Why r there wolves in my body wtf are they doing there how do they even fot inside what are they even getting for food??? Is this why I eat so much but I'm so skinny wtf???
Casper the friendly idiot (once by Ash "at least he said 'friendly' that time.")
Casper the rich fucker (once by Ash)
Casper the stupid ghost (once by Ash)
Casper the... I think you get it atp.
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Birthday: December 6th
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Gender: cis male
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Pronouns: he/him
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Sexuality: Straight (sure, whatever you say, big guy)
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Likes:
Money
New stuff
Money
Ash ("I DO NOT")
Attention
Money
Bad movies
Money
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Dislikes:
Ash
Misunderstandings ("JUST TALK" he should take his own advice)
People not accepting gifts
Ash
Ash
Ash
Messy places
Mint ("the taste is far too strong")
ASH
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Background:
Casper was born into a rich family, his dad was a CEO and his mom a well known fashion expert and personal stylist. You'd think it'd be a miracle his taste in fashion is so shit with a mother like that, but it's not like she spends enough time with him to give him any fashion advice. His dad hardly cared about him either, he sent him off to public school despite the fact that he could very easily afford a private school. He just gave Cas money instead of attention. Casper did end up finding a group of friends in school, despite being incredibly rude and extremely annoying. He's glad they don't hate his guts and took a chance on him. Though he'd probably die before he'd say that out loud. He's rich, he's not supposed to mingle with commoners.
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Ao3 tag: "repressed emotions in a trench coat"
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Song: Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic
Name:
Ashton
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Nicknames:
Ash
Emo bitch (by Cas)
Tony Hawk
Skater boy
Motherfucker (by Cas)
Wannabe goth (by Cas)
Weirdo (by Cas)
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Birthday: September 18th
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Gender: cis male
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Pronouns: he/him
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Sexuality: very much gay
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Likes:
The color black (no, duh)
Skateboarding
Casper ("he's not gonna see this list, right?")
Cats
Bad movies
Rom-coms ("tell anyone and I will break your fingers")
Video games
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Dislikes:
Summer
People entering his room without permission
People who breathe or chew too loudly
People who... people.
Tea
Birds
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Background:
Son of an unhappily married couple. When he's not holed up in his room blasting music to drown out his fighting parents, he's at the skate park with his friends, trying to do a backside 360 ollie. He keeps falling, which Casper the fucking loser never fails to torment him about. They usually just sit and watch but sometimes he tries to teach them how to skate. Cas never joins though. Too pretty to ruin his nails or some shit. Still, if Ash had to pick between staying at home with his stupid parents who should just get a divorce already and sitting with his friends, who honestly feel more like family to him than his own family ever did. He'd rather be with his friends.
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Ao3 tag: "terrible awful flirting"
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Song: Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
Name:
Jamal
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Nicknames:
Jay
Pinkie (once by Cas)
Marie Curie ("I think she's just the only female scientist they know.")
Science nerd
Blue Jay (by Ash "my hair was blue when he started calling me that. It just stuck around.")
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Birthday: January 3rd
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Gender: transfem
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Pronouns: she/her
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Sexuality: bisexual
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Likes:
Wildlife biology
Music
Collecting little ceramic sculptures
Kids cartoons
Tumblr (she's the resident tumblrina)
Gardening
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Dislikes:
Loud noises
Losing things (even unimportant/small things)
Writing essays
Coffee ("don't know how anyone could like it")
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Background:
When you live with three younger siblings and two working parents, you end up having to become the parent to your siblings. But it's not so bad, at least she can trick them into doing stuff for her without her parents telling her off. Until they come back of course. Once they're back her siblings are no longer her problem so she usually sits in her room studying or watering her plants or listening to music or goes out to hang out with her friends. They're a group of idiots, but it's okay, she can always be the so-called "straight""man" of the group. They also have major problems, but don't worry! She's always there for them. She's the one people come to when they're not okay, and she's happy to be that person! If only she ever took the advice she gives others.
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Ao3 tag: "all knowing and supportive as hell"
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Song: Give a Little - LeGrand & CG5
Name:
Riley
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Nicknames:
Roy
Van Gogh
Picasso
Starving artist
Major Tom (a couple of times by Cas "only when I space out")
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Birthday: July 21st
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Gender: amab non-binary
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Pronouns: they/them
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Sexuality: aro/ace
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Likes:
Bugs
Art
Bracelets
Stickers
Books
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Dislikes:
Honey
Florescent lighting
Social interactions
Nail polish ("strong smell. Also it's just weird to have something on your nail. Maybe that's just me.")
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Background:
Born to a single, working mom. Riley had to take care of themselves a lot of the time. But it's okay, they know their mom is working hard for them. And Riley likes being alone anyway. It's highly preferable over being with others. Not that they don't enjoy their friends' company, they do, just sometimes being alone is nice and sometimes being with friends is nice. Especially since they've never treated Riley different. Unlike most people. But even then they still feel different. Maybe they're broken in some way. But... broken things can be fixed. So maybe Riley just needs to be fixed. Yeah.
Queer concepts and why they're seen as queer (I am bored):
Vampires: the very idea of being "strange" or "other" has been inherently connected with queerness since forever. Vampires are generally cast out from society and seen as vile beings by humans. Sound familiar? Especially the idea that vampires never chose to be vampires.
Pirates: pirates are generally people who have left regular society in order to be free. The idea that normality and being like other people is keeping you down just sounds like a queer experience. Freeing yourself from the shackles of normality in order to be different is a queer experience.
Cowboys (specifically Outlaws): again with being cast out from society and being seen as different or other. Also, men riding horses. What's stopping them from riding something el- okay I'll shut up. Anyway, criminals in general are seen as kind of queer (depending on the crime) since being gay used to be illegal.
These kinds of concepts lend themselves well to queer stories and are connected with all kinds of queer identities and even ND concepts. Something being seen as "forbidden" or something that's "not allowed" is generally connected with queerness. Forbidden love is a queer idea. None of this to say these concepts can never be hetero whatsoever, but they connect more with queer and ND audiences. The feeling of being separate from the rest of society and being seen as something negative when you're just trying to live your life.
Okay, well, you base your judgements of how feminine or masculine other people are off the traditional perception of masculinity or femininity, and those traditional values are misogynistic, transphobic, homophobic, and harmful to not just women but also men of all ages.
Most of the personality traits I agreed with were stuff like "independent" and "strong" traits traditionally seen as masculine, which is absolute bullshit. You've basically just said that women can't be independent or strong, a misogynistic statement that has angered women for centuries, and women who possess those traits were often called homophobic slurs, and that men HAVE to be independent and strong, a harmful stereotype that hurts the men who don't possess those traits by invalidating their identity as men, oftentimes men like that are called homophobic slurs as well.
Perhaps you should get some psychiatric help and realize that "feminine" and "masculine" are absolute bullshit, and people can be and do whatever the fuck they want.
Me when I realize that I'm actually alive and a real person and everything that's happening is happening in real life and isn't just some silly dream I'm having or a joke or a tv show.
Dude i am like OBSESSED with Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy
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book accurate Trillian >>>>>>
Who is this white bitch and why is she pretending to be the ethnic gypsy looking girl we all know and love.
Look how the massacred her
Look how whitewashed she is.
Book Trillian, you will always be special to me.
Especially the hijabi headcanon. Bro like imagine being that inclusive as a fandom. Like you will probably not find a lot of fanart for movie or show Trillian because a majority of the fandom just prefer book Trillian, AKA the non-whitewashed version. I love this fandom fr.
Any H2G2 fanartist that strictly draws book Trillian, I am kissing you on the lips, our wedding is already planned, you have no choice.
Also bro Ford could've saved any one of the millions of humans on Earth and he chose to save Arthur. π€¨π³οΈβπ?
I know what you are, Ford.
No more "would you still love me if I was a worm?" Now it's "if the planet was about to be destroyed by nasty aliens and you were the only one on the Earth that knew, and you could only pick one person form the millions on Earth to save along with yourself... would you save me?"
No pressure btw, just that if you answer "no" I am breaking up with you. If you can't be like this completely fictional alien in this completely fictional universe, then do you even love me? π’
I love how people are trying so hard to make "42" make sense. The author himself literally said it was just a number.
People are like "oh yeah no it actually means this and that" no it doesn't π
I got it guys. The meaning of 42. This is it the definitive meaning, no questions asked.
It's the number of times you have to fart in a row to gain divine enlightenment.
Like man the book is so incredibly unserious, do you really think that in the middle of all the crack the author was snorting he just suddenly went "oh, you know what this book is missing, a random weirdly wise and life changing thing"
The characters literally almost fucking die all because they couldn't drive the ship away from enemies because ALL of it's main computers were too preoccupied trying to make A CUP OF TEA.
In love with this book actually. I want to marry this book.
I know fandom is like a shit website but besides it there really is no other page to go to for hordes of fandom information easily accessible. Like not content, information.
What is this ship? Why is it popular? Give me the entire lore of the ship.
Can I learn more about this character from a fandom pov because Wikipedia is shit at searching up fandom stuff? Did the actor actually confirm this character as gay or are people just lying to my face?
Answering these questions is just a lot easier with fandom especially with smaller fandoms that don't have an official wiki. If you're in like the terraria fandom sure you have your own wiki you can ignore fandom as a website completely if you want, but what if you're in a fandom that has like 5 people in it. What then. You don't have a fucking official wiki, you can't code your own, where tf do you go? To fandom. Because anyone can make a wiki using fandom. I swear, I don't like this website any more than... anyone. But what am I supposed to do? Where do I go?
And this, my dear friends, is why I can't wait to move out.
My mom used my room like a damn storage room while I was gone and she messed up all my stuff. I told her before, I tell her over and over "don't touch my stuff I don't like it when you do that" and what does she do? Touches my stuff. Now I have to re-organize.
Frr though my mother randomly arranged my manga how she THINKS it will go when I perfectly arranged it already in order of volume and when I bought it so whenever I come back from school I have to re-organise... π
I'm like the biggest coward on the planet dude. I avoided posting on ao3 for YEARS. And I mean that literally. Actual years. And if there's one thing I've learned it's that there are millions of people on ao3 and someone is bound to like what you write no matter what. And even if they don't, whatever, fanfic is a self-indulgent concept, you should be writing for you anyway. Plus some people give great advice in the comments on ways to improve your writing. And even if you don't post on ao3 you can still write on like ms word or in your notes or something to yourself and just never post it. That's what I do mostly.
