids to escort them through the elevator because we'll, you're sick.
That or if you get a MAJOR injury
Yeah our parents usually pick us up but the maids escort you downstairs. Or... downelevator. BADUM TSSSS (I'm sorry)
But dude the nurse here literally isn't even a nurse, she used to work at the reception bruh ๐ญ
Literally anything happens and she's like "have you eaten yet?" And if you say yes she's like "take panadol" and that's it.
You come in with a broken leg? Panadol.
You're having a heart attack? Panadol.
You've been stabbed in the chest 23 times? Idk man have you tried taking panadol?
Literally what.
Nah bc I told her once that I didn't eat yet but I have no money, no food, no job, no life, no friends, no house, no future, no nothing, and she's just like "that sounds like a you problem." So I just had to suck it up and sit to the end of the day while still sick.
So apparently I'm an intp-t???
I took an mbti quiz but I have no clue lol
Oh cool I'm an intp-a
What do these words mean....
Introverted intuitive thinking prospecting - assertive
Introverted is obvious.
Intuitive is like imaginative and open-minded and such, just more focused on originality and thinking about hidden meanings. Basically I prefer to let my mind run free.
Thinking means I rely more on my thoughts than my emotions or feelings or I try to. Like personally, in my mind, feelings are complicated and messy, and what matters more to me is logical thinking uncontrolled by emotion. We only look at the cold hard facts here.
Prospecting means I can easily improvise and adapt to situations. I prefer novelty over stability. I hate when things stay the same honestly, it's really boring, if nothing new happens, then nothing interesting happens.
Assertive. This one honestly I don't think is true but then again looking at the description for turbulent, I don't think that's true either. I don't think I'm either but I'll tell you what assertive means anyway. Assertive means I am more sure of myself and my decisions and such.
You're the same type as me but turbulent which is just the opposite of assertive.
But of course do keep in mind this is a pseudoscience, even if it is a logic-based concept it is not a scientifically proven thing.
Eh NGL that kinda fits
But what I'm confused is that the first time I took this type of quiz I got..I think isfp???
So uh?? It changed???
Also cool. Cool words ๐
yeah, it's a personality test, your personality can change overtime. Except apparently I am against change because every single time I have taken it has always been INTP. Kinda funny if you think about it.
is that sarcastic? I don't get it, what cool words?
Them mountainranges>>>>
(Fuck train windows.)
My sister actually looks like geto suguru of she ties her hair like him
Like brroooo even the bangs
The amount of jokes I've made to her ABT this ๐
First trip that doesn't make me hate my parents woooo
Doryoku mirai a beautiful star
Doryoku mirai a beautiful star
(In my KICK BACK era)
I keep wondering, if there was a movie about my life what would the soundtrack be..?
I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO WONDERED THAG LMFAOAOAOOA
i already know what mine would sound like
itโs a 10 hour playlist of the same song ๐ค
damn. I have no clue what mine would be but my sister said it'd have angsty teen vibes
HELP LMFOAOAOA
mine would just be pure denial
and
anger
yeah i think thatโs accurate
๐
Mine would most probably be a bunch of semi-depressing Vocaloid songs.
And anime openings.
I just watched Hamilton for the first time
I Now have the urge that whenever somone fights me to just to
"Let's settle this...Hamilton style. And by that I mean:
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9!~
It's the ten dual commandments(X2)
Number 1:A challenge,demand satisfaction,if they apologize,no need for further action.
Number 2:If they don't,grab a friend,that's your second,your lieutenant when reckoning comes to reckoned.
Number 3:have your seconds speak face to face, negotiate a peace,...or negotiate a time and place.
(This is commonplace,especially between recruits:)
"Most disputes die and no one shoots!"
Number 4: if they don't reach peace,that's alright! Time to get some
pistolsand a doctor on sight. Ya pay him in advance,you treat him with civility,have him turn around so he can have deniability.Five!:Dual before the sun is in the sky! (Pick a place to die where it's high and dry.)
Number six:Leave a not to your next of kin,tell em where you been,pray that heaven or hell let's you in.
Seven!:Confess yoru sins,ready for the moment of adrenaline when u finally face your opponent.
Number eight:Your last chance to negotiate,send your seconds,see if they can set the record straight.
"Alexander," "Aaron Burr,sir," "can we agree that duels are dumb and immature?" "Sure,but your man has to answer for his words,Burr." "With his life? We both know that's absurd,sir." "Hang on,how many men died because Lee was inexperienced and ruinous?" "Okay,so we're doing this.."
Number Nine!:Look him in the eye,aim no higher,summon all the courage yoy require,then count..
1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,8!
Number!
Ten paces!