You guys won't fucking BELEIVE what just fucking happened.
I'm on vacation rn so I'm just at this resprt that me and my family go to EVERY YEAR. We never really had any problems, duh, if we did we wouldn't come here every year.
Anyway, point is, every day at sunset and sunrise they spray this little bug spray around the place. Yk, gotta keep the place insect free. They don't spray it inside rooms unless necessary so it's just outside. So today, after both my sisters went to sleep, I was the only one awake, and I heard, outside, the guy spraying the bug spray. Now he sprays a lot, and obviously you're not supposed to breathe it in so you have two options when he does this, go back inside your room, or hold your breath. I was already inside the room so I was like "alr whtv" then I start smelling the bug spray. Inside the room.
Now, logically, this shouldnβt be happening. The door is locked and so is the window. But like whatever, maybe we just accidentally left it open or something so I open the curtains to check and lo and behold, the door was completely locked and the windows were as well.
Now that is weird. Well, probably just my mind playing tricks on me. I turn around, and I notice that the entire room is filled with smoke. Wispy white smoke, like fog where you can only see it if you're far away. And whatever this fog was, the room was rapidly filling up with it. Oh fuck.
So I am now rapidly running around looking for the keys to the room so I can unlock the door because the window decided for some reason that it wanted to be fucking jammed, when I realize where the contaminated air is coming from. The air conditioning. I look up and there is white fog coming from the AC. I turn it off, find the key and open the door letting the room air out.
What the actual fuck. No seriously what. Our room was filling up with smoke and the smoke alarm didn't go off at all. What the fuck.
We've never run into a problem like this here before, literally NEVER.
So like I'm at my grandmother's house rn. Also I started cutting myself!! Yay depression!!! One of my bestest cousin friends which I rarely ever see is going to come too tomorrow so LETS GOOOOOOOO
dreaming you should honesty speak to somebody about this it isnβt good to self harm and itβs not an easy topic to talk about but the guilt years after of seeing scars is painful
please for your health go talk to somebody. i lost somebody very dear to me because they were too scared to reach out, and so many other people will feel shame and guilt for not asking if youβre okay
so please just talk to somebody about your emotions instead of self harming
appearance: 5β6-1/2, honey brown almond eyes, natural wavy/curly brown/blonde highlighted hair, greek…nose?…very like light skin, natural blush, bottom hourglass-(BUT I AM NOT FLAT WHEN IT COMES TO MY CHEST π), i like..regular..fashion!…idk like i donβt have a style brah. whatever cargo/tanktops are π’. i like sundresses! i also like nikes! but not skirts
current obsessions: t-swizz, chappell roan, billie eilish………..psycho..logy?…IDK π. oh AND the eras tour..but i think that kinda works with tay!
character arc: i want my dad to be able to see reality and stop being mean and treat me like a DECENT human being. i also want to drop out of honors biology because itβs very hard. i also want to cry in the shower when i get home
By psychology do you mean psychiatry? Like the study of human emotions and behavior as related to mental disorders/illnesses? Or psychology as in psychology in general? The study of behavior in animals.
haha honestly the psychology weβre studying right now is super good
itβs like thereβs 7 types of different psych? some psychologists will say itβs like a physical issue (genes) some behavior, some say itβs just your attitude, and some other things. like who u hang out with can affect u??
well I'm talking mostly abt things you're born with. Autism, adhd, yk things that affect your brain function that have no cure and cannot simply appear, you have to be born with it to have it.
Neurodivergence basically. Yk things that might have some hereditary influence but the exact cause is unknown and such.
Because my sister says I have low-empathy disorder (they don't use the words psychopath or sociopath anymore because it takes on a negative connotation) and maybe some sort of autism. My mom thinks I might have adhd and my other sister says I have ocd.
I know my other sister is wrong because I don't have the same obsessive thoughts related to OCD, but I wonder if my sister and my mom might have a point.
I kinda already know I'm neurodivergent I just don't know what exactly.
In my psych class I took a few different types of psychology. Mostly it was psychiatry, but we also studied animal behaviors every now and then and the different types of psychology.
We also studied the generational identity in which every generation believes themselves to be better than the next one because "that's how I was raised, and I turned out fine so that must be the correct way to be raised and these new ways of raising kids just ain't right." Then the next generation complains about the last generation treating them badly because of this only to do it again to the generation after them. For example, Gen Z complains that the past generations make fun of them and treat them badly, but they do the same thing to Gen Alpha. It's also, each generation thinks that they're going to be the change in the cycle, that they won't treat the next generation the same way they were treated, but they always always do. It's also, with the way the world is so rapidly changing nowadays, each generation can only relate to people in their own generation and find difficulty relating to other generations because ultimately they didn't grow up with the same struggles and the same lives. That's why there's such a big divide between each generation. Because we just can't relate to each other anymore. Not even because it's physically impossible to, but because of the generational identity that we built. It's a sort of "stay in your lane and we stay in ours" situation, like cliques. Generations don't mix because no one, no one changes the way they think. No one tries to understand. The cycle doesn't stop. Gen Alpha, they'll complain about Gen Z. They'll grow up and treat the next generation the same. It's always the same. I'm not being pessimistic, and I'm not being a "realist" I'm being genuinely serious. This is the way it is. And the chances of the cycle ever stopping, of a generation ever pausing and going "wait... what are we doing?" Are so low. It repeats and repeats and repeats. The cycle always repeats. But no one ever stops to recognize it.
We also took like the basics. Yk, classical conditioning, mental disorders, blah blah blah.
Name: oh boy. Queen, Queenie, Nightcrawler, Sprinkles, I'm known as Loki by some people, my irl name if you know it, uhhhh can't think of any else so I hope that's all of em.
Appearance: 5'7" round black glasses, brown hair, mullet, dark brown eyes, hooked nose ig(?), natural blush, pimple scars, rectangle body type I think, I don't necessarily have a set fashion style, but I guess I like to dress in ways that stand out. I'm fashionable. Mostly wide leg pants and platform shoes. Skirts/dresses possible but I don't wear them a whole lot.
Current obsession: Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Percy Jackson, and the Hercule Poirot book series. (Yes, I am a NERD, bookworm, I'm studious. From my cerebral cortex to my gluteus.)
Current character arc: avoiding the fact that I have to go back to school soon and acting like it's totally okay and I'm not about to break down crying over it. Send help.
Help me and my freinds are making an anime and we decided to write introductions so now I'm gunna do it with my online persona(Y'all can try it too?)
Name:Dreaming
Appearence:idk bro, litterally anything you think. But just so you know, I'm a female and kinda tomboyish. Maybe emo? Nah I hardly wear black. But I have black straight hair which is super long. Bassically just Gin Akutagawa from BSD
Current obsession:Bungou Stray Dogs and Ice/Figure skaters..(π)
Current character arc:depression. Maybe. But it is some mental disorder. I mean, I did start cutting myself. /Hj
Personality:INTJ...or was it ISFP?? I forgot. Mostly introverted(unless your name is[REDACTED] irl)
I mean, I do know I cut myself starting day before yesterday and now I have 6 cuts on my left wrist.. but like....why?... I don't even have it that bad- I mean- my life is mid as hell and it's boring, wtf happened....
I--...
Well...it's not like I DON'T want to cut myself, but...this is...new.
i kinda have even and odd days, and the silly thing is IF you didnβt notice, that i have FOUR periods every day!
and i have
FOUR FUCKING HONORS CLASS
and did you know that if you divide 4/2 you get two?
MEANING YOU COULDβVE FUCKING JUST GIVEN ME TWO HONORS EVERY DAY AND NOT 3 IN ONE?
one honors for my odd day. which is the easiest honors.
bro i loved my schedule last year, like i had 7 classes everyday BUT i didnβt need to be stressed one day and not as stress the other. i HATE that itβs like βoh! youβre going to be relived today-but tomorrow you wonβt π₯°β JUST MAKE ME FUCKING SUFFER BOTH DAYS OH MY GOD???
But I'm not gonna fucking like switch schools cause whatever it's two years and why would I put myself through the torture of being the new girl at school again.
Just two more years and I can flip the school off on my way out.
I swear it's so fucking shit dude.
Imagine this, mid-year, they started CHARGING US for the Google classroom accounts. So the people who didn't have money too fucking bad ig. And they won't accept homework assignments in physical form, it has to be on Google classroom. What the Ψ²ΩΨͺ (trash/shit in arabic).
Not to mention that, now that the school year is over, they've shut all the Google classroom accounts for the students. But wait... what's this? They sent the exam results... AFTER ALL THE ACCOUNTS WERE SHUT. MONTHS AFTER SCHOOL IS OVER.
So, how are we going to see our results, you ask? That's the thing, WE DON'T.
Every other school got to see their results. Us? Ψ·Ψ² (shortened version of Ψ·Ψ² ΩΩΩ/ΩΩΩΩ/ΩΩΩΩΨ§ which just means "screw you").
What do we do? We pull the results from our ass? Or from theirs?
This entire school is shit and the people who made it are shit and the people in it are shit and the ground it is on is shit.
Ψ·Ψ² ΩΩΩΩ Ω ΩΨ£ΩΩΩΩ . ΩΩΨ§Ψ― ΩΩΨ¨. ΩΨ§Ψ³ Ψ²Ω Ψ§ΩΨ²ΩΨͺ. ΩΩΨΉΩ Ψ§Ψ¨Ω Ψ΄ΩΩΩΩ (a series of curses in Arabic that, to summarize, basically mean "you and your family are shit." If you want a specific explanation of each sentence uhhhh idk ask ig. Or try Google translate, but I can't promise it'll be accurate.)
I hope the school goes up in flames. With no one inside ofc, but I still hope it goes up in flames.
thatβs one of the reasons i switched schools lowkey
i had issues with ppl there for the most part and my mom didnβt want me going there anymore
everybody was super mean like, NOT good influences at all, and my mom didnβt want me around. i didnβt have an issue staying, itβs just my mom didnβt WANT me there
and i got into this other school
and aaalllll of my test scores that i did online? idk
we had to do this type of testing here in NV where itβs important and all, like we still take finals and stuff but
i donβt know my score
and honestly thatβs such bs that they make u pay?? school district should be paying FOR you??? do u go to a private or smth?
Yeah, most people go to private schools here because it gives more opportunities for education later on like when you graduate.
Honestly, half the boys are this close to getting arrested for pedophilia, two boys have already been arrested, one for unknown reasons and the other for sexual harassment via sending a dick pic to a girl who didn't ask for it DURING the school day.
The girls are the most okay part of that entire school, like none of them suck super hard but some of them are like... brother get help.
The teachers are ass and half of them barely know English, not even the English teachers.
The principal is even more ass and she shouts at everyone and is angry all the time and she's like 5 seconds away from cursing out a student but when it comes to children she's like "hi sweetie π₯° are you OK? π You wanna go home for no reason? Sure anything you want πβ€οΈ" like BRUH. She's Gordon Ramsay if he wasn't funny at all and was instead just incredibly annoying.
The nurse isn't even a nurse she used to work at the reception π if you go to her she's just gonna go "did you eat anything?" If you didn't "go eat" if you did "okay take panadol" then that's it. Good luck with your broken leg, hope the panadol fixes it by magic. If you didn't eat but don't have money or food or friends or a life or a job or an anything. Not her problem, unless you're a child then "okay sweetie here you go have a million dollars go buy yourself something π₯°π" bruhhhhhhhhhh
The shit company that approved my shit school is even more shit than any of these people. What a big fat joke. American school my ass. This is a shit school from shit city.
I hate this place and everyone associated with it.
I'm bored of life. My parents are...fine, my sister is...getting worse day by day. Nothing new happens. I sit alone at home during birthdays because it's during finals and no one will bother to show up, their all too busy studying. I'm bored. I hear these stories of people suffering, going through trauma, and I get so... excited. I want to feel that way once. Traumatised, scared, helpless. I know that sounds crazy. I really do. But...I can't help it. I want to be traumatised. People have it so much worse than me. And I want to feel that, and let them live MY life; boring, sometimes happy, mostly meh. And just...normal. I want people to live normally. But I want to have some sort of trauma, just some sort of something new in my life. Maybe some accident, some...something. something that I can rant about to someone I find someday to see their face contour into horrification. Something that might...not let me be neglected, or ignored. I'm tired of being the comic relief. Tired of making other people laugh when their down. But when I'm sad? Everyone ignores me. I've even stopped someone from committing. Why isn't there anyone to do it for me? Why is my life so...lonely, and boring? Why can't something exciting happen? But in deciding to give it time, as people say "all good things come to an end",..hopefully. why am I even ranting, not like anyone will even read all this.. I'm just some teenager who can't understand her feelings. People have it so much worse than me. I'm so sorry I'm sorry for ranting this much really Im so sorry
I THINK I get how you feel, and I'm srry you feel that way. You should really talk about it with your parents, make it known how they make you feel. They're supposed to be there for you. If you don't want to talk to your parents, yoy can talk to me :))
Hey, uh this is... depression. That feeling of disinterest in everything feeling like everything is dull and every happy moment will eventually go back to being dull. That's depression. But please don't take my word for it, I do not constitute a mental health professional, I'm just speaking on my own experiences.
You should talk to someone about this. Your parents or something. If you can, of course. If you can't, you can always come here or so.
I would also talk to my sister because she's great, but lately.....I don't wanna say I have parental issues but she's started acting like our mother. And that's bad.
Oh. Yeah no people do turn into their parents sometimes. And like if acting like your mother is bad then I'm pretty sure that does mean parental issues but then again I don't know what goes on in your life so maybe I just don't know what I'm talking about.
you feel a lack to live from a lack of excitement, i think thatβs what youβre trying to interpret? thatβs what iβm getting for the most part. thatβs okay because we all need attention! thereβs nothing wrong for wanting attention, especially when we lack it from others. we like to experience that others feels because it is like a rush of excitement
but please for the sake of yourself and maybe your family if they begin to catch on, talk to somebody
itβs not good to keep your feeling in because all youβre doing is containing feelings that SHOULD be let out. your feelings are stuffed in a small bottle, and once itβs overfilled, itβs going to explode, and we donβt want that to happen because that usually leads to very bad things (a lot of people hold these feelings back because they thing theyβll be judged, but if they judge you, they arenβt doing something right)
weβre all for here and for a purpose! to make sure youβre okay and arenβt in any particular mindset that might bring harm towards you. i hope you have the chance to talk to somebody on how you feel π€
I got a reply on a decades old post I made on mgm and then went down a rabbit hole of reading all my old posts on there and... that... sure was a time.
Anyway very fun digital footprint I wish I could get rid of aside, I kinda miss fighting assholes. Yk the ones that used to always come e and say dumb shit that pissed everyone off. I like verbal battles, they're fun.
Seriously does anyone want to get into friendly debate about something, anything.
Sumeru archon quest, mastermind kaveh au because I CAN NOT get this out of my head
This is also from that notebook I talked abot so uhhh
(Timeline:- 1 month before the traveller's arrival in Sumeru.)
It was a decently normal evening in Sumeru City. A certain blond architect was roaming around his shared house as of now, as he had finished (most of) his work. Eventually, consumed by exhaustion, the architect fell asleep in his room.
The distant sound of machinery. The changing of an emerald terminal's colour to crimson.
When the young blond boy opened his eyes, he was in a place unfamiliar. He glanced around the place with his rhinestone eyes, until it landed on his own right(?) ear. His Akasha was....red? Had it malfunctioned?
Consumed in his thoughts, the architect suddenly heard a voice. One similar to that of a child's. He whipped around to the source of the voice, not seeing anyone, he glanced down. It was a girl-- she looked no older than 10 years of age, but her eyes spoke a different story.
"Greetings! You must be 'Kaveh', right?"
The young girl spoke gleefully. Kaveh blinked twice, in slight surprise. A child?...
"Yes... that's me. Where-.... Where am I, exactly?"
Kaveh questioned, slightly perplexed.
"You are in the sanctuary of Surasthana."
The young girl replied. Sanctuary of Surasthana...?
"Right. And....who might you be..?"
the blond boy asked, skeptically.
at this, the girl chuckled.
"I am the archon of dendro. You may know me as lesser lord kusanali. But please, just call me Nahida."
Kaveh paused. Archon? THE dendro archon? A child?
"Pardon me, but....you look like a 10 year old."
....
The young girl erupted into laughter. Kaveh stared at her as if she were insane.
"Oh-! I had expected some respect, but I don't mind this at all--!"
She spoke between her laughs, extremely amused, it seemed.
Kaveh, surprised at the child's sudden laughter, looks at her with confusion in his crimson eyes, and speaks:
"Are you really the archon..?"
Nahida nods at the young boy's naive question, to which Kaveh stares at her for a moment, slightly surprised, before kneeling on one foot, as one would do to royalty.
"Ah-..my apologies...I didn't know.."
the blond boy says, before he feels a small, soft hand on his head.
"You have no need to apologise, my child. It is I who should ask for forgiveness, for this task I'm giving you is quite harsh for a human."
The archon spoke, her voice calm and soft, like that of the mother kaveh never had.
The rest of the page is ripped out.....I wonder what happened there bro.
The funniest thing ever is that you can quite literally just... declare sovereignty.
If it's either publicly owned land or your land you can just pick it and decide "yeah this is the sovereign nation that i rule over now" as long as everyone on that land agrees then yeah you're a sovereign nation.
Like what're they gonna do? Arrest you? They can't, you're a sovereign nation, you don't go by their rules anymore, you go by your rules.
Okay buckle up it's time for me to talk about my recent endeavor. Musical Theatre.
I always acted like a theater kid anyway, might as well become one right haha... that's a lie, I'm not actually participating in any theatre productions, just watching them........ ANYWAY story time
It all started when I was but a wee lad, still but a child in this great big wide world too complicated for me to understand, oblivious to the wonders I was just about to discover, by that I, of course, mean it was like two days ago.
So I was sitting on the couch that I sleep on because I'm a fucking loser (it's comfortable and right in front of the TV, okay, get off my case, mom) and I was listening to some music on the music/podcast streaming service I pay for with my own hard earned money when it decided to play me a song I've never heard before. A recommendation.
This song... was Sincerely, Me from Dear Evan Hansen.
I was so naive back then... I heard the song, I hard it with my ear holes and I thought... "hey... this sounds pretty good. Pretty funny. I guess I could like... maybe watch the musical or something..." oh how wrong I was. How stupid I was. If only I had known.
This is a message to anyone out there at all ever who's even THINKING of watching Dear Evan Hansen... don't. This musical will ruin your life and you will never recover.
It ate my children! Dear Evan Hansen, it entered my house, swept my legs out from under me, punched my wife, then ate my fuckibg children and just left! Like some kind of monster! Why did you do this, Dear Evan Hansen! WHYYYYYYYYYYYY!
Now I can't even listen to any of the songs without thinking... without thinking about little Timmy's face... before he was eaten. Oh, Timmy... I failed you. How can I ever forgive myself.
Anyway after that traumatic experience I decided "hey, why not watch some more musicals. I've already seen Hamilton, and now I've seen... the monster who shall not be named, so why not keep it going!"
The very next thing I watched was Ride the Cyclone. And oh boy... after what Dear Evan Hansen did... Ride the Cyclone practically cradled me like a baby and gave me a forehead kiss goodnight with a bedtime story to boot.
This musical was so incredibly fucking good I will actually EXPLODE.
What I would give to see it live. I'd give anything. My heart. My soul. My kidney or... maybe my liver or something. I would give anything. I would give YOU!
I would give... I would give my first born CHILD to see Ride the Cyclone live. I'd kill anyone and anything in my way if it meant I could see it just once... just one time. My one true love. Ride the Cyclone.
And so it started.
So basically for the past few days I've literally just been watching musicals. Wicked, which I really thought would have some higher quality bootlegs but apparently not, Be More Chill which was hilarious and relatable... minus the brain chip part yk not exactly a normal Sunday, Six, Heathers, and whatnot, you get it. I watched musicals and musicals and musicals.
My entire life the past two days... just musicals. That's all it's been... musicals. It's all I can think of.