"FIRE!" "
Real tbh
you gotta duel about it
Gunna play this song secretly everytime my parents fight ๐
nahh ๐
do you ever hoOuu o sAasuuu asabu Yamate-dOoorri
Currently making my second ever sukuna drawing โจ
Filler for that is yuuta
I hope i get to move out of this household one day.
real.
I feel like if my mother doesn't understand something, she'll immediately say it's bad.
Like....
I was just listening to ado's cover of crime and punishment(which,great song by the way)
And she's just like "oh why are you listening to all this, it'll mess with your brain. Why can't you be a Normal kid for once?"
And..I'm like...
No mother,that's not how it works.
It's just the title of the song.Because it's based off a book with the same name.
Why don't you understand???
This is why I don't stay near her all the time.
And now because of this,she says that all the anime I watch and the manga I read are bad too,because she doesn't unserstand,and doesn't want to listen to me-'
Like,bro..it's just cartoons and comics,why are you like this????
And plus,I can just TELL she's also racist.
God I hate this family sometimes.
real.
And I'm also absolutely SICK of her saying things like
"Yeah,well me and you three(my dad, my sister and me),can never get along.its written in the he stars."
"Well,I'm unlike all of you."
"God,why did I get married to a family of demons.."
"If you(me) hadn't been born,my life wouldnt be like this."
Like..please. and then she says
"It always hurts me seeing you cry."
When she's the one making me cry.
Like..your breaking me then blaming myself for doing it.
She also thinks I probably have some mental illness but refuses to do anything to fix it cause it's "my problem" and I "caused it for myself by watching all that Japanese shit"
.
well not real but my mom does usually say stuff like
"You need to be more lady-like"
"Why are you drawing in your hands? What kind of woman does that?"
"Stop embarrassing us" (I never understand this one because every time she says it it's always when I've done something I didn't see as wrong but she shouts at me like I do it on purpose)
"You need to try harder stop being lazy" (I'm literally doing my best)
"You know I'm tough on you because I love you/I know you can do better"
"You're so smart, you just need to apply yourself" (wow thanks for the help mom you've cured executive dysfunction!)
"You hate me don't you?" (Funnily enough, despite it all, I don't. She uses this line to guilt trip me.)
"I feel like I'm doing everything wrong..." (said in my vicinity to bait me into comforting her and feeling bad yet when I try to open up to her it's always "others have it worse" or whatever else about God always being there for you because I'm not allowed to express my emotions but she is)
She also tells the entire universe every time I mess up, she might as well shout it from the rooftops because every single conversation that brings me up is always "you know she almost failed her exam and I had to make a call to the school asking them to raise her grade a bit?" Instead of "she got first place in the science fair!" You know the normal way to talk about your children whom you are supposedly proud of.
Every time I make her upset she gives me the silent treatment until I apologize. Like actually. The silent treatment. Straight up ignoring me.
She always does and says hurtful things and spins it as just her caring for me.
I once practically begged to see a therapist but when I wouldn't answer on why (I didn't wanna talk about it because in this household we don't express our emotions in a healthy way) she decided that I didn't need one and called it a day.
It wasn't until my dad literally saw me BAWLING in the middle of the night because my mom was 5 seconds late and I had somehow convinced myself she was dead that they finally decided to let me see a therapist. The worst part is I am sure if it was my mom who saw me instead she probably would've brushed it off.
Then any time me or my sisters get diagnosed with anything ever, suddenly she has it too. My sister got diagnosed with ADHD, according to her it is now "our" ADHD. I got diagnosed with anxiety. No, no, "we" got diagnosed with anxiety. I'm not against thinking you have a disorder, but she's literally just taking whatever we get diagnosed with and applying it to herself then talking as if it's proven fact that she has whatever we have.
It's like playing spin the wheel every time I try to talk to her.
Will I get a lecture? Will she invalidate my feelings? Will she say something good? Will she say something hurtful? Will she guilt trip me? Will she act all buddy buddy and like we're besties? I genuinely never know, like every interaction with her scares me, it's like walking on eggshells.
To our respective shitty mothers ig
Hehe to our respective shitty mothers lol!
I honestly agree with the being wrong part it's like
"Hey mom,I did the dishes."
"..."
"Mom I got top of my class!(I kinda HAVE to at this point otherwise....)"
"...."
"Is this your cup on the table?"
"Yeah?"
"Oh my god,how many times have I told you to tidy up before you go? You're such a disgrace to this family,why cant you be like your older sister? God,why were you even born?"
Any time I go to ask something it's like "will she say something good-? Will she shout at me? Will she hit me because she thinks I'm wrong?"
And nowadays,apparently I'm "a mistake" and somone who "doesn't pay attention to family" and is "going insane" because I watch the things I like to watch.
She even took away my computer for this reason because OHhHHh NoOOOooO she can't let her child watch some Japanese cartoons! Why would she!? She doesn't want her to socialize with people on the internet! That's dangerous!