So now all that's left... is to watch every musical ever. All of them. I shall become the ultimate God of Musical Theatre, I will become all powerful, so powerful that I will write the PERFECT musical with all my musical theatre knowledge, and then when everyone's seen the best musical in the world, the best musical that has ever existed and will ever exist in the universe, the musical with no flaws whatsoever, all those other musicals just won't cut it anymore, and everyone will turn to me, they'll beg me, BEG to make a new musical BEG for another perfect masterpiece that only I the Musical Theatre GOD can give them, and when I see all their stupid little faces begging and crying for something to enjoy... I'll tell them no. I'll watch as all their tiny little dweeb hopes and dreams and aspirations get brutally crushed under my foot like a hydraulic press and they'll all wallow in their shame and pity and just when they're all so depressed and sad I'll relent. I'll put on a show of feeling bad for them, I'll convince them that their groveling and pathetic displays of the mortal emotion these morons call sadness has touched my pitch black heart and I simply couldn't bear to see them grovel any longer. So I made them a new musical. Another perfect one. They'll all cheer for me and adore me. But what now. They can't just watch these two musicals forever can they? No, no, they can't. They'll need new musicals. They always will. I'll show them a pattern. I'll make them depend on ME for survival and ONLY ME. I'll convince them I care and they'll worship me, they'll worship me like GOD when in reality I AM THE DEVIL! I AM SATAN HIMSELF MADE FLESH AND BONE AND I WILL NEVER DIE! THE REAL GOD IS DEAD FOR I KILLED HIM MYSELF THERE IS ONLY ME WHO RULES OVER THIS DOOMED LITTLE ROCK YOU HOPELESS BEINGS CALL THE PLANET EARTH, ONLY ME FOREVER! I AM YOUR NEW GOD! BOW TO ME!
Wait, what was I saying? Oh yeah, so anyway, I really like musicals now.
I'm watching this show right and this dude's son is like missing so he's looking for him but also his like rival is also looking for him because he temporarily took care of this guy's son as a sort of father figure so they're like talking to this lady and this guy is like "yeah, we're looking for our son." And it's meant in a condescending way like "you bitch, you raised my son even though hes my son" but it just SOUNDS like "we're looking for our son" in a "we're husbands" way
I am dying laughing the worst part is the creators are very much AWARE that the most popular ship in the fandom is literally them so they know what they're doing
Okay well NOW IM REALLY WONDERING WHY IM WATCHING THIS SHOW
YOUR SON YOUR FUCKING SON IS IN PRISON WAITING FOR YOU TO VISIT
WHAT THE FUCK ACTUALLY
I HATE THESE TROPES I HATE THEM SO MUCH JUST PLEASE MAKE IT SO THAT BY SOME MIRACLE HE EITHER MAKES IT OR HIS SON UNDERSTANDS WHY HE DIDNT COME PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT DO THIS TO ME
okay so he's looking for his son because his son ran away because he accidentally almost killed another kid.
So he stole a car and ran away then later they caught him and so now he's in jail or like juvie or whatever and this guy goes to visit the guy his son almost killed in the hospital when he's supposed to be visiting his actual son in jail.
Yeah but like the thing is, the guy his son almost accidentally killed is loke his surrogate son or whatever, he's bonded with him like a son and father dynamic and he wasn't really visiting the hospital he was donating money for his surgery and then planning on leaving and visiting his actual son in jail but his surrogate son's grandma told him to stay and pray for him and tbf he did try to say "no I've gotta be somewhere" but the lady kinda insisted and said "he needs you" so he'd seem like a kinda asshole if he just left but his son is gonna hate him if he doesn't leave so it's a pretty complicated situation and yes he should have visited his son but you can see how the situation can be difficult for someone especially if they have a difficulty saying no and such
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"Just open up your eyes! Why don't you grow up and see!?"
"But what the hell is growing up!? And tell me when will I be?!"
I'm not crying your crying I don't relate you relate (/srs)
Why r there wolves in my body wtf are they doing there how do they even fot inside what are they even getting for food??? Is this why I eat so much but I'm so skinny wtf???
Psych, there are no wolves! You've been tapewormed! πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±πͺ±
Revamping old ocs
Name:
Casper
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Nicknames:
Cas (I just got war flashbacks π)
Pretty boy (by Ash)
Richie Rich
Walking wallet
Dumbshit (by Ash)
Loser (by Ash)
Casper the friendly idiot (once by Ash "at least he said 'friendly' that time.")
Casper the rich fucker (once by Ash)
Casper the stupid ghost (once by Ash)
Casper the... I think you get it atp.
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Birthday: December 6th
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Gender: cis male
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Pronouns: he/him
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Sexuality: Straight (sure, whatever you say, big guy)
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Likes:
Money
New stuff
Money
Ash("I DO NOT")Attention
Money
Bad movies
Money
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Dislikes:
Ash
Misunderstandings ("JUST TALK" he should take his own advice)
People not accepting gifts
Ash
Ash
Ash
Messy places
Mint ("the taste is far too strong")
ASH
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Background:
Casper was born into a rich family, his dad was a CEO and his mom a well known fashion expert and personal stylist. You'd think it'd be a miracle his taste in fashion is so shit with a mother like that, but it's not like she spends enough time with him to give him any fashion advice. His dad hardly cared about him either, he sent him off to public school despite the fact that he could very easily afford a private school. He just gave Cas money instead of attention. Casper did end up finding a group of friends in school, despite being incredibly rude and extremely annoying. He's glad they don't hate his guts and took a chance on him. Though he'd probably die before he'd say that out loud. He's rich, he's not supposed to mingle with commoners.
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Ao3 tag: "repressed emotions in a trench coat"
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Song: Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic
Name:
Ashton
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Nicknames:
Ash
Emo bitch (by Cas)
Tony Hawk
Skater boy
Motherfucker (by Cas)
Wannabe goth (by Cas)
Weirdo (by Cas)
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Birthday: September 18th
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Gender: cis male
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Pronouns: he/him
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Sexuality: very much gay
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Likes:
The color black (no, duh)
Skateboarding
Casper ("he's not gonna see this list, right?")
Cats
Bad movies
Rom-coms ("tell anyone and I will break your fingers")
Video games
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Dislikes:
Summer
People entering his room without permission
People who breathe or chew too loudly
People who... people.
Tea
Birds
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Background:
Son of an unhappily married couple. When he's not holed up in his room blasting music to drown out his fighting parents, he's at the skate park with his friends, trying to do a backside 360 ollie. He keeps falling, which Casper the fucking loser never fails to torment him about. They usually just sit and watch but sometimes he tries to teach them how to skate. Cas never joins though. Too pretty to ruin his nails or some shit. Still, if Ash had to pick between staying at home with his stupid parents who should just get a divorce already and sitting with his friends, who honestly feel more like family to him than his own family ever did. He'd rather be with his friends.
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Ao3 tag: "terrible awful flirting"
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Song: Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
Name:
Jamal
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Nicknames:
Jay
Pinkie (once by Cas)
Marie Curie ("I think she's just the only female scientist they know.")
Science nerd
Blue Jay (by Ash "my hair was blue when he started calling me that. It just stuck around.")
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Birthday: January 3rd
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Gender: transfem
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Pronouns: she/her
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Sexuality: bisexual
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Likes:
Wildlife biology
Music
Collecting little ceramic sculptures
Kids cartoons
Tumblr (she's the resident tumblrina)
Gardening
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Dislikes:
Loud noises
Losing things (even unimportant/small things)
Writing essays
Coffee ("don't know how anyone could like it")
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Background:
When you live with three younger siblings and two working parents, you end up having to become the parent to your siblings. But it's not so bad, at least she can trick them into doing stuff for her without her parents telling her off. Until they come back of course. Once they're back her siblings are no longer her problem so she usually sits in her room studying or watering her plants or listening to music or goes out to hang out with her friends. They're a group of idiots, but it's okay, she can always be the so-called "straight""man" of the group. They also have major problems, but don't worry! She's always there for them. She's the one people come to when they're not okay, and she's happy to be that person! If only she ever took the advice she gives others.
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Ao3 tag: "all knowing and supportive as hell"
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Song: Give a Little - LeGrand & CG5
Name:
Riley
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Nicknames:
Roy
Van Gogh
Picasso
Starving artist
Major Tom (a couple of times by Cas "only when I space out")
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Birthday: July 21st
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Gender: amab non-binary
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Pronouns: they/them
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Sexuality: aro/ace
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Likes:
Bugs
Art
Bracelets
Stickers
Books
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Dislikes:
Honey
Florescent lighting
Social interactions
Nail polish ("strong smell. Also it's just weird to have something on your nail. Maybe that's just me.")
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Background:
Born to a single, working mom. Riley had to take care of themselves a lot of the time. But it's okay, they know their mom is working hard for them. And Riley likes being alone anyway. It's highly preferable over being with others. Not that they don't enjoy their friends' company, they do, just sometimes being alone is nice and sometimes being with friends is nice. Especially since they've never treated Riley different. Unlike most people. But even then they still feel different. Maybe they're broken in some way. But... broken things can be fixed. So maybe Riley just needs to be fixed. Yeah.
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Ao3 tag: "excessive use of the word dude"
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Song: Cool Kids - Echosmith
WAIT I ACTUALLY LOVE THIS OML THANK YOU FOR MAKING A SIMPLE BUT DETAILED CHARACTER CHART π
the ones i find be doing too much but i always be finishing them …
now i wanna do this!
np :)
You totally should 100%
Queer concepts and why they're seen as queer (I am bored):
Vampires: the very idea of being "strange" or "other" has been inherently connected with queerness since forever. Vampires are generally cast out from society and seen as vile beings by humans. Sound familiar? Especially the idea that vampires never chose to be vampires.
Pirates: pirates are generally people who have left regular society in order to be free. The idea that normality and being like other people is keeping you down just sounds like a queer experience. Freeing yourself from the shackles of normality in order to be different is a queer experience.
Cowboys (specifically Outlaws): again with being cast out from society and being seen as different or other. Also, men riding horses. What's stopping them from riding something el- okay I'll shut up. Anyway, criminals in general are seen as kind of queer (depending on the crime) since being gay used to be illegal.
These kinds of concepts lend themselves well to queer stories and are connected with all kinds of queer identities and even ND concepts. Something being seen as "forbidden" or something that's "not allowed" is generally connected with queerness. Forbidden love is a queer idea. None of this to say these concepts can never be hetero whatsoever, but they connect more with queer and ND audiences. The feeling of being separate from the rest of society and being seen as something negative when you're just trying to live your life.
Time for a new hyperfixation!!!,
Drawing these little star clusters on the edge of my pages
Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh????
Okay, well, you base your judgements of how feminine or masculine other people are off the traditional perception of masculinity or femininity, and those traditional values are misogynistic, transphobic, homophobic, and harmful to not just women but also men of all ages.
Most of the personality traits I agreed with were stuff like "independent" and "strong" traits traditionally seen as masculine, which is absolute bullshit. You've basically just said that women can't be independent or strong, a misogynistic statement that has angered women for centuries, and women who possess those traits were often called homophobic slurs, and that men HAVE to be independent and strong, a harmful stereotype that hurts the men who don't possess those traits by invalidating their identity as men, oftentimes men like that are called homophobic slurs as well.
Perhaps you should get some psychiatric help and realize that "feminine" and "masculine" are absolute bullshit, and people can be and do whatever the fuck they want.
Me when I realize that I'm actually alive and a real person and everything that's happening is happening in real life and isn't just some silly dream I'm having or a joke or a tv show.
*Coughs coughs*
I think I'm turning into akutagawa Ryuunosuke(NOT the author)..
The anime character with asma
Astma?
Azma?
Breathn't.
Asthma.
Do you mean like you're just coughing a lot or you like actually have shortness of breath.
Kinda both
I mean I've been unable to take deep breaths and felt like it was enough since I was a child so π€·
Also I realised he doesn't have asthma he has pneumonia. Welp..
Then you should probably get that checked out, asthma is not good especially if you get an illness that impairs breathing function like covid.
Dude i am like OBSESSED with Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy
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book accurate Trillian >>>>>>
Who is this white bitch and why is she pretending to be the ethnic gypsy looking girl we all know and love.
Look how the massacred her
Look how whitewashed she is.
Book Trillian, you will always be special to me.
Especially the hijabi headcanon. Bro like imagine being that inclusive as a fandom. Like you will probably not find a lot of fanart for movie or show Trillian because a majority of the fandom just prefer book Trillian, AKA the non-whitewashed version. I love this fandom fr.
Any H2G2 fanartist that strictly draws book Trillian, I am kissing you on the lips, our wedding is already planned, you have no choice.
Also bro Ford could've saved any one of the millions of humans on Earth and he chose to save Arthur. π€¨π³οΈβπ?
I know what you are, Ford.
No more "would you still love me if I was a worm?" Now it's "if the planet was about to be destroyed by nasty aliens and you were the only one on the Earth that knew, and you could only pick one person form the millions on Earth to save along with yourself... would you save me?"
No pressure btw, just that if you answer "no" I am breaking up with you. If you can't be like this completely fictional alien in this completely fictional universe, then do you even love me? π’
I love how people are trying so hard to make "42" make sense. The author himself literally said it was just a number.
People are like "oh yeah no it actually means this and that" no it doesn't π
I got it guys. The meaning of 42. This is it the definitive meaning, no questions asked.
It's the number of times you have to fart in a row to gain divine enlightenment.
Like man the book is so incredibly unserious, do you really think that in the middle of all the crack the author was snorting he just suddenly went "oh, you know what this book is missing, a random weirdly wise and life changing thing"
The characters literally almost fucking die all because they couldn't drive the ship away from enemies because ALL of it's main computers were too preoccupied trying to make A CUP OF TEA.
In love with this book actually. I want to marry this book.
Uhhh have a kinda bad poem by me:
There is a void where my heart should be
Nothingness in the place of things I love
Hollowness where others get butterflies
I look at the chasm of my life
And realize that I am empty
(Before anyone speaks, istg I am fine, I just like to write depressing poems)
This poem is so real onggg
(I swear I'm fine frfr)
I know fandom is like a shit website but besides it there really is no other page to go to for hordes of fandom information easily accessible. Like not content, information.
What is this ship? Why is it popular? Give me the entire lore of the ship.
Can I learn more about this character from a fandom pov because Wikipedia is shit at searching up fandom stuff? Did the actor actually confirm this character as gay or are people just lying to my face?
Answering these questions is just a lot easier with fandom especially with smaller fandoms that don't have an official wiki. If you're in like the terraria fandom sure you have your own wiki you can ignore fandom as a website completely if you want, but what if you're in a fandom that has like 5 people in it. What then. You don't have a fucking official wiki, you can't code your own, where tf do you go? To fandom. Because anyone can make a wiki using fandom. I swear, I don't like this website any more than... anyone. But what am I supposed to do? Where do I go?
And this, my dear friends, is why I can't wait to move out.
My mom used my room like a damn storage room while I was gone and she messed up all my stuff. I told her before, I tell her over and over "don't touch my stuff I don't like it when you do that" and what does she do? Touches my stuff. Now I have to re-organize.
Frr though my mother randomly arranged my manga how she THINKS it will go when I perfectly arranged it already in order of volume and when I bought it so whenever I come back from school I have to re-organise... π
FR LIKE I put it in a certain order why did you move ittttttt
Guys im dead.
Im dying.
I have a cold. And it's not even my fsukt, I got it from ym stupid sister.
My fault. Ugh. Worxs. Words.
End me.
Oh dear-
Are you okay? I mean- obviously you aren't, but do you feel any better by the time I'm replying- I hope you get better soon!!
I feel okay ig. Don't feel as nauseous as yesterday.
Thats great then!! I hope you get better soon <33
I didn't get better I got worse. My voice is gone. Literally gone. But it's fine it'll come back eventually
Oh no..
HELPP I think you gave some of your sickness to me because now i have a fever and my throat also hurts so I basically lost my voice ππ
Sick twinz
Me deleting c.ai so fast after knowing staff can read our chats.
uhmmmm, I prefer to embarrass myself in private, thanks.β€οΈ
Like noooo now I can't be cringe in peace now I have to be cringe with an audience π noooooooooo
what.
wdym..
what do you
what do you mean? π₯°
they
read our
chats?
π₯°…
yeah, the person who made the bot and the staff can read your chats.
My wattpad ass chats are exposed to the world bro I'm gonna cry π
OH HELL NO THIS IS WHY I MAKE MY OWN BOTS WITH MY OWN OCS OH HELLLL NOOO πππ
Ive never actually made my own bot before
Oh dang I mean..
Idrc what I do with my bots since I do LITTERALLY anything I want bc I mostly just do soukoku bots and a couple others from genshin and stuff
I'll be like "oh? HaiKaveh angst idea. LETS DO DISSS"
Because I can't actually write on ao3 *dies*
Why cant you
Well-
...I don't know actually
I just CANT
I physically CANT
YES YOU CAN IF I DID IT SO CAN YOU
I'm like the biggest coward on the planet dude. I avoided posting on ao3 for YEARS. And I mean that literally. Actual years. And if there's one thing I've learned it's that there are millions of people on ao3 and someone is bound to like what you write no matter what. And even if they don't, whatever, fanfic is a self-indulgent concept, you should be writing for you anyway. Plus some people give great advice in the comments on ways to improve your writing. And even if you don't post on ao3 you can still write on like ms word or in your notes or something to yourself and just never post it. That's what I do mostly.
"Any day now, she'll set fire to her head. She smokes in bed." Why do I kinda relate I DONT EVEN SMOKE ππ
You guys won't fucking BELEIVE what just fucking happened.
I'm on vacation rn so I'm just at this resprt that me and my family go to EVERY YEAR. We never really had any problems, duh, if we did we wouldn't come here every year.
Anyway, point is, every day at sunset and sunrise they spray this little bug spray around the place. Yk, gotta keep the place insect free. They don't spray it inside rooms unless necessary so it's just outside. So today, after both my sisters went to sleep, I was the only one awake, and I heard, outside, the guy spraying the bug spray. Now he sprays a lot, and obviously you're not supposed to breathe it in so you have two options when he does this, go back inside your room, or hold your breath. I was already inside the room so I was like "alr whtv" then I start smelling the bug spray. Inside the room.
Now, logically, this shouldnβt be happening. The door is locked and so is the window. But like whatever, maybe we just accidentally left it open or something so I open the curtains to check and lo and behold, the door was completely locked and the windows were as well.
Now that is weird. Well, probably just my mind playing tricks on me. I turn around, and I notice that the entire room is filled with smoke. Wispy white smoke, like fog where you can only see it if you're far away. And whatever this fog was, the room was rapidly filling up with it. Oh fuck.
So I am now rapidly running around looking for the keys to the room so I can unlock the door because the window decided for some reason that it wanted to be fucking jammed, when I realize where the contaminated air is coming from. The air conditioning. I look up and there is white fog coming from the AC. I turn it off, find the key and open the door letting the room air out.
What the actual fuck. No seriously what. Our room was filling up with smoke and the smoke alarm didn't go off at all. What the fuck.
We've never run into a problem like this here before, literally NEVER.
do you guys ever miss like random years in the 2010s???
like
this entire summer i wanted to be back in summer of 2012-2018 like
that was the PRIME guys
2019, 2020, 2023-(EXCLUDING 2021-2022 FOR A REASON), 2024 cool and all but
2014-2017??? literally didnβt have a SINGLE worry in the world
and the music was so fun to listen to
sigh
to be back in those times π
I remember I first learnt about miku in 2017 ππ
THAT WAS THE PRIMEEE
Life update yippeee
So like I'm at my grandmother's house rn. Also I started cutting myself!! Yay depression!!! One of my bestest cousin friends which I rarely ever see is going to come too tomorrow so LETS GOOOOOOOO
dreaming you should honesty speak to somebody about this it isnβt good to self harm and itβs not an easy topic to talk about but the guilt years after of seeing scars is painful
please for your health go talk to somebody. i lost somebody very dear to me because they were too scared to reach out, and so many other people will feel shame and guilt for not asking if youβre okay
so please just talk to somebody about your emotions instead of self harming
Dreaming you should really talk to somebody who can help you about this.
i took this from queen cuz iβm mad right now and i need something to get off my mind so
here it is!
name: nataly, natalia, nat, natty, chismosa, ratalia, natalia-ratalia (NOBODY CALLS ME TBIS ANYMORE π’), taylorswiftlover69
appearance: 5β6-1/2, honey brown almond eyes, natural wavy/curly brown/blonde highlighted hair, greek…nose?…very like light skin, natural blush, bottom hourglass-(BUT I AM NOT FLAT WHEN IT COMES TO MY CHEST π), i like..regular..fashion!…idk like i donβt have a style brah. whatever cargo/tanktops are π’. i like sundresses! i also like nikes! but not skirts
current obsessions: t-swizz, chappell roan, billie eilish………..psycho..logy?…IDK π. oh AND the eras tour..but i think that kinda works with tay!
character arc: i want my dad to be able to see reality and stop being mean and treat me like a DECENT human being. i also want to drop out of honors biology because itβs very hard. i also want to cry in the shower when i get home
personality type: esfp!