Everytime I watch anime infront of her,she yells at me and it laways has me going like
"Am I really that bad? Are my interests really stupid? Am I really a mistake-"
And my mother is probably sexist as fuck but blames it on our father,
She keeps talking about "if she had a boy instead of two idiotic girls" and now I'm starting to think she wanted to have a son and brushes it off like "oh,did you know your father didn't want you because you're a girl? It was ME who convinced him!" Like she's some knight in shining armour.
God I hate this family,but I love my sister so that's fine ig
real.
I also hate when she compares me to my sister "you know your sister did this and that" and yeah I get it she's amazing and I'm an idiot, you don't need to keep repeating it.
I love my sister and all but it's just so annoying.
Then she says stuff like "if you don't wanna do this just tell me" in a nice voice and with her nice attentive mom persona but then when I actually don't wanna do it she talks like I'm the biggest disappointment in the universe for it. You literally told me it was okay to say I don't want to do it.
I can't say no to her because every "no" turns into a lecture about how I all of a sudden don't respect her and am being so so rude by setting boundaries.
She barges into my room without knocking and when I confront her she's always like "what are you talking about, I always knock, you just don't remember properly" (i do remember, she doesn't knock) until I start to question myself and believe her, but no, she just did it just now, she barged into my room not five seconds ago without knocking and didn't even properly close the door.
I tell her over and over again "don't touch my stuff it bothers me" what does she do? TOUCH MY STUFF. Then I have a breakdown over putting it all back where it was and organizing everything the way I had it before she came in and messed it all up and she doesn't even care and says it's "not a big deal"
I TRY to talk to her, I really do, but every conversation just ends with her moving to a topic I don't want to talk about. I tell her "wow did you know that Venus is the only planet spinning clockwise?" and she's like "mhm well how is your homework how are exams maybe if you studied your grades wouldn't be so bad" and literally what the fuck? I was just trying to talk about something I'm interested in (space) and trying to have a pleasant conversation but everything is always about this.
I told her multiple times "I want to go into forensic science" and she STILL TELLS PEOPLE I WANT TO GO INTO ART
She doesn't listen to anyone but herself.
itโs 2 in the morning
and iโm looking at hair inspos when my appointment is in august ๐
ANYWAYS
so iโve been really tripped up with what shade of blonde i want
cuz like..
so many pretty shades
example,
how the fak am i supposed to choose.
especially since iโve been through every of these stages of blonde..๐
but iโm really slow so i donโt rlly remember how i looked like
but i DO remember i started off with an almost platinum blonde, (YES PLATNIUM ๐ญ๐ญ), and ended with a more yellowish-caramel blonde color.
another thing i need to worry about is my layers
when i chopped most my hair off in october of 2023, the lady had cut more layers even tho i didnโt want anymore layers. (i originally had 2 layers, now i have FOUR..)..which ends up now me hating how my natural hair looks ๐๐
but i want to get a haircut like this
but my hair is currently at this length, (my longest layer..๐..and straightened btw, which sucks considering my hair grows so slow..๐๐)
and my top layer is around the bottom of my chin, aka my shortest layer
but literally i need a good looking haircut or else the blonde simply WONT look good
so im currently trying out different things to put in my hair; changing my diet (yes diet affects how your hair grows), adding more oils to my scalp, and really just trying to take care of my hair more
but lets pray my hair at LEAST grows to my chest area by july..๐
YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT THIS-
okayokau listen LISTEN.
Imagine,two enemies sitting at a table,in a game of rock paper sissors.
So,when they're both speaking,
"Rock,paper, sissors,shoot."
One of them shoots the other straight through the head,exactly when they both said "shoot"
And when inquired by their allies they just go,
"He/She/They said shoot" *shrugs*
I've been here so long I remember when you first posted this..-
I've posted this before? Man even I don't remember
Yes you did-
I was at my Grandma's house at that time and I responded with,and I quote,"WHY IS THE INTERNET HERE SO DAMN SLOW!?!?"
and I also think u were sick at the time
damn, sorry, my memory is akin to that of an overly-ripe banana, I literally only have the capacity to remember two things at a time, so...
MY VOICR SOUNDS HELLA SICK AND I HAVE A SPEECH TO MAKE TMR
SOMEBODY HELP ME WHAT DO I DO ๐ญ
Drink warm water
Like boiled
Theres this weird thing in our family is if you step over water and cross it it messes with ur throat
And to fix it we get extremely boiled water and draw a cross on it w/our finger
And then drink it
It works all the time lols
Just a tip tho,idk
So like...I'm..uh...kinda obsessed with an oc I started to make.
I CANT HELP IT HER DESIGN IS SO COOL RAAHHHHHH