By psychology do you mean psychiatry? Like the study of human emotions and behavior as related to mental disorders/illnesses? Or psychology as in psychology in general? The study of behavior in animals.
….i mean idk cuz iβm in a psych class rn and iβm studying the humanβs behavior so…psychiatric material…?..
oh cool maybe you can figure out wtf is wrong with me./j
haha honestly the psychology weβre studying right now is super good
itβs like thereβs 7 types of different psych? some psychologists will say itβs like a physical issue (genes) some behavior, some say itβs just your attitude, and some other things. like who u hang out with can affect u??
well I'm talking mostly abt things you're born with. Autism, adhd, yk things that affect your brain function that have no cure and cannot simply appear, you have to be born with it to have it.
Neurodivergence basically. Yk things that might have some hereditary influence but the exact cause is unknown and such.
Because my sister says I have low-empathy disorder (they don't use the words psychopath or sociopath anymore because it takes on a negative connotation) and maybe some sort of autism. My mom thinks I might have adhd and my other sister says I have ocd.
I know my other sister is wrong because I don't have the same obsessive thoughts related to OCD, but I wonder if my sister and my mom might have a point.
I kinda already know I'm neurodivergent I just don't know what exactly.
In my psych class I took a few different types of psychology. Mostly it was psychiatry, but we also studied animal behaviors every now and then and the different types of psychology.
We also studied the generational identity in which every generation believes themselves to be better than the next one because "that's how I was raised, and I turned out fine so that must be the correct way to be raised and these new ways of raising kids just ain't right." Then the next generation complains about the last generation treating them badly because of this only to do it again to the generation after them. For example, Gen Z complains that the past generations make fun of them and treat them badly, but they do the same thing to Gen Alpha. It's also, each generation thinks that they're going to be the change in the cycle, that they won't treat the next generation the same way they were treated, but they always always do. It's also, with the way the world is so rapidly changing nowadays, each generation can only relate to people in their own generation and find difficulty relating to other generations because ultimately they didn't grow up with the same struggles and the same lives. That's why there's such a big divide between each generation. Because we just can't relate to each other anymore. Not even because it's physically impossible to, but because of the generational identity that we built. It's a sort of "stay in your lane and we stay in ours" situation, like cliques. Generations don't mix because no one, no one changes the way they think. No one tries to understand. The cycle doesn't stop. Gen Alpha, they'll complain about Gen Z. They'll grow up and treat the next generation the same. It's always the same. I'm not being pessimistic, and I'm not being a "realist" I'm being genuinely serious. This is the way it is. And the chances of the cycle ever stopping, of a generation ever pausing and going "wait... what are we doing?" Are so low. It repeats and repeats and repeats. The cycle always repeats. But no one ever stops to recognize it.
We also took like the basics. Yk, classical conditioning, mental disorders, blah blah blah.
Shout out to characters based off the fates. Gotta be one of my favorite genders fr.
Uhhh I'm bored
Name: oh boy. Queen, Queenie, Nightcrawler, Sprinkles, I'm known as Loki by some people, my irl name if you know it, uhhhh can't think of any else so I hope that's all of em.
Appearance: 5'7" round black glasses, brown hair, mullet, dark brown eyes, hooked nose ig(?), natural blush, pimple scars, rectangle body type I think, I don't necessarily have a set fashion style, but I guess I like to dress in ways that stand out. I'm fashionable. Mostly wide leg pants and platform shoes. Skirts/dresses possible but I don't wear them a whole lot.
Current obsession: Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Percy Jackson, and the Hercule Poirot book series. (Yes, I am a NERD, bookworm, I'm studious. From my cerebral cortex to my gluteus.)
Current character arc: avoiding the fact that I have to go back to school soon and acting like it's totally okay and I'm not about to break down crying over it. Send help.
Personality type: INTP
hey i wanna do this!
Help me and my freinds are making an anime and we decided to write introductions so now I'm gunna do it with my online persona(Y'all can try it too?)
Name:Dreaming
Appearence:idk bro, litterally anything you think. But just so you know, I'm a female and kinda tomboyish. Maybe emo? Nah I hardly wear black. But I have black straight hair which is super long. Bassically just Gin Akutagawa from BSD
Current obsession:Bungou Stray Dogs and Ice/Figure skaters..(π)
Current character arc:depression. Maybe. But it is some mental disorder. I mean, I did start cutting myself. /Hj
Personality:INTJ...or was it ISFP?? I forgot. Mostly introverted(unless your name is[REDACTED] irl)
Wait, hold on pause.
Did I start cutting myself?
...I don't even know now.
I mean, I do know I cut myself starting day before yesterday and now I have 6 cuts on my left wrist.. but like....why?... I don't even have it that bad- I mean- my life is mid as hell and it's boring, wtf happened....
I--...
Well...it's not like I DON'T want to cut myself, but...this is...new.
hey, so, this is kinda fucking crazy!
are they trying to get me an academic come-DOWN ?
counselor
i kinda have even and odd days, and the silly thing is IF you didnβt notice, that i have FOUR periods every day!
and i have
FOUR FUCKING HONORS CLASS
and did you know that if you divide 4/2 you get two?
MEANING YOU COULDβVE FUCKING JUST GIVEN ME TWO HONORS EVERY DAY AND NOT 3 IN ONE?
one honors for my odd day. which is the easiest honors.
bro i loved my schedule last year, like i had 7 classes everyday BUT i didnβt need to be stressed one day and not as stress the other. i HATE that itβs like βoh! youβre going to be relived today-but tomorrow you wonβt π₯°β JUST MAKE ME FUCKING SUFFER BOTH DAYS OH MY GOD???
anyways
i will update you guys
tomorrow
after my school day is done
since
tmr
i start
school..
again..π’
Four... four periods every day...
I wish I had four periods every day....
I wish my school wasn't shit.
i wish i didnβt cry for 2 hours once i got home from the first day of school
i miss my old school
i had 7 classes everyday
and i was happy
I have nine.
And I am not happy.
But I'm not gonna fucking like switch schools cause whatever it's two years and why would I put myself through the torture of being the new girl at school again.
Just two more years and I can flip the school off on my way out.
I swear it's so fucking shit dude.
Imagine this, mid-year, they started CHARGING US for the Google classroom accounts. So the people who didn't have money too fucking bad ig. And they won't accept homework assignments in physical form, it has to be on Google classroom. What the Ψ²ΩΨͺ (trash/shit in arabic).
Not to mention that, now that the school year is over, they've shut all the Google classroom accounts for the students. But wait... what's this? They sent the exam results... AFTER ALL THE ACCOUNTS WERE SHUT. MONTHS AFTER SCHOOL IS OVER.
So, how are we going to see our results, you ask? That's the thing, WE DON'T.
Every other school got to see their results. Us? Ψ·Ψ² (shortened version of Ψ·Ψ² ΩΩΩ/ΩΩΩΩ/ΩΩΩΩΨ§ which just means "screw you").
What do we do? We pull the results from our ass? Or from theirs?
This entire school is shit and the people who made it are shit and the people in it are shit and the ground it is on is shit.
Ψ·Ψ² ΩΩΩΩ Ω ΩΨ£ΩΩΩΩ . ΩΩΨ§Ψ― ΩΩΨ¨. ΩΨ§Ψ³ Ψ²Ω Ψ§ΩΨ²ΩΨͺ. ΩΩΨΉΩ Ψ§Ψ¨Ω Ψ΄ΩΩΩΩ (a series of curses in Arabic that, to summarize, basically mean "you and your family are shit." If you want a specific explanation of each sentence uhhhh idk ask ig. Or try Google translate, but I can't promise it'll be accurate.)
I hope the school goes up in flames. With no one inside ofc, but I still hope it goes up in flames.
thatβs one of the reasons i switched schools lowkey
i had issues with ppl there for the most part and my mom didnβt want me going there anymore
everybody was super mean like, NOT good influences at all, and my mom didnβt want me around. i didnβt have an issue staying, itβs just my mom didnβt WANT me there
and i got into this other school
and aaalllll of my test scores that i did online? idk
we had to do this type of testing here in NV where itβs important and all, like we still take finals and stuff but
i donβt know my score
and honestly thatβs such bs that they make u pay?? school district should be paying FOR you??? do u go to a private or smth?
Yeah, most people go to private schools here because it gives more opportunities for education later on like when you graduate.
Honestly, half the boys are this close to getting arrested for pedophilia, two boys have already been arrested, one for unknown reasons and the other for sexual harassment via sending a dick pic to a girl who didn't ask for it DURING the school day.
The girls are the most okay part of that entire school, like none of them suck super hard but some of them are like... brother get help.
The teachers are ass and half of them barely know English, not even the English teachers.
The principal is even more ass and she shouts at everyone and is angry all the time and she's like 5 seconds away from cursing out a student but when it comes to children she's like "hi sweetie π₯° are you OK? π You wanna go home for no reason? Sure anything you want πβ€οΈ" like BRUH. She's Gordon Ramsay if he wasn't funny at all and was instead just incredibly annoying.
The nurse isn't even a nurse she used to work at the reception π if you go to her she's just gonna go "did you eat anything?" If you didn't "go eat" if you did "okay take panadol" then that's it. Good luck with your broken leg, hope the panadol fixes it by magic. If you didn't eat but don't have money or food or friends or a life or a job or an anything. Not her problem, unless you're a child then "okay sweetie here you go have a million dollars go buy yourself something π₯°π" bruhhhhhhhhhh
The shit company that approved my shit school is even more shit than any of these people. What a big fat joke. American school my ass. This is a shit school from shit city.
I hate this place and everyone associated with it.
Y'all...YALL HAVE DIFFERENT SCHEDULES???
i-- I always thiugt all schools have one 0 period(sometimes of two hours), 4 starting periods, a lunch break and 4 ending periods...
What the fuckkkk......?????
...
I have three starting periods.
AND SIX ENDING PERIODS.
Imagine, three lessons, a 25 minute break, then SIX MORE LESSONS to the end of the day.
WHAT. THAT'S JUST CRUEL.
ikr π
I hate this school sm bro
I can't wait for these next 2 years to be DONE WITH so I can apply to uni and never have to see that stupid school ever again.
yesss but its completely different
last year i had 7 periods everyday, like every class every day 8:30am-4:00pm
this year at my new school itβs 4 classes everyday, (i have odd day and even days, so in total 8 classes) 7:00am-1:30pm
lowkey today was fun
i loved it
i already have a friend group π
"why do you want to end it?"
(Tw: vent?)
I'm bored of life. My parents are...fine, my sister is...getting worse day by day. Nothing new happens. I sit alone at home during birthdays because it's during finals and no one will bother to show up, their all too busy studying. I'm bored. I hear these stories of people suffering, going through trauma, and I get so... excited. I want to feel that way once. Traumatised, scared, helpless. I know that sounds crazy. I really do. But...I can't help it. I want to be traumatised. People have it so much worse than me. And I want to feel that, and let them live MY life; boring, sometimes happy, mostly meh. And just...normal. I want people to live normally. But I want to have some sort of trauma, just some sort of something new in my life. Maybe some accident, some...something. something that I can rant about to someone I find someday to see their face contour into horrification. Something that might...not let me be neglected, or ignored. I'm tired of being the comic relief. Tired of making other people laugh when their down. But when I'm sad? Everyone ignores me. I've even stopped someone from committing. Why isn't there anyone to do it for me? Why is my life so...lonely, and boring? Why can't something exciting happen? But in deciding to give it time, as people say "all good things come to an end",..hopefully. why am I even ranting, not like anyone will even read all this.. I'm just some teenager who can't understand her feelings. People have it so much worse than me. I'm so sorry I'm sorry for ranting this much really Im so sorry
I THINK I get how you feel, and I'm srry you feel that way. You should really talk about it with your parents, make it known how they make you feel. They're supposed to be there for you. If you don't want to talk to your parents, yoy can talk to me :))
OFF TOPIC BUT WHERE TF HAVE U BEEN LMAOOO ππ
Yippeee c:
I guess that's better?.. maybe.
Hey, uh this is... depression. That feeling of disinterest in everything feeling like everything is dull and every happy moment will eventually go back to being dull. That's depression. But please don't take my word for it, I do not constitute a mental health professional, I'm just speaking on my own experiences.
You should talk to someone about this. Your parents or something. If you can, of course. If you can't, you can always come here or so.
I WOULD talk to my parents if they wouldn't brush it off like "Oh it's because of that damn computer, it's messed with your head!" Like BRO.
Oh man that sucks. I hate that. I wish people would just listen.
I would also talk to my sister because she's great, but lately.....I don't wanna say I have parental issues but she's started acting like our mother. And that's bad.
Oh. Yeah no people do turn into their parents sometimes. And like if acting like your mother is bad then I'm pretty sure that does mean parental issues but then again I don't know what goes on in your life so maybe I just don't know what I'm talking about.
you feel a lack to live from a lack of excitement, i think thatβs what youβre trying to interpret? thatβs what iβm getting for the most part. thatβs okay because we all need attention! thereβs nothing wrong for wanting attention, especially when we lack it from others. we like to experience that others feels because it is like a rush of excitement
but please for the sake of yourself and maybe your family if they begin to catch on, talk to somebody
itβs not good to keep your feeling in because all youβre doing is containing feelings that SHOULD be let out. your feelings are stuffed in a small bottle, and once itβs overfilled, itβs going to explode, and we donβt want that to happen because that usually leads to very bad things (a lot of people hold these feelings back because they thing theyβll be judged, but if they judge you, they arenβt doing something right)
weβre all for here and for a purpose! to make sure youβre okay and arenβt in any particular mindset that might bring harm towards you. i hope you have the chance to talk to somebody on how you feel π€
Do y'all ever just
You, adorned with crimson and gold
Toil at your desk every night
Not paying mind to what youβve been told
βYou try to do βrightβ, itβs futile."
Youβre always on edge and you strive for perfection with
Planning and measuring every detail
I watch you draw, erase, draw and then black out again
And you never admit wanting fame or attention
You only work hard so your structures wonβt fail
Is seeing it finished worth every Mora you spend?
Within every building made with pride
The architect lives on inside
Shining paint, a marble heart
Tirelessly makes works of art
You build day by day
Sculpt your dreams out of clay
But you hopΠ΅ that your towers donβt fall
So I wonβt have to see
The writing on thΠ΅ wall
Keeping track of all of your mistakes
The penalties heavy, you drown
I come to say, βThatβs not all it takes
For your walls to come crumbling down.β
But then you ignore me, advice turning voiceless
As I further tell you to not waste away
Cover your ears and fill your own heart with the lies
Saying βYou need to suffer, and starve, cause you always
Canβt settle for less, need to have it your wayβ
Cause maybe, just maybe, theyβre trying to give you a sign
That with every building made with pride
The architect is locked inside
Walls press in and choke your heart
Any day, youβll fall apart
I scream and I pray
That Iβll reach you some way
Cause together we can make it through
I will be there soon
The writing on the wall
Every day, we play this game of chance
Whirling through a desperate dance
Sketching visions in our heads
Then you rip them all to shreds
Not once did you share
Pain you shouldered, but bared
Did you notice me watch over you?
Iβve seen all the things your brush had made you do
Now that all your buildings, towering high
Crumble down, youβre trapped inside
Finished ending at the start
Now itβs time to play my part
Iβll come save your soul
As your βright wayβ takes a toll
And then at the end of it all, I will rewrite your fate
As writing on the wall
(Someone be the Kaveh to my alhaitham)
Uhm...I found a page of my old drawings and like...
Some of them are completely ripped out, slightly wet, and have tinted red stains.
Uhm...
WHAT HAPPENED.
DREAMING WHO DID YOU KILL
I DONT KNOW?????
I REMEMBER THIS WAS AROUND THE TIME I GOT RLLY MAD AT MY PARENTS(ESPECIALLY MY DAD) SINCE HE RIPPED MY DRAWINGS RIGHT INFRONT OF ME
BUT LIKE I ALSO HAVE A COUPLE SCARS I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW I GOT MYSELF-
SO I POSSIBLY KILLED MYSELF???? IDKK????
Is this why my parents don't touch my drawings nowadays..
DREAMING NOOOO BRING YOURSELF BACK TO LIFE :(
IDK HOW
Wait is this why I've been ignored the past few days js not by my freinds/family.
Uhm.
Am I a ghost?
π¨ a message from beyond the grave
Tell me, what is it like to be dead?
Me reading 3 different books at the same time for reasons that elude even me.
Roses are red
This chapter is hell
MITOCHONDRIA IS THE POWERHOUSE OF THE CELL.
(I js started my cell chapter :3)
LEORIO IS 6'3??????
6'3!?????
WHAT THE HELL
(can u tell I started watching Hunter X Hunter)
Huh. Thought he was taller.
NGL same seeing him standing beside kurapika. Pika is so teeny tiny
Also THE SCENE IN THE 1999 VERSION IN THE FIRST PHASE OF THE EXAM???
"Why are you talking like that?-- wouldn't that make people think you swing the other way!?" -leorio, to kurapika
Did he just call pika a twink.
Haha yk I'm gonna be so honest I genuinely could not tell if Kurapika was a boy or a girl for a good chunk of the first episode.
And no, you're mistaken, Leorio called him gay.
But he is in fact a twink.
Omg I actually searched up Kurapika for this and he's TWELVE π¨π¨
But- but pika is gay...
In the 1999 version when they were on the ship and leorio exchanged rooms with hanzo to roomate with kurapika, he legit said
"I have some business with my partner."
Ayo? What type business leo?π€¨(Leo is 19 btw, 2 years age gap)
NO???
KURAPIKA IS 17.
ITS STATED IN THE SHOW(and in Google)
Oh dude apparently it's INFERRED that he's 12 then later it's like explicitly stated that he's 17.
I read it wrong okayyy
Being smart never stopped me from being a complete fucking idiot ig.
Anyway on the topic of Kurapika and Leorio being gay, they're really on some Pair: Do Not Separate type shit
Leorio would not survive without Kurapika lmao
I got a reply on a decades old post I made on mgm and then went down a rabbit hole of reading all my old posts on there and... that... sure was a time.
Anyway very fun digital footprint I wish I could get rid of aside, I kinda miss fighting assholes. Yk the ones that used to always come e and say dumb shit that pissed everyone off. I like verbal battles, they're fun.
Seriously does anyone want to get into friendly debate about something, anything.
ME ME ME I LOVE DEBATING HOLY SHIT (i used to be a main debater in history all the time)
what shall we debate about
uuummm….
do we wanna do something silly or more less serious like politics?
anything you want just as long as I know something about it. I can't talk about something I don't know.
okay i know you know something about music
letβs debate who should win album of the year at the grammys this year? π€
I have not listened to any of these albums.
I live under a rock whatever brb I will eat then listen to the albums and evaluate each one.
okay!!! actually i can give you a list for the main people who might have a chance at winning?
the tortured poets department - taylor swift
the tortured poets department: the anthology - taylor swift
cowboy carter - beyoncΓ©
143 - katy perry
eternal sunshine- ariana grande
short n sweet - sabrina carpenter
hit me hard n soft - billie elish
the rise and fall of the midwest princess - chappell roan
Alright..uhhh..genshin fanfic time?
Sumeru archon quest, mastermind kaveh au because I CAN NOT get this out of my head
This is also from that notebook I talked abot so uhhh
(Timeline:- 1 month before the traveller's arrival in Sumeru.)
It was a decently normal evening in Sumeru City. A certain blond architect was roaming around his shared house as of now, as he had finished (most of) his work. Eventually, consumed by exhaustion, the architect fell asleep in his room.
The distant sound of machinery. The changing of an emerald terminal's colour to crimson.
When the young blond boy opened his eyes, he was in a place unfamiliar. He glanced around the place with his rhinestone eyes, until it landed on his own right(?) ear. His Akasha was....red? Had it malfunctioned?
Consumed in his thoughts, the architect suddenly heard a voice. One similar to that of a child's. He whipped around to the source of the voice, not seeing anyone, he glanced down. It was a girl-- she looked no older than 10 years of age, but her eyes spoke a different story.
"Greetings! You must be 'Kaveh', right?"
The young girl spoke gleefully. Kaveh blinked twice, in slight surprise. A child?...
"Yes... that's me. Where-.... Where am I, exactly?"
Kaveh questioned, slightly perplexed.
"You are in the sanctuary of Surasthana."
The young girl replied. Sanctuary of Surasthana...?
"Right. And....who might you be..?"
the blond boy asked, skeptically.
at this, the girl chuckled.
"I am the archon of dendro. You may know me as lesser lord kusanali. But please, just call me Nahida."
Kaveh paused. Archon? THE dendro archon? A child?
"Pardon me, but....you look like a 10 year old."
....
The young girl erupted into laughter. Kaveh stared at her as if she were insane.
"Oh-! I had expected some respect, but I don't mind this at all--!"
She spoke between her laughs, extremely amused, it seemed.
Kaveh, surprised at the child's sudden laughter, looks at her with confusion in his crimson eyes, and speaks:
"Are you really the archon..?"
Nahida nods at the young boy's naive question, to which Kaveh stares at her for a moment, slightly surprised, before kneeling on one foot, as one would do to royalty.
"Ah-..my apologies...I didn't know.."
the blond boy says, before he feels a small, soft hand on his head.
"You have no need to apologise, my child. It is I who should ask for forgiveness, for this task I'm giving you is quite harsh for a human."
The archon spoke, her voice calm and soft, like that of the mother kaveh never had.
The rest of the page is ripped out.....I wonder what happened there bro.
Hi guys
Yooooo I'm declaring sovereignty right now and making a country that uses THIS currency.
Hell yeah
I'd move there
The funniest thing ever is that you can quite literally just... declare sovereignty.
If it's either publicly owned land or your land you can just pick it and decide "yeah this is the sovereign nation that i rule over now" as long as everyone on that land agrees then yeah you're a sovereign nation.
Like what're they gonna do? Arrest you? They can't, you're a sovereign nation, you don't go by their rules anymore, you go by your rules.
Lmfao thats crazy
Good for later information
Lmao tell me when you declare sovereignty so I can become a citizen of your nation
I found my old fanfiction notebook.....
And some of it is actually..decent(?) but none of it is finished so if I get enough people for validation I will finish one of it
(I could also write the best one here if y'all want)
Pretty please
Yes. Do it.
Okay buckle up it's time for me to talk about my recent endeavor. Musical Theatre.
I always acted like a theater kid anyway, might as well become one right haha... that's a lie, I'm not actually participating in any theatre productions, just watching them........ ANYWAY story time
It all started when I was but a wee lad, still but a child in this great big wide world too complicated for me to understand, oblivious to the wonders I was just about to discover, by that I, of course, mean it was like two days ago.
So I was sitting on the couch that I sleep on because I'm a fucking loser (it's comfortable and right in front of the TV, okay, get off my case, mom) and I was listening to some music on the music/podcast streaming service I pay for with my own hard earned money when it decided to play me a song I've never heard before. A recommendation.
This song... was Sincerely, Me from Dear Evan Hansen.
I was so naive back then... I heard the song, I hard it with my ear holes and I thought... "hey... this sounds pretty good. Pretty funny. I guess I could like... maybe watch the musical or something..." oh how wrong I was. How stupid I was. If only I had known.
This is a message to anyone out there at all ever who's even THINKING of watching Dear Evan Hansen... don't. This musical will ruin your life and you will never recover.
It ate my children! Dear Evan Hansen, it entered my house, swept my legs out from under me, punched my wife, then ate my fuckibg children and just left! Like some kind of monster! Why did you do this, Dear Evan Hansen! WHYYYYYYYYYYYY!
Now I can't even listen to any of the songs without thinking... without thinking about little Timmy's face... before he was eaten. Oh, Timmy... I failed you. How can I ever forgive myself.
Anyway after that traumatic experience I decided "hey, why not watch some more musicals. I've already seen Hamilton, and now I've seen... the monster who shall not be named, so why not keep it going!"
The very next thing I watched was Ride the Cyclone. And oh boy... after what Dear Evan Hansen did... Ride the Cyclone practically cradled me like a baby and gave me a forehead kiss goodnight with a bedtime story to boot.
This musical was so incredibly fucking good I will actually EXPLODE.
What I would give to see it live. I'd give anything. My heart. My soul. My kidney or... maybe my liver or something. I would give anything. I would give YOU!
I would give... I would give my first born CHILD to see Ride the Cyclone live. I'd kill anyone and anything in my way if it meant I could see it just once... just one time. My one true love. Ride the Cyclone.
And so it started.
So basically for the past few days I've literally just been watching musicals. Wicked, which I really thought would have some higher quality bootlegs but apparently not, Be More Chill which was hilarious and relatable... minus the brain chip part yk not exactly a normal Sunday, Six, Heathers, and whatnot, you get it. I watched musicals and musicals and musicals.
My entire life the past two days... just musicals. That's all it's been... musicals. It's all I can think of.
So now all that's left... is to watch every musical ever. All of them. I shall become the ultimate God of Musical Theatre, I will become all powerful, so powerful that I will write the PERFECT musical with all my musical theatre knowledge, and then when everyone's seen the best musical in the world, the best musical that has ever existed and will ever exist in the universe, the musical with no flaws whatsoever, all those other musicals just won't cut it anymore, and everyone will turn to me, they'll beg me, BEG to make a new musical BEG for another perfect masterpiece that only I the Musical Theatre GOD can give them, and when I see all their stupid little faces begging and crying for something to enjoy... I'll tell them no. I'll watch as all their tiny little dweeb hopes and dreams and aspirations get brutally crushed under my foot like a hydraulic press and they'll all wallow in their shame and pity and just when they're all so depressed and sad I'll relent. I'll put on a show of feeling bad for them, I'll convince them that their groveling and pathetic displays of the mortal emotion these morons call sadness has touched my pitch black heart and I simply couldn't bear to see them grovel any longer. So I made them a new musical. Another perfect one. They'll all cheer for me and adore me. But what now. They can't just watch these two musicals forever can they? No, no, they can't. They'll need new musicals. They always will. I'll show them a pattern. I'll make them depend on ME for survival and ONLY ME. I'll convince them I care and they'll worship me, they'll worship me like GOD when in reality I AM THE DEVIL! I AM SATAN HIMSELF MADE FLESH AND BONE AND I WILL NEVER DIE! THE REAL GOD IS DEAD FOR I KILLED HIM MYSELF THERE IS ONLY ME WHO RULES OVER THIS DOOMED LITTLE ROCK YOU HOPELESS BEINGS CALL THE PLANET EARTH, ONLY ME FOREVER! I AM YOUR NEW GOD! BOW TO ME!
Wait, what was I saying? Oh yeah, so anyway, I really like musicals now.
So like..I started watching Kaguya-Sama: Love Is War..
And the SECOND ENDING???
God, Chika's adorable--
The "Kaguya-San" was so on point- the putting her hair to her ear to show kaguya?? UGELSGKAGEI
And the "IQ of Three, but you can leave it all to me!!"
That's gotta be my motto now.
I'm watching this show right and this dude's son is like missing so he's looking for him but also his like rival is also looking for him because he temporarily took care of this guy's son as a sort of father figure so they're like talking to this lady and this guy is like "yeah, we're looking for our son." And it's meant in a condescending way like "you bitch, you raised my son even though hes my son" but it just SOUNDS like "we're looking for our son" in a "we're husbands" way
I am dying laughing the worst part is the creators are very much AWARE that the most popular ship in the fandom is literally them so they know what they're doing
Sometimes I wonder why I watch this show.
Okay well NOW IM REALLY WONDERING WHY IM WATCHING THIS SHOW
YOUR SON YOUR FUCKING SON IS IN PRISON WAITING FOR YOU TO VISIT
WHAT THE FUCK ACTUALLY
I HATE THESE TROPES I HATE THEM SO MUCH JUST PLEASE MAKE IT SO THAT BY SOME MIRACLE HE EITHER MAKES IT OR HIS SON UNDERSTANDS WHY HE DIDNT COME PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD DONT DO THIS TO ME
WJAT THE FUCK???
HES LOOKING FOR HIS SON BIT SAID SON IS IN PRISON??
WJAT DID BRO DOOO???
WHAT DID THE SON DO TO BE IN PRISONN??
okay so he's looking for his son because his son ran away because he accidentally almost killed another kid.
So he stole a car and ran away then later they caught him and so now he's in jail or like juvie or whatever and this guy goes to visit the guy his son almost killed in the hospital when he's supposed to be visiting his actual son in jail.
Shitty dad frfr
Yeah but like the thing is, the guy his son almost accidentally killed is loke his surrogate son or whatever, he's bonded with him like a son and father dynamic and he wasn't really visiting the hospital he was donating money for his surgery and then planning on leaving and visiting his actual son in jail but his surrogate son's grandma told him to stay and pray for him and tbf he did try to say "no I've gotta be somewhere" but the lady kinda insisted and said "he needs you" so he'd seem like a kinda asshole if he just left but his son is gonna hate him if he doesn't leave so it's a pretty complicated situation and yes he should have visited his son but you can see how the situation can be difficult for someone especially if they have a difficulty saying no and such
MY MOTHER FINALLY DID SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE OMGG
SHE'S- SHE'S LETTING ME BUY MARY JANES!!!! WITH HER MONEY
72(GEKGlwtwoagwistwo
REDEMPTION ARC???
Lol ok